Are You Ready To Live Authentically? Here’s How.

On May 11, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn self-helpLeave a comment

You are unstoppable, my friend, my mentor, my mom, my ally.

You are unstoppable, only you can determine your destiny. There are angels waiting to disperse at the echo of your words and commitment. Are you committed to being unstoppable? Will you let the challenges of life stop you from your purpose? Will you let momentary afflictions be your stopping point? Will you simply stare at the stop sign that men made, or will you walk across the street.

Recently I’ve been walking 2 miles plus a day. The stop light in Pasadena is quite relentless. WAIT, WAIT, WAIT the light goes, maybe it’s for the blind, but maybe also for those that need a little reminder that your purpose sometimes makes you wait. It’s unnerving, scary, like what the hell is going on?

But once it squeaks out “walk sign is on”, it’s an okay for you to go, knowing you’ll be safe….

Although I’ve gone through some rough patches recently, not knowing where life will take me, where God is leading me…I’ve held onto rock solid faith…it’s helped me to open up to close friends about what I’ve been going through. From the outside, I’m a fun loving human being doing amazing things, but every hero has a story. Sometimes life gets dark, so dark I started sleeping 12 hours at one point, not necessarily because I was truly resting …but because I was depressed.

I thought too much. I thought about whether my life even made any sense- why did I sell all my furniture, minimalize my life to this extent? Did it make sense that I forsaw myself traveling around the world, living in hotels, airbnb’s, couchsurfing, and making friends while speaking, selling books on autopilot and making bank without doing anything called “work” (but simply being 100% me and being super passionate about telling my story, healing the broken hearted and awakening people to their true identity and dreams)…did all of this even make any sense when my current reality didn’t seem so positive?

But in the midst of crying my heart out to a friend, I realized that it’s all going to be okay. Knowing that I wasn’t the only one struggling in life helped me to see that vulnerability is everything. Without struggles, we wouldn’t need each other to vent to….we truly NEED each other to live in peace, love and hope. When I hear that I’m not the only one, that there are tons of other people on instagram who are building awesome, amazing, life and world changing businesses, I can hope again. I’m not the ONLY one out here living for something MORE.

I WANT MORE of life, more of passion, more of freedom, more of love.

I WANT TO SEE change in this world, in my life, in yours.

What’s the MORE you want?

WHAT ARE YOU HUNGRY FOR? What is YOUR HEART HUNGRY for?

Be honest, be vulnerable. Until you can pour out your fears to someone, rip open the bandage and show all of that nasty stuff….you’re really living a lie, covering up the little child within. Let it out, you need to be heard, you need to be loved. Once you do that, something magical happens…you’re able to live the authentic life, for the passions and people you truly love.

What has hurt the most in your life is probably the healing story you’ll be part of in your passion.

So for me…it is healing from growing up with an absent father and learning to trust God for that which I lacked growing up, stability, finance, security, protection. I’m a survivor. I grew up always on guard, my heart was always protecting itself. I was always ready to defend myself, physically and mentally…but deep down, I was scared shitless.

I’ve managed to screw up and self-sabotage areas of my life that could have sprout up. But I don’t live in regret, since that leads to death. No, I live in hope and renewal everyday because everyday is a clean slate.

My passion and life purpose lies in helping people to identify their broken story and to heal that which they overprotect….the wounds, the nasty stuff under the bandage…the shit that has been rotting under your heart, so deep that no one can get to WHO YOU REALLY ARE. The facade you layer on, the shit you buy to cover who you really are….I know those wounds are there, but do you? You are not going to bullshit me with that nice suit or that designer bag. You are not going to bullshit me with your prized job title, no no no, most people see the outward appearance but God sees the heart.

And well, I see your heart too.

It’s hurting.

So let it out, be real. Until you do that, you can’t receive love….how can you? Until you let someone see those fears, those wounds….you can’t mend those wounds, apply ointment to heal that scab…It’s all covered up. Some of you have done a really good job of that.

Are you ready to live authentically?

You Are The Creator Of Your Life

On May 9, 2015May 9, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn business, entrepreneur, faith3 Comments

Nothing is real save love. Nothing matters but love.

I’ve walked everywhere for one week now, no use of my car. It’s allowed me to reach some spiritual awakenings in my soul.

‘Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.’

