Yesterday I was compelled to watch The Greatest Showman. I heard the movie in my mind all day before I watched it.
Who knew it was like a personal revival in my heart. I’ll try my best not to include any spoilers. This post might make more sense if you have already watched the movie.
God breathed powerfully into this movie, into the songs, into the story. It is anointed, I know this for sure.
The arts, media, and movies are indicators and representations of our times. Whatever comes out, whether “good” or “bad” are often indicators of what is happening in our hearts and society. The arts are direct reflections of what humanity is going through, longing for and experiencing in the physical and spiritual realm.
That is why this movie was so reflective of my personal Odyssey and I believe also for many in this world.
As you know I have prophesied that we have been going through birthing pangs in our micro and macro lives but 2018 is the RELEASE of God’s fire in this world. God is releasing those who have been in HIDING (those who have been rejected as well) into the world and I am one of those. I have been in the wilderness season for over 2 years where God was building my inside, my identity.
During that time I was accused on all ends (like the people who opposed the Barnum circus/museum). I was not honored or appreciated….and this was also before those 2 years. I was always the outcast and never really fit in.
Like Joseph in the Bible, I experienced imprisonment, rejection by the family and the world around me. I experienced disappointment and hopelessness, losing everything, losing hope and feeling like my dreams would never come true.
I also experienced a lost of self before the 2 years. I ran and strove after everything I thought I needed (like PT Barnum in the movie) to prove that I was enough. And it took God’s voice for me to loose my grip on everything. In this case, it was like when everything burned down for PT.
And many of you have experienced this…you’ve lost everything and you’ve questioned why.
You used to have dreams, but the world rejected you.
You used to be proud of your ideas, but after the world laughed at you, you grew ashamed of yourself. Will anyone ever accept me? you ask.
You put your heart out there, gave it your all, but it still wasn’t enough. They left anyway, they treated you like crap.
Every song in this movie is an embodiment of these questions and the answer is “you are enough”.
There is a moment in the movie where the bearded lady belts out a song, in fierce defiance of what the “elite” thought of her….it’s just powerful, it’s what we need in this world….people who are not ashamed of who they are, people who come out from hiding.
I could relate.
In all the hardships, dejection, rejections, and accusations throughout my life, I often questioned myself. I wondered if there was something truly wrong with me and if I would ever be celebrated for who I was.
There was a part of me that went into hiding because the world was unsafe.
I numbed my emotions and became “even keeled”. I didn’t laugh much and neither did I cry much. I was not reactive to anything that was going on around me. If someone yelled at me, I stayed silent. If someone praised me, I couldn’t really smile. My emotions were constipated.
Numbing my emotions was my way of protecting my heart.
That’s why before my big breakthrough, I had to cry a lot first. I had to weep. I had to really let it out.
Crying gave my heart strength. Crying said to my heart “you are worth it, I value you, I value your emotions, I value who you are”.
True strength is REALLY experiencing EVERY emotion that you heart feels.
Because the truth is, it really hurts, it’s painful….but it’s worth it.
Truly living means experiencing EVERY single emotion that life brings your way. We can’t be afraid of our emotions because joy is one of those emotions…and so is pain, disappointment, fear, etc.
But if we are brave enough, our lives become rich.
I woke up from a dream where I was singing and I could feel the fire of God on the inside of me. I feel my spirit rising and I see the rejected coming out of hiding.
If you are one of those, know that the hand of God is on you.
2018 is your year. Mark my words. I have gone through too much to back down now. Though I don’t know the specifics of what 2018 holds, but I know God holds 2018.
I think it’s so interesting that Keala Settle has such a fear of stepping out in real life, because as you watch this video, you feel the strength of her stepping out. May you step out too, the world needs you.
If you have been blessed by this blog and me, consider sowing a seed as you will reap much more than you have sown in good soil. This is GOOD SOIL. “Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows.” Galatians 6:7
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