Overcoming The Fear of Failure

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I believe it was May 1 when God gave me the go ahead to start pursuing opportunities again. To be honest, I was hesitant. I had been in a year of waiting season, healing and restoring brokenness in my heart and allowing God to take away the lies and fears that had boggled up my being.
And the biggest breakthrough in April? My dad asked me for forgiveness for not being there for most of my life.
I needed to hear it. I needed to know that he cared.
And somehow his caring broke open a part of my heart that had been closed off for so long.
It wasn’t my fault after all that my dad neglected his responsibility to care for me.
It wasn’t my fault that my parents divorced, it wasn’t my fault that I lived my early life full of fear, desperation, depression, striving, toil. Even writing about this again causes tears to well up.
I didn’t realize this but I lived in a way where “God if I just do this right, if I just make the right decision then my life will be good. If you just tell me what to do, if you tell me what is good and bad, then I won’t screw up my life more than it is already.”
I was scared of making mistakes, I was scared that I had truly ruined my life somehow with the decisions I had made.
Perfectionism.
Pressure.
Condemnation.
Those were things I felt and lived under.
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Grace says “you are enough”, your decisions don’t affect my plan for your life. You are not under judgement anymore. You are in relationship. Trust your gut. Trust that I will never leave or forsake you.
As I venture into new territory, reclaiming the things that was barred from me, reopening lost opportunities, I am learning to trust that God is truly with me. I won’t be afraid of rejection anymore because I know that these rejections only say “something better is waiting for you”. Just this morning, my previous commercial acting agent told me they won’t be able to sign me again. I am relieved because I know God is working a whole new thing for me and I can trust a better thing is waiting for me.
“He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?” Romans 8:32
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Photos by Patrick.
I took these photos a few years ago in Hollywood Hills and I knew God had put a calling on my heart to thrive in the entertainment industry. Somehow I went to auditions after auditions for 2 years and the opportunities I did get were reality and travel shows. I felt like every door was shut to me and as hard as I tried, doors were locked. 
Then I was called into a season of rest. May 1, 2017- we are finally out of the waiting room and into the big arena. Yesterday I finally got to see my neighbor’s music studio. His name is Joseph. I am reminded that Joseph had to go through the prison to go to the palace. But he never lost his dreams. 
May we carry on knowing that every dream in our heart is a dream from the maker and that we were conceived to actualize and manifest those dreams into reality. 
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Design Genius Season 3 Commercial

Hey folks! The design show I was in premiers March 13. Enjoy the commercial and spot me!

Info about the design show I was on.

Design Genius: Los Angeles is finally premiering next week on March 13, 2017 on Fashion One and Fashion Television channels.

Although the network isn’t available yet in the United States, Fashion One and Fashion Television are available in Latin America, Africa, Europe, Middle East, Asia, and recently in Australia, New Zealand and New Caledonia.
And also the website! http://fashionone.com/designgenius/season3

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2 Years Later

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Almost 2 years after I signed with a commercial acting agent, I find myself in a place I’ve never thought I’d be.

Instead of going and following a traditional path, God led me to places I never thought I’d go. I backpacked in Europe for 2 months, I went to England, Spain, Czech Republic, Italy, Germany, Holland….right after I signed and was supposed to go the traditional path. I had a dream that confirmed my next step, I was to quit my career in real estate.

I auditioned a bunch in the entertainment industry, but something inside of me needed more of life, love and healing. I felt that God had closed all the doors. I wanted to go deeper with God and even though everything around me told me to follow the A, B, C’s, I listened to my heart. 

I had been an entrepreneur for 5 years, but I was still holding onto my dreams, not allowing God to possess all of my heart.

Then I moved, I sold everything.

God was building my insides, my power, my identity.

In September of last year, I left LA with a one way ticket to Thailand. I traversed through Thailand, Vietnam, Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia, then Taiwan.

This year, God opened doors for me to “travel for free”, through and with my passions. I got to do a travel show in Paris, I then went to Morocco on my own. I came back and flew to Philippines for a fashion tv show. Even then I realized that I had held onto personal “hows”- meaning I had a controlled plan for what I thought should happen and what I thought God should do to open doors for me to honor Him.

Now I know God never works in our finite ways. 

He is infinitely creative and we really need to get out of our own ways. 