Here goes:

There is no lack, but perceived lack. Nothing is real outside of what is within our consciousness. Anything that desires to be manifest will be manifest in its due time. Any areas of strivings are evidence that you do not know you have 100% power within you as long as you know you are complete in God, as God has redeemed you…as long as you have received the free gift of completion.

Since you are 100% complete and whole, and in your inner reality, there are actually no lack, no problems…since these external concerns are simply deviations from self love or the knowledge that you are loved.

What is real is who you are on the inside. Until you come to see that you are creator of your life, you will keep striving for that which you think you lack within. All progress starts from within.

When you receive perfect love from God- in the eyes of God you become pure, perfect; there is no lack. Thus, we are all remembering who we already are in the future. There is no time in the I AM. You are who you are, there is no time, we live forever…our spirits are eternal beings. Our bodies are simply temporary dwellings which our spirits live in.

Any perceived problems, lack, relational conflicts, divorce, breakups, heart breaks are our hearts telling us “things are supposed to be beautiful, eternal, things are supposed to last”.

Our lives are like spirals, there are perceived backwardness, such as losing our careers, relationships, people, but these are necessary seasons just as winter is necessary for summer to come later.

When people accuse you of not giving them love, it is often because they do not acknowledge love is within them and waiting to be received. People also treat you as they treat themselves. If they judge you, they judge themselves harshly. If they demean you, they demean themselves in their own lives. Now you say that people have hurt you, but if we start to see that people act out of their perceived lack (not knowing that love is realized in their consciousness first), you are then not responsible for how they feel.

Your worth does not come from whether people approve or love you. Love is complete within you, so whether someone likes you or not does not affect how you feel. You are devoid of ego, only spirit.

This is intense stuff but I hope you gained something from this blog post.

XOXO- BEX

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Love IS Not Ho Hum Fear, But Vulnerability Exposed

On May 8, 2015May 8, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn love, RelationshipsLeave a comment

I reached a breakthrough yesterday, this was better than any worldly increase, any publicity, getting on TV, being validated by a news channel, Vogue, Forbes, nothing like that…it wasn’t a man kneeling on his knees and telling me how much he loved me, no no no….this was way bigger than that….this was LOVE.

Well, how could it be love if it wasn’t with a romantic partner?

My heart was seen and I was heard, and I was loved anyway. That is love.

Yesterday I sat on the floor spilling my guts to my friend….as we talked about all the people we needed to forgive, especially family members that never gave us the love we needed, I realized that we both needed to feel accepted and LOVED…and most of all to feel safe. Without safety there is no trust, when there is no trust there is no freedom to be yourself, to express your true feelings.

We prayed and I also gave my burdens to God. You see, if God is love then love is God. Love is supreme.

The world tells us that LOVE is LUST, Love is not lust, physical attraction wanes BIG TIME. LOVE is not attraction either, because I can be attracted to a thousand guys, LOVE is not exclusive within a romantic relationship…

Here are the things I believe love is:

Love IS:

1. Forgiveness, knowing that we are not perfect and others aren’t

2. Vulnerability, having the freedom to open your heart to someone and trust that they will not judge but accept you (with someone that you have known and built trust with).

3. Communication, believing that connection is KEY and that your goal is to connect and not disconnect.

4. Service, having an attitude of “how can I help you” and be a support for you in this tough time.

5. Patience, having the patience to love someone when they are like porcupines, purposely hurting you out of protection for themselves.

Even though we stayed up until 3am drinking fine whiskey, I found myself awake at 10am desiring to POUR all of what I learned into this blog…I hope that our world will start to see what love really is. I’m tired of seeing friends suffer and young people strive for the type of “counterfeit love” that is conditional.

I have gained the whole world by knowing that I am loved and that I can feel secure in a friendship. Relationships mean the world to me especially since I never felt safe to express myself in my own family. How about you? Do you have that kind of friend, do you have that kind of family (even non-related ones)? I hope you do, and if you don’t, know that the first step is to forgive anyone that has hurt you in the past and to know that you are loved unconditionally by the God who created you.

I know this season of my life is preparing me for my life partner because without the ability to communicate well with a friend, I wouldn’t be able to communicate with a partner. I have also been learning how to reject guys with grace and honor. This isn’t always easy when they are persistent and wanting to cross your emotional boundaries…that’s when you set a line and perhaps block their numbers, because you should never feel unsafe.

