I am honestly happy today. I was feeling really down but God really cheered me up.
I met with someone and told them how I actually felt. He was talking about going to Japan, etc and I heard God say “speak up”, so I did.
I said “Honestly I FEEL really emotionally disconnected because I’m tired of dating and I’m tired of putting myself out there, I just want to get married and I don’t really understand this process. I guess it’s like if someone has a fear of abandonment that just needs to keep happening until I get over it”.
But something in my honesty, I started to feel happy. My soul felt happy.
I wasn’t pretending, I was being clear, vulnerable.
Someone commented on my instagram post- “well, I believe men in LA are trash”.
I want to submit to this women-
Have you ever spent time with a men and really gotten to know them?
Have you told them how YOU felt?
That you felt hurt by something they’ve said.
I realized that I was not at all emotionally vulnerable in my twenties. I pretended to be okay with a man’s actions just to clear far away from confrontation.
Today I said “honestly, I was really grossed out when you took off your dentures, I mean your Invisalign”. Females also don’t communicate honestly and it takes time to learn how to do that.
You cannot expect a men to know what they’re doing wrong if you don’t tell them. So I see this men-hating going on, women secretly gossiping about men but not confronting them.
How is that even a mature thing to do?
Females, if you want to find a good men, start being honest about how you feel towards “these bad men”, maybe you will open up communication that you didn’t know needed to happen. Grace and forgiveness comes from communication, not avoidance.
This ghosting culture is very toxic. I’ve learned to confront the hard things. I will not allow my pride to get in the way of communication, though I’ve been there too. I’m definitely not perfect.
IF you like a guy, tell him.
If you appreciate him, tell him.
If you think he’s cute, tell him.
We expect men to make all the first move, but what if you’re brave enough to say WHAT’S ON YOUR HEART.
Guess what, your HEART LOVES BEING HONEST!!! I feel amazing today because I was honest about the smallest thing, I did not hold back on ONE thing and it felt amazing.
I’ve always been someone who is quite aggressive but for awhile I didn’t allow myself to say what I felt because I didn’t want to look desperate or thirsty. I realized that I never got what I wanted before because I was too afraid to look stupid in front of others.
Now I realize the only way to live is to be honest and to go after what your heart wants. Do you tell people how you actually feel? I encourage you to do so! It’s so liberating!
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