First Week In India

My Airbnb hosts that I found super last minute. There were several change of plans. But God led me to where I needed to be.

I had many fears of coming to India. People told me “be careful, people get raped there. People don’t respect women”.

Sure people do stare but God sent angels to help me on my first day. In fact it was someone I met in San Francisco in a hostel that God specifically led me to. At that time I didn’t know if I could afford a room. Seriously.

And God said “go there”.

They had a deal where you got $1 off each passport stamp, the manager just gave me the first day for free as she didn’t have the energy to count them. Then I proceeded to tell her about my work.

She gave me 3 more nights for free.

So when God says He provides all of our needs according to His riches in glory He means it and when we put His kingdom first, He does provide!

The Indian man I met told me “when you come to India just call me”. The first day I got cheated by rickshaw drivers and seriously thought “I need help”.

I then contacted that Indian man and within a few minutes he arrived with 2 friends.

God works all things together for those who love Him.

The Spirit proceeded to take me to where I needed to go.

I had a dream my new friend was going on a business trip on Wednesday and sure enough he was, so I am going to a new city and then flying out to Mumbai.

One person I met told me he was getting an arranged marriage and I told him I saw him backpacking and traveling. There are societal expectations but I said you don’t have to conform. He jokingly said to his mom, I’m quitting my job and not getting married!

I shared my story of leaving everything behind to follow Jesus. Maybe my story is more about gaining freedom from societal expectations and hindrances like fears. Fears of judgment from family and peers. I often have to explain that I am not understood in my own house. A prophet is not welcomed in his own town- because of that Jesus could not perform miracles because of peoples’ unbelief.

The day before I left for India, my mom was yelling at me whilst I cried myself to sleep.

You think it is easy to follow your own path? Hell no. I’ve encountered so much resistance and persecution even from my family.

Sometimes we need to leave what we know to truly become and understand who we are.

Indians are so close to their family, much more than Chinese people. But there’s also a lot of expectations.

Personally I don’t think it’s healthy but again I’m a bit Americanized. My family isn’t exactly close, we are almost estranged.

Yet, each one has their own decision to make.

Live your path or live inside the box of culture. Jesus did not live inside his family’s expectations. His mother came looking for Him and He said “my mother and father are those who do the will of God”.


That’s a bit harsh. But His words break expectations.

You will not always be liked by people when you hear God and listen. People will find you disagreeable as they can’t control you.

You are unpredictable. You can’t give hard plans as God may redirect you. You don’t make promises you can’t keep.

Your direction is God and He is the one who directs you.

So I found it a bit annoying when people kept asking me- what are you going to do now, you want to eat, take a shower, go to the market?

I know it’s their concern and care for me, but I found I needed serious headspace. Freedom, what is it? The ability to think and act for one self. Do you live in freedom??

India is much better than I expected. I am grateful for how hospital and loving people are but my desire is also to see people live in complete freedom. I really respect the bond people have with each other here.

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Trust Issues

Oh God I have more issues than I thought.

Trust issues, daddy issues, self reliance issues.

You know why people who are independent are actually the ones who need the most help? Because they are awfully scared of disappointment. They’ve been let down by a parent and are trying to not need anyone.

And that’s how I grew up, fiercely independent. Time and time again I would trust someone and they would let me down so I thought it might be better to trust no one.

But now in India I find myself opening my heart and feeling like if at any point I’m disappointed I’ll walk away. I can just leave.

And then I wonder why I can’t seem to have a normal relationship. It’s easier to meet someone overseas for a week than to find someone who is willing to commit. And perhaps I’m deathly afraid of commitment because my 2.5 year marathon of committed relationship turned sour. It dragged on even though I knew he wasn’t it.

God’s like okay girl you need to work through your issues.

But I thought I was healed. Then it all starts coming out like a leak in my heart. There’s a crack, and it’s leaking the issues.

I’m surprised when people are kind to me.

I think they have an ulterior motive.

But there really are kind people in this world. Some people who have connected with me in the last few years are my mother, brother, sisters, fathers. God does heal the wounds that keep you hidden. He wants us to come into the light and open our hearts to people.

Yesterday I had a dream I was going to my old church and people were kind to me. I couldn’t believe it. My heart felt full.

“Do not be afraid, you won’t be put to shame; do not fear disgrace, for you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth, and the reproach of your widowhood you will remember no more.” Isaiah 54

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Taming Lions & Healing The Sick

First day in India.

