If you were reading my life story, you’d be like wow. This is what happened on my 31st birthday.
A few days ago, I was sitting at a food court and I prayed for a mom and son. I did not know how significant the prophetic vision for the son was until the mom shared about it in small group.
Well, how did I end up in the small group?
I was in Perth and I knew they lived there but I didn’t feel like I was supposed to contact her yet. 4 days in a hostel, the woman contacted me via facebook and told me they were having small group at her house and that I could stay with her. I had a whole week booked at the hostel, but only had 2 more days left.
I made a quick decision while sitting alone on my birthday. I thought to myself “what the heck am I doing, of course I want to be with other Christians on my birthday, of course I want a birthday cake”.
I think I was hesitant because I was afraid of what to expect.
I had gone through years of being misunderstood by other Christians and on this trip, God had restored my hope in Christian friendships. I had met a lot of religious spirited Christians before and even on this trip. Before knowing my heart, they judged and rejected me. It was hurtful. They judged the form and not the love.
But God was slowly rebuilding my hope and faith in the church (the body of Christ).
First he restored some old relationships, people who used to be conservative, but now understood the holy spirit.
Then he sent me to my spiritual land (South Africa) where I was celebrated by other brothers and sisters. I was honored, not disgrace.
Then through fundraising, He showed me that people believed in what God was doing through me and that I shouldn’t give up.
He is teaching me to be fearless.
He said this to me –
“It doesn’t matter what people think of you, because whatever accusations they throw at you- they are lies. You are righteous in my eyes and you have a heart of David. Not everyone will understand the anointing you carry or the path you are pioneering, but look to me. I am your covering, no one else. I am enough for you. I am your strong hand, I am your protector and your provider, I am with you always”.
I mentioned some of the accusations people threw at me while following Jesus, I now realize I can throw them away for good and not let them bother me anymore. It’s crazy how powerful words are. It sticks with you for years and prevents you from seeing new relationships right.
Because God is doing a new thing and we can no longer let our perspective be tainted by the past.
No more woundedness, walking out into the light.
I am crying thinking about all the pain I felt from being rejected and misunderstood for so long while clinging onto Jesus and following a path that was unpioneered. When you finally meet people who have been through it or people who admire you instead of judge you, it’s like a really bad wrong that has been righted by God.
There is no one like Jesus.
I promise you that even though some people reject you, you are walking into a season where you will be celebrated- but you must be willing to expose your heart again.
The fear of rejection and judgement is real. But God wants us to be so firm in our identity that we will not waver but be brave, be bold and go forth to conquer the land that is ours.
It doesn’t matter who thinks what about you, the only thought that matters is God’s and His thoughts are love towards you.
You are worthy. You are worthy in God’s eyes. My love is real for you says the Lord. My heart burns for you. I died on the cross for you, I was thinking of you says the Lord.
Thank you for those who have been ministry partners and have been sending me out in obedience to the Lord. I pray the Lord protect and bless you.
Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world.