Certainty In The Unknown

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Written in the middle of the night

Our life is a series of never ending unknowns.

When will we get married? When will we buy a house? How and when will we raise children?

Where will God call me next?

We want to know because knowing GIVES us a sense of security,

producing it right away,

seeing it right away gives us a sense of safety.

When the truth is only God knows. 

And I have to surrender control and allow God to be in control.

I need to allow God to make a way instead of trying to make a way. Not knowing the NEXT often makes us question

  1. Am I doing enough?

And we often STRIVE for the answer hoping we will find certainty in the NEXT. 

Instead of grasping and living in “I am enough in Christ Jesus”.

Jesus paid the price so I can rest knowing WHEN He does tell me the NEXT I will also be enough then. I am enough now and in the future. I will always be enough because of His sacrifice on the cross.

I am not lacking.

I am enough in Christ Jesus.

The frustration then comes when we don’t see change or results in people we’ve been called to help. But the truth is-

Change takes time.

No one changes overnight. Most changes take time, change requires

  1. Revelation
  2. A shift in mindset and thinking
  3. Desire
  4. Commitment

A lot of people stay stuck because they keep going between 2 branches instead of letting go in order to grab unto another.

Like monkeys.

At one point of swinging away from one branch, Tarzan/Xena has to grab unto the next brand. He/she cannot hold 2 at once.

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Living Against Cultural Norms

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Living Against Cultural Norms 11/25/2018, 9th day in Shanghai China, 4 months overseas, written in the middle of the night on my notebook.
I’ve gone through more challenges than I would care to experience following Jesus and ministering to people in different countries. It’s easy to hide behind a computer but when you are interacting and living with people on a daily basis you’ll face many objections and challenges.

For one, sexism.
Another, the spirit of intimidation and control (witchcraft).
Another, hurt.
There were times I had to ask people to put their phones on silent mode in the dorm rooms. In a 8 bed dorm room you’ll encounter plenty of people.

When I asked this guy to silence his phone as all kinds of sounds were coming from his phone (BTW the first night I got woken up by someone watching porn on their phone, no headphones), he ignored me and pretended I didn’t exist.

He finally got off his bed, which is the top bunk above mine.

When I confronted him, he looked away and pretended I didn’t exist.
Then he stared at me and said “are you crazy? Why are you staring at me?”
I was speechless.
This kind of person exists in this world?
When I told other chinese people about it they said I should just ignore it. They ignore many things. To them it’s part of life- longsuffering.

I believe God calls us to forgive and love our enemies, but He doesn’t call us to be silent.

In fact, a prophet is supposed to speak in the face of opposition, persecution and intimidation.

This week I also showed my past TV appearance videos to some people. They were shocked as I was “skinnier” and “prettier” back then, they said.

I said “I didn’t know who I was back then, I felt that I needed to put on makeup but now I don’t feel the need to put on a “face” for anyone.

But those words still affected me and I had to climb out of the “feeling of not being enough” hole. The truth is I didn’t each much back then out of the fear of lack and the fear of gaining weight. When moments like that occur I have to look at Jesus and reaffirm “I am enough in Christ Jesus”.

I had a dream last night I hadn’t changed water in a tank for 3 weeks and the fishes were in a really thick shampooed filled liquid.

I had another dream a woman pastor layed her hands on my head and I started sobbing. When I woke up I could hear myself crying.

The process of loving others is not easy. I find myself angry and hurt at times, laughing at other times.

I share my testimonies and of God’s grace to people who aren’t perfect- like me.
People who are scared of intimacy, vulnerability, letting anotone into their hearts, people who carry a spirit of lack and don’t feel like they are enough, people who feel guilt and shame and sometimes have no capacity to give me any love because they haven’t embraced God’s love.

Even though I experience joy in these friendships, I’m ultimately still a pastor, minister, prophet.

Its not a 2 way street. I may be sharing intimate parts of my heart but I am never to look for belonging or acceptance from people I minister to because my home is God, no one else.

