Feeling Unqualified and Insecure? It’s Jesus Who Qualifies You.


Lately the attacks have been so real that a live person came to accuse me. This revelation transformed me, I feel God elevating us to a new level of identity! Praise God!

YOU ARE QUALIFIED BY JESUS HIMSELF! NOT by your own credentials, resume, education, works, looks, genes, DNA or family background. GOD’s POWER SURPASSES ALL THAT! ALLOW HOLY SPIRIT to REIGN and FLOURISH through you!



Overcoming Oppression


I have been having intense dreams in the last 3 nights, where I’m casting out demons people couldn’t see. I had migraines and was fighting battles. I considered whether I should write this post as I didn’t want to put fear in peoples’ hearts but I felt like God wanted to shed light on oppression.

Maybe 10 years ago, I wouldn’t have been this sensitive spiritually, but now I am 100 percent spiritually sensitive. 

I am SO sensitive in my spirit that I walked out of a movie midway yesterday and I have never done that before.

I started to feel a migraine coming on. It was a Chinese war movie….and in the natural, it really didn’t have a plot, it was just a lot of guns and blood. But then after I walked out, I realized that I have never really seen a lot of Chinese movie that didn’t have the theme of regret and fear in it (like all encompassing, not just part of the movie).

Basically I could feel the spirit of death.

And during the night I was attacked. I know that the enemy is trying hard to attack people in this season of promotion so I took that to heart, but any attack is annoying. So I was casting out things in the middle of the night and quoting scripture, etc.

LOL. I know, I make it sound so normal. It’s just annoying, it doesn’t scare me anymore even though nightmares can be frightening. I know Jesus has already overcome.

So here’s a prayer for everyone who is going through attacks, fears, doubts.

Dear God, thank you For your SON JESUS dying on the cross for us, you took all our fears and doubts on the cross, we can now feel relieved knowing we are SAFE.

I cast out any false spirits and demonic strongholds that are trying to HURT or WOUND YOUR PEOPLE! I kick out any foxes that are deceiving our minds or putting lies in our head. I pray for the Peace NOT of this world but of Jesus. I cast out the spirit of python that is choking the life out of your people.

Jesus, help us to cast all our cares on you and to come to you with our tears and fears.

I pray this Jesus name, Amen.


If the enemy tries to guilt trip or shame you remember “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, there IS NOW NO CONDEMNATION for those that are in Christ Jesus”.

Prophetic Word: “God Hasn’t Forgotten You – Your Life Is Going To Explode”


I don’t know who this is for but like me you may have gone through the wilderness of waiting and becoming….and hope deferred sometimes makes the heart sick…and maybe in the process you became angry and upset, you stopped hoping or dreaming, you saw other people flourish and you asked God “how about me?”

And maybe these people who were flourishing didn’t even know God, maybe they cheated others and had evil intent….they look like they are flourishing in the world, but are they really? No. God be the judge of things, but when you are filled with evil intent, you can’t truly be flourishing even when it looks like you are externally successful.

God hasn’t forgotten you. It is coming! You dreams are coming true. You do deserve happiness. Don’t give up. “I will make sure you will bear more children (dreams) than those who have a husband (the natural, works)”. God will supernaturally work miracles that no man or woman can ever do in their own flesh or efforts. Praise God! Sing barren women. You will no longer be barren.

I have been going through a process of redeeming my desires. For so long, I felt like I had to deny my desires. In the waiting season, I had to wait and just be with God. Though it was wonderful and healing, I felt a part of my heart develop some anger. I wanted the waiting to be over and I was angry that I had to wait that long. 

How come other people get to just get on with their lives? They don’t seem that dysfunctional God.

Don’t compare your process.

It’s time to let go of what you thought it should have looked like, it’s time to let go of the anger and the bitterness, it’s time to let go of expectations….because the the truth is GOD IS ABOUT TO WORK MIRACLES IN YOUR LIFE and NO MEN OR WOMEN will be ABLE TO TAKE CREDIT.

That is what He wanted all along, to DO MUCH MORE than you can with your earthly mind or hands. 

Yes, others have “flourished” externally with their own efforts, but what God is about to do doesn’t require any effort because it’s based on HIS LOVING GRACE TOWARDS YOU. HE WAS SAVING YOU ENERGY AND TIME because HE IS THAT GRACIOUS! 

Your life is about to explode. You just need to believe that you deserve it. You just need to allow your heart to receive.

This is my verse for the year. I believe that God wants to BE GLORIFIED in your life and that’s why HE IS GOING TO SHOW UP IN THE BIG WAY for those that BELIEVE in HIS ALL ENCOMPASSING GRACE. Then we will point to GOD, HE DID IT!

Isaiah 54 The Message (MSG)

Spread Out! Think Big!