It has been a few months since I’ve auditioned at all for anything. I’ve just been focusing on my inner strength and strengthening the relationships I have. Today I’ll go in not looking to please, but to go with the power and spirit that God has put inside of me. I’ve grown in many ways, but the most important way- knowing my identity, not in the stamp of approval that society and industries give, but in knowing my daughtership in Christ. 

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Simplified Chinese and Jewish grandmas. 

“Look into the camera, think of all the things you’ve been through.”

Yes, I’ve been through hell and back. My eyes sunk, with a depressed voice I started reading the simplified Chinese on the board. If only she knew what I’ve been through. Of course I wouldn’t get this one, I’ve just butchered the whole Chinese language.

I waited for the bus, a 2 hour ride home. 2 grandma- aged ladies start complimenting my outfit. A 1 hour conversation ensues on the bus. I’m reminded that we are always at the right place at the right time, not always to get the goal, but to enjoy the process, and this time with my two Jewish mamas. Hearing their stories remind me how our lives are rich with love and lost, and that is the true beauty of growth.

 

You’re Invited- Los Angeles June Mixer!

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RSVP HERE! 

Just be yourself.

Who is this mixer for? Anyone who does not believe human beings are supposed to work 9-5 at a boring job, business owners, free thinkers, entrepreneurs, lifetime vacationers, writers, creatives, entertainers, vagabonds, musicians, etc….that’s why suits are not required, we prefer laid back.

Come as you are.

Be yourself and have fun. You might just meet the love of your life or your future bestie or meet collaborators for your business.

Second HAPPY HOUR is AT SAINT FELIX!
1/2 off all Signature Drinks, Beer, & Wine plus $5 food menu.

Uber it! You first $20 ride free! https://get.uber.com/invite/so24w

XOXO,

Rebekka Lien Creator of Smart Spiritual Sexy and How To Make Money Doing What You Love Ebook
Cherelle Tye–Liao – Co-Creator
Get the ebook- www.Rebekkalien.com/LoveMoneyWork

PS- If you have a venue, restaurant, bar, cafe, please contact Rebekkalien@gmail.com, we’d love to have our next event there!

What You Will Do Anything To Achieve, You Will Achieve

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4 months ago, I was sitting on the grass at a Hollywood picnic listening to an author talk about time traveling to the future. He said that all of us are time traveling, but not all of us know where we want to go. As I sat there, I envisioned Paris (I’ve been there, but for some reason I lost all my pictures). I also had stickers of the eiffel tower on my living room wall and had a journal with “Paris is always a good idea”.

I suddenly had this realization, what am I doing here?

Today I’ll have completed my travels, tomorrow I’ll be flying back to Los Angeles. Hey, I miss my LA peeps and dancing in LA.

Where have I gone?

London, Amsterdam, Berlin, Prague, Paris, Florence, Rome, Naples, and finally Barcelona. My goal was to prove that I could make money doing one thing I loved, Travel. And somehow with the grace of the universe, with the perseverance of my mind and faith, I did it. 

I still was able to make money virtually. This is everyone’s dream isn’t it?

Before I left to Europe, I forced myself to write an ebook. I felt that I was giving all these free advice, but not making a cent sharing my wealth of knowledge. The thing is I’ve SUFFERED A LOT. I’m not telling you this to make you feel bad for me….I’ve suffered, gotten real thin eating rice and kale in the beginning of my self-employment. I didn’t grow up in a rich family, I had low self worth, and ONLY by the grace of divinity, I’ve seen who I really am. 

I’m DIVINE, ROYALTY damn it! 

I really am! I’m completely whole, everything I want is manifested within first. I need to become THAT person first, the queen that wears her royal coat, her Burberry dress, Miu Miu sunglasses, or whatever you fancy.

Until you see who you really are, you are seriously that princess in rags. Think Disney.

And I’ve also learned that PEOPLE who don’t see who they really are will sometimes judge you, look down on you, think you are crazy, think you are lame, NOT SEE YOUR WORTH. But who has time for haters anyways? 

You don’t have time for that. You’ve got to time travel to where you really want to go.

And as I speak….I know that when you get this ebook, you’re signaling to the universe that you are READY to become the queen or king you really are. 

Adios and see you in LA! 

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