It’s 10pm and I’m at my friend’s friends house praying for his parents and prophesying.

Wait- oh yah I met this friend in San Francisco. He was a bunk mate on top of my bed at the hostel. See how God works all things together for good? He said, when you come to India I’ll help you.

Rewind to the plane. I first sit next to a business man, then the kids behind me keep kicking my seat….I ask to move seats and end up next to a family but the kid again, so I move behind them to give them more room and meet a Japanese girl who lives in Spain.

I met a flight attendant while waiting for the bathroom and her name is grace. She says she has problems hearing on an airplane so I ask to pray for her ears and she says she is also Christian. I hold her ear while outside the bathroom.

Ummm let’s just say the warfare has amped up but so has the fruit. I have stomach problems, adjusting to the food, the ac sounds like a construction going on next door, and I wake every few hours.

I got lied to by a rickshaw driver, took me to some fake tourist place because my SIM card was not activated yet and I couldn’t use the WiFi to order Uber or book accommodation.

They left me there and demanded money. Then some kind rickshaw driver took me to another place. I met a Muslim tour sales dude who tried to sell me a tour but then instead I prayed for his heart to be healed from a miscarriage in his family.

Topics like this kind of come up when you’re talking.

10 minutes into finally getting into a hotel in the so called “slums”, my new friend that I met in San Francisco says “we are coming in 5 minutes”.

We eat, I’m full, I get bloated, actually feel like diarrhea coming on. He says “do you want to come visit my friend with me? Actually you can pray for them. They are sick”.

45 minutes later, some cows and dogs that we walk by, dirt paths, I’m in a home with 10 other people, kids, adults.

I’m asked to pray for one who has cancer and another with liver problems. I start prophesying “you need to forgive yourself, someone betrayed you, etc”. I’m prophesying “I see bricks on your shoulders, cast them on Jesus”. They are mostly Hindu but I am talking about Jesus.

“Actually my daughter’s name is Grace, I love Christ so much” the son says to me. I say “be filled with the Holy Spirit and I anoint you now with the gift of tongues”.

My friend said God is anointing me like Paul and now I agree. Because this is all stuff you would experience in the early days of the Bible, unplanned Holy Spirit Led stuff.

Now I’m awake after a dream where I’m taming a lion. The lion is hungry but it does not devour me when it runs towards me. I hold my hand up and it closes its mouth.

It’s just the beginning.

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Breaking Off The Fear Of Lack Part 2

I woke up an hour ago and heard “change rooms”. I’m like seriously? It’s 1:40am and I already did one room change due to machine noises next door.

I went downstairs and the receptionist said no. I went back to my room and had no peace. Finally I went down again and she called the manager and let me change to their last room.

I’ve been hearing “go higher”.

There is greater clarity now.

He started downloading prophetic words to me for people.

In one vision I saw doors after doors lined up and I had the key to each door. Behind each door was a captive, each person had tape over her or his mouth and chains tying their hands together. They were immobile and stuck, unable to speak.

As I opened each door to free them a provision was available for me.

I see the words “fear of lack, fear of judgment, fear of rejection, fear of failure” marked on each person. But as I had the key to free them each fear fell off as I held their hand and led them out of that room of captivity.

You are leading people out of Egypt and as you do that, you will set people free from the bondage of mammon.

“No servant can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.” Luke 16:31

“And he said to them, “Take care, and be on your guard against all covetousness, for one’s life does not consist in the abundance of his possessions.” Luke 12:15I posted a photo of me with my worldly possessions because they don’t mean anything to me.

God told me to sell everything and follow Him because I am living for a kingdom that we cannot see. Sure I am blessed with provision and things, but that is not what I count dear to my heart.

I want to see people set free.

We often think we need more material things but it’s actually our heart that needs to be set free.

So when I ask people to give I’m asking them whose kingdom are you living for? And who is your allegiance to? To saving your own life or losing it for Jesus.

“No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money. “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?” Matthew 6:24-25


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Prophetic Word- DREAM BIG! New Collaborations Are Here!

The new season is here! I hear God say!

Yesterday God had me watch this Thai movie called we belong together. It is about two friends who separate due to one moving on to another country. Spoiler alert, one friend goes through the grieving process of someone’s death and you experience her numbness and pain throughout.

The pain is so uncomfortable as the director or writer seems to draw out uncomfortable moments to relay the main character’s pain.

It’s drawn out for so long that only at the end when the main character leaves that you realize maybe she wasn’t the main character after all.