54 1-6 “Sing, barren woman, who has never had a baby.
    Fill the air with song, you who’ve never experienced childbirth!
You’re ending up with far more children
    than all those childbearing women.” God says so!
“Clear lots of ground for your tents!
    Make your tents large. Spread out! Think big!
Use plenty of rope,
    drive the tent pegs deep.
You’re going to need lots of elbow room
    for your growing family.
You’re going to take over whole nations;
    you’re going to resettle abandoned cities.
Don’t be afraid—you’re not going to be embarrassed.
    Don’t hold back—you’re not going to come up short.
You’ll forget all about the humiliations of your youth,
    and the indignities of being a widow will fade from memory.
For your Maker is your bridegroom,
    his name, God-of-the-Angel-Armies!
Your Redeemer is The Holy of Israel,
    known as God of the whole earth.
You were like an abandoned wife, devastated with grief,
    and God welcomed you back,
Like a woman married young
    and then left,” says your God.

7-8 Your Redeemer God says:

“I left you, but only for a moment.
    Now, with enormous compassion, I’m bringing you back.
In an outburst of anger I turned my back on you—
    but only for a moment.
It’s with lasting love
    that I’m tenderly caring for you.

9-10 “This exile is just like the days of Noah for me:
    I promised then that the waters of Noah
    would never again flood the earth.
I’m promising now no more anger,
    no more dressing you down.
For even if the mountains walk away
    and the hills fall to pieces,
My love won’t walk away from you,
    my covenant commitment of peace won’t fall apart.”
    The God who has compassion on you says so.

11-17 “Afflicted city, storm-battered, unpitied:
    I’m about to rebuild you with stones of turquoise,
Lay your foundations with sapphires,
    construct your towers with rubies,
Your gates with jewels,
    and all your walls with precious stones.
All your children will have God for their teacher—
    what a mentor for your children!
You’ll be built solid, grounded in righteousness,
    far from any trouble—nothing to fear!
    far from terror—it won’t even come close!
If anyone attacks you,
    don’t for a moment suppose that I sent them,
And if any should attack,
    nothing will come of it.
I create the blacksmith
    who fires up his forge
    and makes a weapon designed to kill.
I also create the destroyer—
    but no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged.
Any accuser who takes you to court
    will be dismissed as a liar.
This is what God’s servants can expect.
    I’ll see to it that everything works out for the best.”
        God’s Decree.

How To Overcome Lack Forever


I was having a conversation with someone at a sandwich shop today. I asked him what his dream was.

It often comes down to this “………………..but maybe one day, when I win the lottery or something”.

I can tell you that entrepreneurship, saving money, having retirement or having a million dollars in the bank is the way to true happiness, but that would be a lie. 

True happiness is finding stability in the love of God, who is both your Father and your Provider. 

I can tell you I have met people who make $20,000 a month and still live in fear. Because their trust is in money and not in God. 

We always wonder why people in 3rd world countries often seem happier, they don’t have Iphones but they are content; they are happy.

I was on a pathway of accumulating things, trying to be more in the world’s eyes. When God told me to sell everything and follow Him; it was hard. But there I lay at the altar, rent money was late and I had $200. There, God said “give the $200”.

I didn’t want to.

But I heard it loud and clear “whose house are you building, yours or mine?”

I realize that I had been so set on my own goals and dreams (thinking that was what God wanted) that I had pigeon-holed God into my own plans. When I submitted and surrendered that $200, miracles didn’t show up right away. But it was an act of surrender, it was an act of saying “God you first”. 

I went through years and seasons of surrender where I felt stripped away of all that I was and had, but God had something better in mind.


The world wants to pigeon-hole you into this identity of lack. People live out of an orphan identity, they feel like they must hustle for everything and if they are not doing anything, then they must force themselves to.

It’s a rat race, for what?

When I started to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, I got things without asking for them. I sat on my throne, I learned my identity as princess and queen in God’s kingdom. 

More than anything, I gained confidence in my God. I no longer constantly feared lack or feared that I had to fend for myself. I did go through trials and extreme testing where I had to lean on God for provision even on my travels. One time I was literally on an island when God sent provision.

My identity isn’t based on what I have or even what I have accomplished anymore, my identity is in the Lord Jesus. He crowned me with glory and because of His death on the cross, He gave me His inheritance. 

What I’ve learned is that HE ABSOLUTELY resources those that seeks to build His kingdom. Are you willing to let go of your own plans and allow the God of this universe to heal you, equip you and empower you to set people free? It is the most rewarding work in this world. 

But more than anything, it’s about being a child of God. God has opened my eyes to spiritual reality and I’m in awe of who I have become because of His work in me.