This is also training for my big international business…whenever I’m traveling or going anywhere, men hit on me wherever I go. I have to learn to politely decline their consideration without hurting their ego or make them feel like they’re not good enough…since there’s only one person I’m going to be with, it’s a matter of “you’re not that person”, and my purpose is fulfilled together with “that person”, not you.

To love, may you find friends, family and people in your life that you can lay the shit out and still know you are loved.

Forgiveness As A Way Of Life

On May 8, 2015May 8, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn forgiveness, self-help, spirtualLeave a comment

“What great thing would you attempt if you knew you could not fail?” — Robert Schuller

To truly live life to the fullest, to be passionately pursuing life and your dreams, you must overlook the mistakes you will make. You must be slow to judge, slow to condemn, slow to be offended. You must manuever quickly because we are all human and we all make mistakes. To be an artist, an entrepreneur, you must make mistakes to be a great one. You must make big mistakes, I think that’s a requirement, it creates depth and depth is seen in your work.

I love hearing the sound of rain, the sound of cars driving on a watered road. After watching Lost in Thailand on Netflix, I had this urge to write about my recent heart journey. Ever since I came back from Hawaii, I’ve been releasing even more negative vibes out of my life. Though I had already sold all of my furniture and reduced my clothes to fit into a duffle bag, I was not done with starting over.

I also needed to once and for all forgive everyone that had ever hurt me in my life. As I started writing down names of people I wanted to forgive and release from my heart, no longer requiring their validation, approval or apologies, I realized there was a theme of “lack of affection/attention” or “negative words or words of rejection”, some that consisted of people making judgements on me even though they had known me for years, yet perhaps out of a lack of love in their own hearts, chose to see me as someone i was not…out of the attempt to control someone they could not control- me.

I also had to forgive myself for “wasted years” when the truth is….I needed to go through what I went through to see the precious worth of my time and life. I remember telling a stranger that I learned a lot from my past relationship, he replies “well you sure learn a lot after a beating” (now that’s an analogy). We don’t always need to learn from hardships or heartbreak, we can learn from wisdom, from listening to our hearts.

Well, now I can help others who struggle with self-worth and rejection. I also needed to learn what it meant to invest time, energy and heart into my closest relationship and that it was not selfish of me to spend time alone or not want to spend time with mere strangers. I saw that as my influence inclined, many people wanted to “spend time with me” to talk about “their issues”, which I do offer in my coaching sessions. Unless you are a close friend of mine, I will not invest time and energy to get “freeloaded”. In order to be the best that I can be, I need to protect my time with myself and most of all, meditate and pray. But I also learn that it is better to have a flexible heart than inflexible ritual. That’s why I’m not big on rituals or things that take away from my heart.

I commit to things because it makes me happy, not because I feel guilt-tripped into it. Who are the people you need to forgive? What did they say or do that hurt you and how did it make you feel in terms of value, worth or significance? Because unless you continue to receive forgiveness and forgive others, the manifestation of our lives are simply an image. Heart growth, heart healing is what counts, unless this is dealt with….all the fruit of our labors will rot.

Trust me on this. Everything you’ve ever worked for will become bitter fruit, wrought out of a bitter root (your heart). Allow your heart to become healthy so that love can flow freely into every area of your life. If you haven’t released forgiveness or people from your heart, they are taking up SPACE for the people that want to love and be loved by you.

My commitments in this life:

1. To know that I have already been forgiven and am free to make mistakes

2. To allow others to be themselves and to allow them to make mistakes just as I make mistakes

3. To know that there is no such thing as “mistakes” but simply detours to the right path

4. To enjoy life to the fullest And just to give you a personal update, I’ll be going up to Sacramento May 14-17 to speak at a women’s conference. From there I’ll be going to Berkeley or Palo Alto, I haven’t decided. And Thailand is on my mind, will probably go this Fall, don’t know how and what, but like any other trip, I must step forward in faith.

When you’re gracious with yourself, you’ll allow others to be themselves around you. That’s the most beautiful form of relationship!

You’re Invited Today- “Not Your Stuck Up” Mixer

On May 5, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn eventsLeave a comment

May 5, 2015 (4-7pm) RSVP HERE!

Edwin Mills by Equator

22 Mills Pl, Pasadena, California 91105

Who is this mixer for? Anyone who does not believe human beings are supposed to work 9-5 at a boring job, business owners, free thinkers, entrepreneurs, lifetime vacationers, writers, creatives, entertainers, vegabonds, musicians, etc….that’s why suits are not required, we prefer laid back.