The friend left behind starts biking and the song changes from a slow song to a fast happy one.

Then this night I have a dream where my ex best friend from when I was a child died but I didn’t even care, like I didn’t grieve.

The mutual friend of this ex best friend gathered with me and started talking about collaborating.

These new friends were chefs and I said “I’m thinking of reviving the foodie part of my blog. I can eat your food and creations and I’ll blog about it. I want healthy food that is not bland! You know, rich with flavor!”

There are so many meanings behind this but I feel like what died is no more, move forward as new opportunities and doors are arising in your life.

The last few days God has been highlighting the word “dream” and showing me again the desires of my heart.

The first day in Bangkok I have no idea where to stay and I hear the name of the hostel I stayed at once, but there is major “spiritual warfare”.

I realize, it’s because I feel lack. A spirit of lack was attacking me and I have a dream about dating this frugal man. I paid for 3 nights but only ended up staying one night. I didn’t understand why God would have me book 3 nights but only stay 1, but I knew He was saying “move on. You don’t have to stay”.

This was symbolic of moving from the past and what you’re comfortable with. Some of you have lived frugal and barren lives and God is asking you to think big and trust Him!

I’m led the second day to a hotel and I think to myself “God how are you going to provide, this is above the range I thought I’d spend”.

But this night while I’m going back to my room, I notice there are people lining up at a club in front of the hotel.

I’m so excited! I start skipping! I can’t believe I’m skipping! When is the last time I felt excitement??? My heart has felt so numb from grief I haven’t felt joy in a long time.

I enter the club and immediately meet 2 girls, I introduce myself to them. We dance for 3 hours and I actually laugh. When was the last time I laughed?

This one girl dances near the stage but is given a warning by the security guard. I want to dance on stage so bad but I know I’ll get thrown out.

The 3rd day I stay at an Airbnb and have a hard time getting in but the owner’s dad comes to greet me, he is a chinese man.

He first shows me a bigger room, then realizes he got the room number wrong and shows me the one I booked….it’s a smaller studio.

The room smells like smoke and it’s near the elevator.

I’m disappointed. It’s not what I want. I often had conversations with God that sound like this “God what should I do? Should I change rooms?”

Usually He doesn’t reply. He wants me to follow my heart. I’ve had conversations like this where I don’t follow my heart and end up regretting why I didn’t pay a few more dollars for what I want.

I’m so tired. I don’t know why. I try to figure out why I’m tired from not getting what I want but decide to eat first.

I return and message the owner’s dad. I ask to see the room and it is all pink. The color of my heart when it’s in love.

I want it! I’ll pay a bit more for what I want. I’m happy.

I got what I want!!!

I actually got what I want.

So the next day I have a dream that I’m talking to a guy I like and telling him how I feel. Another ex best friend who dated my ex (in real life) and didn’t tell me appears in the dream.

Betrayal. That’s what happened.

I often felt that I didn’t get what I want and people often took away what I had, even if I didn’t want it to begin with.

Then God started to tell me how I feel neglected by Him because my dad neglected me. Because of growing up this way, I never got what I wanted from my dad….or maybe that I never got what I wanted-which was a human father.

And that marked my experiences of never getting what I want and feeling like I’ll never get what I want.

God’s like that won’t be your experience anymore. You will get what you want.

I started to pray big prayers!

“God restore unto me the years the locust have eaten away! Bless me Lord! Honor me! Bring people that will encourage me! I’m not throwing pearls to pigs anymore!”

My last day in LA was grievous. I sat silently as my mother yelled at me. I cried tears of pain as lay down to sleep on my last night in LA. I’m never coming back here.

I’m never coming back to dishonor.

I’m never coming back to lack.

I’m never coming back to being misunderstood.

I will have people that honor me in life. I will have friends that encourage me. I will not take on false responsibilities and I will grab the promises of God now!

Your new beginning is here! What is dead is dead. Now new hope and courage will fill your heart with dreams. God desires to give you your dreams!

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Breaking Off The Fear Of Lack

I had a dream I was going to buy a water filter and it was only $5 but this girl said “don’t buy it, it gets moldy”.

I remember the ramen I bought was about 500 yen and it wasn’t that good.

Another dream where I was telling my past church members that I got my hair dyed for free, that I didn’t get paid for it but all parts of my purple hair was free.

Again God was reminding me of my royalty status in Christ.