Prophetic Word: Green Light

Traffic light on green

I heard God say “Green Light”. It’s green light time, it’s not red or yellow light, it’s green.

However, God is training up people who will respond to their intuition or the holy spirit. There are many people who have become complacent and no longer hear, they’ve become numbed by the news and only care about what people think.

In this season, you will need to be alert, you will need to jump when you hear it, you need to move with the holy spirit, you need to be one with God. You can’t doubt whether It is God, if you feel it, move. 

God showed me that there were people around me that had hidden agendas, and God told me move out of those situation. You will need kingdom minded people around you only, this is not the time to play games! 

Why? There is danger everywhere, but you need to protect your anointing, your space and become alert so that you can move with the glory of God. When there are people around you that have hidden agendas, you can’t hear clearly as it becomes excess noise. 

God is raising up sons and daughters that will follow Him even when it is OUT OF THE NORM/BOX, even if OTHER PEOPLE will condemn or accuse them because of it, even if they will be outcasted….why, because they move in IDENTITY. THEY KNOW they are the sons and daughters of God and NOTHING will shake them!

God gave me a word in December, but things have shifted since then. I felt like God was saying “it’s not time yet”. Sometimes God will prolong a season because the people that need to receive you are not READY yet. He is preparing every detail.

It is GREEN light in the spirit every single day, as you move and live, follow your gut, it is Holy Spirit speaking.

A Life With No Plan B

A Life With NO Plan B

Every upgrade and levels in our life requires a TRANSITION PERIOD/SEASON. I know, most of us hate waiting. We want things instantaneously.

There are days I trust God, I can rest in His grace, I know He is able…but there are days I can’t get my mind off of what’s not happening, or on my current circumstances. When that happened this morning, I was reminded to worship. I realize I was focusing more on the circumstances instead of Jesus. 

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13 

Joseph Prince said “when we start to SEE, that’s when we lose faith”, because we are SEEING with earthly eyes and not on what GOD is doing. We live by FAITH and not by SIGHT.

I’ve walked this NO PLAN B journey with God after I graduated from COLLEGE and quit my full time job. I went backpacking in Australia for 2 months, when I got back I sold jewelry, I lived the hippie life in Silverlake. I went from one LEVEL to ANOTHER.

I felt His calling, GO, and I would GO. I went to Ecuador, Brazil, Thailand, Malaysia, Singapore…I went without a plan B, often times fearing that I would be stranded without financial provisions, but somehow it would work out. I would meet the people I was meant to meet.

Plan A was this, trust God, Go with GOD, and BE God’s light wherever I went. 

Was it scary, hells YES.

But each time I trusted Him to bring me through, I would see more of His love and character. God is unchanging- He will bring you through the storms of life just to show you that He is not MAN that He should lie. You are untouchable when you have God with you. 

Abraham was told to leave his father’s house and go to a land that God would show him.

Ummmm….which land? How?

That’s what we would ask, or I would ask…..but through God’s leading in the last few years I realized, I never really knew where I was going until I got to the “land” before the next “land”.

For example, I lived in Pasadena for a few years, but then He told me to sell everything and follow Him. Then He said “Hawaii”, so I went to Hawaii for 2 weeks. Then when I got back, I didn’t feel led to tell my friends and family I was back…so I was at a hotel with my one backpack, and I called my friend “I have no idea where I am going”. I was scared because even though I enjoyed my time in Hawaii, it was like Now what?

She said, “you can stay with me”.

Then I was there for a week, two weeks, a month, a few months.

Then I packed up everything again, this time Thailand was fiercely on my heart, it had been for a year. I went with $1000, with no return ticket.

This time, God would whisper a “land” after my work was done in one “land”. Vietnam, He would say. I couldn’t control anything really. But then I would meet a missionary, or a new friend, and it was like Kismet. It was encouraging when I met these divine encounters, that’s when I knew I was at the right place at the right time. I was there for them and vice versa.

Then eventually I ran out of cash, and somehow I would survive, even if it was with a credit card I didn’t know would work, I survived. Even if it was selling my tablet at some sketchy stall in Malaysia, it paid for a week of my prison cell sized room. Even if it was holy spirit arranging me to help a new bed and breakfast with social media in exchange for room and board.

But it wasn’t really about that. It was learning to TRUST GOD, to go with God and to know that God was with me. 

Are you willing to go into the unknown without a plan b?

It is scary as hell.

Truthfully, He was showing me “Seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added onto you”….but more importantly….

“I’m reliable, I’m your God, I’m your best friend” and through all this I grew closer in intimacy with the creator of the world. In Bali, Indonesia, I got into a moped accident in my eagerness to be like the author of Eat, Pray, Love….I ended up spending a week in bed. I was alone and my foot felt like it was rotting. I had a hard time showering….

But who was enough for me, Jesus was.