Come as you are.

My friend was sitting next to me at a bar and mentioned to someone that I host networking events…I was like “wait, you mean those house parties I had?” Apparently I was known to host networking events when in actuality I just wanted people to have fun. So just be yourself and have fun. You might just meet the love of your life or your future bestie.

First HAPPY HOUR is AT EDWIN MILLS!
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XOXO,

Rebekka Lien Creator of Smart Spiritual Sexy and How To Make Money Doing What You Love Ebook
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Embracing the Mundane As A Creative Entrepreneur

On May 4, 2015May 4, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

In Rio – Brazil 2012

Inspiration and creativity comes from a being that is rested.

A creative entrepreneur- a self-starter with awesome ideas, unafraid to take risks, always willing to try, not seeing life as a destination but a journey. I’m taking a 30 day challenge to walk everywhere and take public transportation. This is not always easy in Los Angeles, but I started on May 1. I’ve survived so far. As I was walking back home today, I thought about how far I’ve come in my entrepreneuerial journey. Being an entrepreneur is about embracing every area of life, the shitty and the mundane and the awesome. I’ve struggled to embrace the mundane. I’ve backpacked in the jungles of Ecuador and roamed Australia for a month, I’ve climbed unknown mountains and conquered hardships, sometimes having no clients, no income, no direction… But I realized that faith is all about embracing the vision and the promise even when life seems a stand still. Maybe all of your friends have moved on with their life, they’re successful, they have retirement, they just got engaged, maybe they’re popping out kids….and you…well, maybe you haven’t even had your FIRST job and you’re 25, or 30, or you just got out of school, or you’ve been working part time while trying to start up your non-existent project. Being an entrepreneur is all about embracing the grace-filled moments when you feel like you should be A LOT more advanced by now….considering your age, your family, your… When I first quit my job in 2011 and backpacked in Australia well, considering people around you. And guess what, sometimes it just takes 6 months, a year, 2 years, 3 years to build the inner stamina for the life ahead of you. People judge you because nothing seems to be happening outwardly, but in your heart, god, you are growing into a superhero, spiderman, superman, superwoman, cat woman, or whatever alter ego you have within you. I think I’m actually a kick ass ninja with a sword and latex black cat outfit. I chop enemies to pieces and meditate in a lake side resort…well, maybe not in a latex outfit but in a bikini. Life has been pretty deep, pretty amazing. Not in the outward sense of things, but in my heart. And I think I’m finally starting to embrace the hippie lifestyle of not having a stable lifestyle, it’s been 4 years, I should be used to it by now…I live out of a duffle bag and travel where the spirit leads. Pretty insane for an Asian right? Cairns, Australia So what do you do when nothing seems to be happening? 1. Ask yourself “what is it that I need to learn now?” 2. How can I rest well now in essential preparation for the next season of my life? 3. How can I love myself and others well now? 4. Give yourself space to literally do nothing and be okay with resting in it. 5. Look back on your life and remember how exciting how life has always been.

Your Heart Desires To Be Set Free

On May 3, 2015May 3, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn entrepreneur, faithLeave a comment

You heart desires to be set free

To have space, to have freedom to be, to be still and to know all is completed.

All is won and done.

Your heart seeks peace, seeks rest.

Our outward actions are manifestations of where our hearts are at.

Some hearts need more time and space, some hearts need less, but we all need to nurture the child within, for without it, we’d be simply flesh and bones.

Intimacy scares me, though I thought I gave my heart to a higher cause, there is still self-protection, and self-protection is fear that God will not protect my heart. We live in fear because we think it is safe, but we are compromising our dreams to live in lack. We choose to live in a veil of stability which only becomes a prison.

In a prison, we are unable to break free by our own will. By divine grace, we are set free.

The only reason I’ve become so mature, wise and deep from self-reflection is because I’ve created boundaries to give my heart time to be, not do. Are you giving yourself a garden to cultivate your deepest thoughts, desires and wisdom?

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Why You Should Date For Destiny

On April 27, 2015October 24, 2016 By Rebekka LienIn love, Relationships3 Comments

In a world of tinder and okcupid, how does a young person date these days and for what purpose?

If you’re simply dating for pleasure and to live a life happy to your own little unit, may I suggest something more significant?