Perhaps the joy I felt caused me to think that I’ve found new friends, but close friends are people who can actually level up with you.

God will humble you and cause your heart to be enlarged, but your heart will also have to process continual rejection and persecution.

Most of the time people don’t understand me but my job is to share what is on God’s heart and know my belonging is in God.

Being a pastor to the lost sheep is not easy.

It’s a calling for people who will surrender to their hearts continually to God.

It’s a calling for warriors.
It’s a calling for those who won’t give up in the face of strong opposition.

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The Making Of A Prophet

 

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“But I tell you the truth, no prophet is accepted in his own hometown.”- Luke 4:24

I don’t wish that anyone be called by God to be a prophet, pastor, evangelists. What you see in America is not what being called actually looks like, most people don’t tell you what the process looks like to be called. 

The biggest struggle I’ve had to go through is being rejected, by everyone. The biggest lesson I learned in being rejected is that “I am worthy, I am enough”.

I’m going to tell you what it actually looks like to be called. Growing up in a conservative church, people didn’t really believe me when I told them that “God told me”. I had a ear for God early on, but didn’t know it was being spirit filled.

I listened and will follow Him where He was leading. I got booted out essentially by the conservatives. Later on I tried to pursue success in the world and failed miserably as God closed all the doors. He said “You are a pastor to the lost sheep”. 

Now He also called me after my failed attempt to be successful in the world to “sell everything and follow Him”. I proceeded to returned my leased car, my apartment that  I was already two months behind in rent, and I basically did everything that a model citizen wouldn’t do.

After years of being “independent” I moved back home with my mom. I felt like I was losing everything I built my life on. I lost my career, my laptop crashed, I didn’t have a sim card for 3 years.

The accusations got louder and louder- “what are you doing with your life? You are almost 30. Stop wasting your life. Get a real job”.

Well, God told me very specifically to rest and to follow His voice. So there I was praying for people on buses and on the streets. I didn’t know that my life would essentially look like that NOW but I am praying for so many more people on a daily basis.

You see, I looked like I was living an irresponsible life but I was setting people free from fear and bondage, I was healing backaches and speaking identity into orphaned hearted people. But that didn’t seem to matter to my mom. 

But in those 2 years God restored more of our relationship.

So I lost everything but I gained the Lord. Jesus.

All my vices suddenly disappeared as the Lord started healing everything wounded in me. I stopped wanting to drink whereas in my early twenties I often found myself drowning my pain in alcohol or going out with people.

Now people offer me alcohol and I just don’t want it. It’s not because of self-discipline but because God has took away any desire so that I can be sober minded.

It says to be vigilant for the enemy is always prowling to attack, this is true. I let my spiritual guard down when I am drunk. But now I am drunk with the SPIRIT of GOD. And it is INCREDIBLE.

In 2014 I also broke up with my ex and I stopped dating. Suddenly I didn’t need attention from men anymore. THAT WOUND HEALED. The Lord did it. You see even if a nice looking guy shows up I can read his mind and his spirit!

So what did the process look like? LOTS of tears and rejection. Being rejected by your own relatives, friends, being judged about your life. Traveling to places and sometimes not knowing what I would eat or if I had money to eat, being laughed at when I get in front of a stranger in front of a big crowd of people, being ridiculed. 

YES, people say “no” all the time when I ask to pray for them. Yes, people laugh at me.

When I tell people I’m a prophet, some laugh. Some people who don’t believe in Jesus laugh and ridicule me. Some people think I’m saying it to be boastful and they attack me.

But you know what I say “I don’t wish it upon anyone because the cost has been great”.

Now more than ever what I pray over people is this “you are enough in Christ Jesus, there is now no condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus. You are righteous by grace and not by works”. This SETS PEOPLE FREE because they are no longer under judgement, but FREEDOM. 

I had to go through all that to know what IDENTITY MEANS.

The crazy thing is that the farther I went from Los Angeles, the more I was actually honored as a prophet and as a human being. Above is a picture of my brother in Christ. I have received such encouragement from people I have met here, in Japan and in Korea. Though I was once dishonored and rejected, God is restoring honor to me.

