It takes vulnerability to experience true love. It’s through telling someone how you actually feel and they respond with understanding that you experience unconditional love. Most people don’t share how they feel because they have been judged or rejected for expressing their feelings.￼
1. Be vulnerable- tell people how you actually feel.
2. Write down the patterns in your relationships
3. Address the patterns with the people and act counter the patterns, setting boundaries and asking for what it is you need and being vulnerable about your triggers and history.
A. 🙏 Friendships- in the past I was always just someone’s go to for emotional and spiritual help. I also gave rides to everyone when I had a car. I was exhausted from helping people.
There was usually a disparity between how much I gave and how much I received (not that relationships is about measurement).
I walked in faith, hosting events, etc but didn’t know how to ask for help. In essence I could have but I didn’t think anyone would help me.
It could be as simple as going out with friends and not being able to pay for meals, God has taught me even to ask strangers for help now…It’s still not easy, but in the past I’d pretend I was okay and I’d charge it on my credit card.
Of course God has told me not to worry about debt because He has already taken care of them.
Because He knows what we can handle. It takes steps of faith to speak up. I maxed out a credit card to start self employment and I maxed out credit cards to start my ministry. That was what God told me to do and that was the amount of faith and courage I could handle at the time. But yes it was scary to trust that God would someday pay it off for me.
Then the next step was in my faith walk was to come out and tell people what I was doing in my ministry, basically to start a ministry.
I knew it would come with persecution. But people also supported me.
❤️ In essence, what I told you is the same as opening your heart.
1. There’s hurt, but you don’t know how to speak up about it.
2. You learn to speak up about it but you’re met with criticism or rejection
3. You speak up about it but people love you nevertheless
4. Repeat (and that’s love for you!)
In relationships you have to know how to ask for help and give help.
But if you’ve had unhealthy patterns in your life, it takes time to reverse it. Or to wait for the people who are willing to love you for who you are.
B. ❤️ Romantic Relationships
Marriage is similar to friendships.
1. Someone has to be humble enough to first express how they are feeling even if that means “look I am in a space of possibly being hurt by you￼”- basically saying “You have the power to hurt me￼”. That’s intense.
2. If no one is vulnerable it’s impossible to have a good marriage￼. But remember it’s a two-way street￼.
3. One person tries harder and harder to open the other person’s heart but it is a choice whether you want to open your heart, thus that relationship will most likely wither away￼￼ unless the other party is willing to open up and share how they are feeling￼.
You deserve a vulnerable love.
You deserve someone who is emotionally available and who is willing to put in the work to be￼ open with you.
It’s a choice whether someone wants to open their heart.
What’s the point of sitting next to someone and not knowing where they are emotionally￼. Physically present but mentally absent.
For me that was the worst nightmare￼.
Because I grew up with a mentally, physically and emotionally absent dad and a critical mother so my relationships reflected that.
And guess what- it took those relationships for me to see that it wasn’t what I wanted!
So what is it I want?
1. Friends that reach out and ask me how I am. And I’ll do the same.
2. A life partner that knows to reach out to me, that I don’t have to be the aggressor, which I often am in many areas of my life.
But that means I may have to learn how to be patient and wait for others to reach out to me￼.
Truth be told I don’t really have any patience.
My heart is more like an EMT￼, it knows where to go for help. It’s also an immediate safe place for others.
But I have to learn how to set boundaries and allow people to do the hard thing of reaching out or asking for help.
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