Date for destiny. I have been happily single for over a year and during that time I’ve solidified my destiny. My destiny in this world is to grow in love and share the love in my heart, my destiny is to awaken people’s hearts to their true self. My heart desires to share my stories of overcoming fatherlessness, healing, taking bold risks, forgiveness, reconciliation and to heal people. My life work manifests through my life story, my books, my speeches, projects and a life 100% committed to the expression and manifestation of love.

Here are questions I ask people:

1. What makes you come alive? What makes you smile and brings joy to your heart?

2. What are your biggest dream?

3. What is your purpose in life?

4. Who are you?

If you don’t know the answer to those questions, solidify what they are before you even consider involving yourself in a relationship. When I was younger, I didn’t know much about the purpose of a relationship. I knew that it was best that a child have two parents that were still together. As a child of divorce, I have seen the damages of having an absent father. Having children is a really serious ordeal, I don’t take it lightly.

Now that you have identified those 4 life questions, you can date and eliminate candidates based on the criterions.

1. Besides personality and chemistry, do they have the same dreams and purpose?

2. Do they know who they are as a wholistic being? Not just “career title”.

I see so many superficial relationships including my past relationships that it saddens me to see marriages and relationships rip apart based on differences in life goals.

Success is easy, just follow systematic steps to accrue wealth. That means little to me. I live by destiny. Ever since I was young, I knew there was something great within me. I was destined to overcome and to be an inspiration to others. I’m an agent of change and healing as I have graciously been shown agape love. I live by grace.

My dream isn’t to become rich, though that will come as I contribute my greatness into this world….my dream is to be the most loving self I can be and to partner with a co-agent of change. After I speak at international conferences, I’d like to have my other half tell me I did a good job, pray for me before major speaking engagements and create life changing music, films, companies together.

I’ve been destined for something way bigger than just living a normal picket fence American life.

I’ve given everything up for one great love, I know Ill succeed, I know I’ve already changed and inspired hundreds through my speeches, Ebook, travels, volunteer work, this blog….if god took me now, I would be proud to say I’ve done it all. But now I’d like to partner with someone so we can continue the work in a grander way, not to live a normal life in a big house, but to go where spirit leads. There’s few that would sacrifice everything for a greater dream.

Are you dating for fun? That’s fine, but don’t waste your life not knowing who you are and what your destiny is. Life is too short. When you become whole in healing, knowing the core of your purpose in this life, you’ll start to date for destiny….not for temporary pleasures but for a partner who will walk into destiny with you.

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Sell Your Shit and Live Your Dreams

On April 25, 2015April 25, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn UncategorizedLeave a comment

Above-I taught music to these kiddos in rural Hunan 2010. Some pictures above of the untouched nature.

When I graduated from college, i wanted to move to Asia to work. However after my volunteer trip in Hunan, China I realized I didn’t really like the thought of living in China. Then I went back to Taiwan and I was reminded that the only reason I wanted to leave Los Angeles was because I was trying to escape my family. Growing up in a single mom home I often felt like a father. I know it sounds crazy, but as the more assertive and aggressive, driven personality, I felt the burden to provide or to be the good daughter.

That was 5 years ago. I’ve traveled all over the world since, 2 weeks, sometimes 3-4 months. I’ve also freed myself from that horrible perspective I’ve had that is so rampant in Asian culture. I believe that we are all worthy and loved. We must pursue our own destiny to be happy. It’s not our job to please our parents. If they loved you unconditionally, truly, they would want us to be happy.

Everyone has a different opinion about what it means to be happy and to live a life that will bring happiness.

Some think that money and stability will bring happiness. Some think a loving relationship with someone hot will bring happiness. I quit my full time job in 2011 because I knew my life was greater than sitting at a desk job. I pursued my artistic endeavors and eventually even got my real estate license. I thought that gosh if I could just sell a big house, I’d be able to travel more. I’m glad I never succeeded in the way I thought I would. I thrived in leasing but the one thing that I loved was connecting to and helping people.

I noticed that I was giving advice to my clients about their love lives or encouraging them when they had financial issues. I’d often tell them “you’ll get through this, there is a purpose for everything”.

When I was backpacking through Europe last year, I realized that I was happiest when I only had a bag but was connecting with people on a deep level. I realized that my travel stories are the richest things I’ve acquired in my lifetime.