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Be willing to change

Be willing to change.

As I walk through this season of being with my mom, I am challenged with my ego, pride and hubris and am releasing the defensive mechanism I had for most of my life.

This defensive mechanism came from my need to protect my ego. To protect my core.

Her criticisms often made me feel unloved and not enough, never good enough.

As I grew in my spirituality I started to release old mentalities and thought patterns. I released things, attachment to the material world, the need to control…but as I spend time with her, I am reminded again of the not good enough monster. In addition, in my opened eyes of seeing her inability to release things like a table from 25-30 years ago, I am noticing why she is stuck.

But I also am challenged to love in a greater way, to love from a place of- I accept and love you as you are, not when you release these old wounds, but just as you are. I accept you even in your inability to love yourself or to see that not releasing past wounds hurts you.

Today after I washed my hair, my mom kept doting “dry your hair, dry your hair”. It really didn’t matter to me, I usually air dry it. But I replied after 30 minutes “okay I’m drying my hair because I love you”.

Perhaps that was my first training for my future marriage…something might not matter to me, but if it matters to someone you love, you may just do it out of love.

And instead of incurring more annoyance, I did it out of love for her, even though I could care less if my hair is dried.

So I suppose I am maturing. I used to blame her for many things, but now I’m learning that I must overcome the annoyances within me until her words becomes only a reflection of her own spirit, not mine. And in effect, I can love her just as she is, and allow that love to change her.

In Momentary Afflictions, Be. Renee Zellweger.

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All is well in our deepest longings, truth, meaningless, presents.

We seek what escapes us, what is momentary, status, symbols, reputation, what others think of us, it is all in vain. All of it is in vain if we do not have a strong anchor to who we really are.

When we leave all that we know, our culture, our people, our family even, we realize that happiness derives from within, from embracing the moments. And if not now, then when? Should we wait until we have it all together, until society deems our present situation redeemable? Until our community thinks we have made it? Until stability seems steady, sturdy? Until we have succeeded to climb up higher into the darkness of corporations and societal success? Until when will we let go and escape, find what we really want in life?

Some of us will never question what and why.

We will never escape into the woods, turn off electricity or connectedness to find our true connectivity. What keeps us alive, what fuels us, it’s definitely not looking at a celebrity (Renee Zellweger) who had plastic surgery. We are so concerned about what the celebrities are doing, we don’t look deeper. Isn’t it time that we question why depression and a sense of depravity has clouded our communities? Instead of judging people for changing their outer appearance, isn’t it time we have compassion on them or perhaps ask ourselves the same questions?

Why is it that people are killing themselves due to depression and why is it that people feel like they have to change themselves to please the judgements of our communities? 

And hasn’t it worsened, because they tried to change their faces, they have been judged even MORE.

I have one word for our society, fucked up. And I beckon that we look within ourselves to see what’s growing there.

Please, look at our own hearts, our own words, the condition of our own soul.

So on a more prose note, OMG, I thought that Reneee had died by the facebook feeds. Seriously, turns out she just had plastic surgery. It was grotesque to read what people were writing about her while I’m here in Czech.

Letting go is not easy, but letting go, can be fun, can be freeing.

New 2014 Bucket List

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2014 Bucket List 

1. Backpack more of Europe

2. Create a travel show, blog about travels

3. Sell everything I don’t need – I have already sold 3/4 of what I have

4. Publish my ebook or emanual- passive income

5. Get my scuba diving license

6. Listen to my heart

7. Get an acting agent and book a BIG BIG BIG international commercial

8. Be happy

9. Dance more

Even as an entrepreneur, people have expectations for you. You start to follow other entrepreneurs or speakers and think to yourself, “I have got to own an island like Richard Branson” and then I’ll feel like I’ve made it.

What’s in your heart? What aches? What truly makes you alive? Don’t copy others, create your best version of yourself. What makes you come alive?

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