God will have me ask people for donations, and He is specific about who to ask.

He says “my people have relied on their own ways for too long and I want them to live in my abundance, however they can’t do that if they keep controlling and fretting in their own ways of gaining money. I am the provider, I am the father, not you”.

God told me to ask a guy on the plane for a donation but I chickened out because the previous night a huge demon came out of my mother. I mean she wasn’t possessed per say, but she started yelling and it was a huge spirit of lack speaking.

She said that I’m not a missionary, if I am I need proper training. More so she doesn’t believe God speaks to me, etc. I felt bullets hitting my heart and silently sobbed my way to sleep.

How I knew for sure that demon left was when we saw a cockroach out of nowhere. I said the spirit of accusation was present and started to cast it out. I had a huge headache after she yelled at me. I started saying “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus”.

I’m not just a missionary, I’m a prophet. A prophet does more than what a missionary does. She speaks the truth and she is not allowed to shy from confrontation.

I get severely wounded sometimes by what people say to me but I am reminded by God “they are lies”.

I started to see why God had me ask.

The demonic stronghold held her in fear of lack and God wanted to break off that fear.

And He has me ask so that I would not be afraid of “not being enough” or to be afraid of rejection or judgment.

My job is to obey God no matter what. But sometimes asking puts me in a place of being judged and rejected. Even a friend of mine said I was being disrespectful for asking again after she said to never ask again.

I said “God told me to ask” so what can I say? I love you. But I have to obey God.

Elijah has to ask a widow for a meal and she claimed that meal was going to feed her and her son, and they would die.

But because of her obedience everyone knew of a prophet being in their house, and the whole city gave to that house so she never lacked.

One time a Samoan said “You shouldn’t ask Samoans for money they are poor”. He called me all kinds of words, said I was fraud and not sent by God.

Again there was a stronghold of lack in him and it triggered it. My asking for a donation. Whenever there is a stronghold, a strong reaction is coming.

People act with annoyance or anger because there is a root of the fear of lack that is binding and holding that person in bondage.

God’s like “don’t be afraid to ask because I’m breaking off the root of fear in people”.

And sure I may lose friends because of it but He also wants me to live in boldness.

So today I hear God say “ask them for $5”.

5 is the number of grace.

He’s saying “are you willing to trust me with little? To trust in my finished work on the cross? Or to continue trusting in your own ways of accruing wealth? I want you to live in my abundance”.

Sow a seed of $5, 50, 500 or whatever you feel led. God is breaking off the root of self dependence and self reliance.

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Praying 🙏 that God set you free and help you live as royalty paid for by Jesus’ blood.

Not By Might But Spirit

Much watch video!! Not by might or flesh but by the power of the spirit.

God told me to upload this video. It’s so powerful.

I went to South Africa with $20 in my pocket. I was on the streets of New Zealand with $5. It was the spirit of God that gave me directions and the power.

You can’t afford it? Great.

You don’t have strength? Great.

You don’t have talents? Great.

Not by might or flesh but by the power of the Holy Spirit.

When I’m following Jesus and ministering, I’m not relying on my connections, ability, people I know or the money I have, I’m relying on the power of the Holy Spirit and the risen Christ within me!

Many times God does not want me to reach out to people I know at a country not because He doesn’t want people to help me, but because He wants to get all the glory! Because His ways are not my ways! And so He closes the doors that may cause others to think “oh I helped her that’s why she survived and thrived”, no God wants it to be so unique and out of nowhere that no one gets the glory but God!

I spent one year overseas last time and only got hosted by one person that I knew. The other hosts were people I prayed for or met while on the road and there was always a purpose for these divine connections. He brought me to deliver a prophetic word or healing while He provided for me through the hosts.

His ways are mysterious and I challenge you to step out in faith and do the impossible things with God.

He wants all the glory! Let no man/woman get the glory!!!

Today I’ll be heading out again on a supernatural spirit led journey with Jesus. I want to see the lame walk, the blind see and cancers healed.

I hear God say “my people rely too much on what they can do instead of what I can do”. That’s a spirit of lack. But when you know the living Christ is in you, all things are possible.

Was it hard? Yes it’s hard to let go of control. That’s where all the stress comes from- but I heard God say “don’t lose your position trying to fix things when you need to be fighting battles spiritually”.

You are enough. The devil makes you think you don’t have enough when He’s thwarting you with every weapon, but no weapon formed against you shall prosper. Stay at peace and rebuke the devil.

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