So whatever you are going through, hold on. He is close to your heart. Reach out to the perfect God who loves you. Cry, sing, be vulnerable with Him. He will provide the rest you need.

We often try to control what we think we need in order to feel safe. That can be our income, our living situation, our career, our friendships, our relationships….but truthfully, if you have Jesus, you can be in the worse situation and feel peace. 

It’s definitely worth trying- it’s a “risky” way to live, following Jesus, but you will find out…it’s riskier to rely on the things of this world because there is no peace in it.

So what is God calling you to do? It may just be to trust Him and wait for His timing. It may be to go without knowing where. It may be something else.

A lot of people reply to my stories “omg I would never be able to do that! I would never be able to travel alone and sometimes with no money?!”

Well, I don’t know what to say, but it’s because of Jesus, just Jesus. 

The Greatest Showman & My Personal Odyssey

Yesterday I was compelled to watch The Greatest Showman. I heard the movie in my mind all day before I watched it.

Who knew it was like a personal revival in my heart. I’ll try my best not to include any spoilers. This post might make more sense if you have already watched the movie.

God breathed powerfully into this movie, into the songs, into the story. It is anointed, I know this for sure.

The arts, media, and movies are indicators and representations of our times. Whatever comes out, whether “good” or “bad” are often indicators of what is happening in our hearts and society. The arts are direct reflections of what humanity is going through, longing for and experiencing in the physical and spiritual realm.

That is why this movie was so reflective of my personal Odyssey and I believe also for many in this world.

As you know I have prophesied that we have been going through birthing pangs in our micro and macro lives but 2018 is the RELEASE of God’s fire in this world. God is releasing those who have been in HIDING (those who have been rejected as well) into the world and I am one of those. I have been in the wilderness season for over 2 years where God was building my inside, my identity. 

During that time I was accused on all ends (like the people who opposed the Barnum circus/museum).  I was not honored or appreciated….and this was also before those 2 years. I was always the outcast and never really fit in.

Like Joseph in the Bible, I experienced imprisonment, rejection by the family and the world around me. I experienced disappointment and hopelessness, losing everything, losing hope and feeling like my dreams would never come true. 

I also experienced a lost of self before the 2 years. I ran and strove after everything I thought I needed (like PT Barnum in the movie) to prove that I was enough. And it took God’s voice for me to loose my grip on everything. In this case, it was like when everything burned down for PT.

And many of you have experienced this…you’ve lost everything and you’ve questioned why. 

You used to have dreams, but the world rejected you.

You used to be proud of your ideas, but after the world laughed at you, you grew ashamed of yourself. Will anyone ever accept me? you ask.

You put your heart out there, gave it your all, but it still wasn’t enough. They left anyway, they treated you like crap.

Every song in this movie is an embodiment of these questions and the answer is “you are enough”. 

There is a moment in the movie where the bearded lady belts out a song, in fierce defiance of what the “elite” thought of her….it’s just powerful, it’s what we need in this world….people who are not ashamed of who they are, people who come out from hiding.

I could relate.

In all the hardships, dejection, rejections, and accusations throughout my life, I often questioned myself. I wondered if there was something truly wrong with me and if I would ever be celebrated for who I was.

There was a part of me that went into hiding because the world was unsafe.

I numbed my emotions and became “even keeled”. I didn’t laugh much and neither did I cry much. I was not reactive to anything that was going on around me. If someone yelled at me, I stayed silent. If someone praised me, I couldn’t really smile. My emotions were constipated. 

Numbing my emotions was my way of protecting my heart. 

That’s why before my big breakthrough, I had to cry a lot first. I had to weep. I had to really let it out.

Crying gave my heart strength. Crying said to my heart “you are worth it, I value you, I value your emotions, I value who you are”.

True strength is REALLY experiencing EVERY emotion that you heart feels.

Because the truth is, it really hurts, it’s painful….but it’s worth it.

Truly living means experiencing EVERY single emotion that life brings your way. We can’t be afraid of our emotions because joy is one of those emotions…and so is pain, disappointment, fear, etc. 

But if we are brave enough, our lives become rich.

I woke up from a dream where I was singing and I could feel the fire of God on the inside of me. I feel my spirit rising and I see the rejected coming out of hiding. 

If you are one of those, know that the hand of God is on you. 

2018 is your year. Mark my words. I have gone through too much to back down now. Though I don’t know the specifics of what 2018 holds, but I know God holds 2018.

I think it’s so interesting that Keala Settle has such a fear of stepping out in real life, because as you watch this video, you feel the strength of her stepping out. May you step out too, the world needs you.

If you have been blessed by this blog and me, consider sowing a seed as you will reap much more than you have sown in good soil. This is GOOD SOIL. “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.” Galatians 6:7

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