We meet people so we can heal and be healed. Something someone says can change your life forever or bring revelation to heal the places of hurt or the stories of abandonment or rejection from your childhood.

Heres an important point, you think you’ll follow your dreams when you have enough financial security to do so? That will never happen. You’ll be too comfortable or tired by then. You must be so passionate about your dreams that you would risk everything for it. You must start now, whatever it takes.

For me I moved out of my apartment, sold every piece of furniture, minimized my wardrobe and became a minimalists. I realize that I only wear the same few shirts anyways. And when I get tired of them I trade them out.

I only live in furnished places, I’m a free spirit, I even find my car to be a bit of a hassle.

I am speaking at several womens conferences and would like to meet some strangers while I’m there. I’m thinking of going to Thailand to help orphan or teach survivors of human trafficking. I’m still doing the coaching and acting, but recently I’ve also started singing/playing piano and drawing again!

Is it scary? Yes sometimes. Not knowing is one of our biggest fears, but I am being led by spirit and I know God takes care of me as a loving father would. My destiny is bigger than I can imagine and so is yours.

Why You Should Take The Road Less Traveled

On April 21, 2015April 21, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn faithLeave a comment

Today I took the road less traveled as I often do.

It’s interesting when people that do not have interesting lives tell you what to do, it makes me chuckle a bit. People think being alone is very dangerous, but I think otherwise. I’m never alone, God is always with me. I’m always being directed left or right, back or forward. Can human beings direct me? Not often, unless they’ve walked the same road I’m trying to walk on.

I woke up around 8:30am and decided to try a hike I’ve never done before. It’s supposed to be 10 miles roundtrip. When I got to the bottom of the hill, I noticed there was an interesting path, very rocky all the way up. It wasn’t a paved road. Instinctively, I started walking up.

Then the road started getting real tiring and it was REALLY cold. However, I was only wearing shorts and a sleeveless drake shirt. Midway up, I thought about going back.

Isn’t that us in life?

We often want to give up midway to the top. It’s easy to give up and go to starbucks to enjoy our safe cup of coffee, to veg out at home and never see a stranger again, it’s easy to live our routine lives and take the easy path. It’s easy, but our souls tend to die a little more each day because human beings are meant to be challenged, to be excited, to be passionate about life….there’s a little adventurer that longs to see a greater life.

Do you know what spurred me on?

A set of footsteps, actually the same footsteps all the way up that led me. I knew it was just one person who had gone up this path maybe earlier in the morning or the day before…or who knows when, but it gave me courage to keep going.

Another analogy- when we know that ONE person, even one, have gone before US, we have courage to keep going.

Whose footsteps are you following?

Ones that inspire you or ones that are simply traditional? Nothing wrong with traditional and the worn path, but are they living the life you desire?

So I started to sing and talk to myself, I kept hearing “there’s gold on top of the mountain”. There’s gold indeed. I walked by some graffitied metals, up I walked. I even peed once since no one was on the trail.

The great thing about being a rarity is that you can do whatever you want and no one will be there to judge.

I got to the top area, and was praying for a paved road…finally there was. I thought to myself, “should i keep going or go back because going back is familiar but I have no idea where I’ll be walking now if I keep going forward”.

I heard “keep going forward”.

Now, I started walking down the grey path, some kind of paved road that no one drove on. It was a secret road.

As I started walking down, I looked at the daunting mountains.

OMG am I going to make it back alive. Where am I? My phone had no reception and just from looking down at the city, I was FAR FAR FAR away from the starting point. I just kept hearing “trust me”. Spirit was leading me. The mountains that once inspired me now seemed scary.

I suddenly see this biker and my heart leaped. I hurried and asked him how far I was from the bottom. He said “shouldn’t be that far, it took me 20 minutes to bike up”. Happily, I walked down, but it was WAY more than 20 minutes plus from where he parked, there was still 3-4 miles down the hill. I walked by a chinese couple, I asked them again and this time I told them where I started from, they looked at me with awe. OMG they said. You started THERE!

“I got lost but now I’ve found”- with my totally frozen hands.

My hands were completely frozen, it hurt to bend them. Finally I saw a white car and a gangster looking guy. He was on the phone with a redbull in his hands. I asked him how far it would take to get down…and by any chance, if he was driving down, could I get a lift? He said he would if he was going down soon.

I kept walking.

And like an angelic sound, the humming of his beaten up car came down like a breeze on a hot night.

The most unlikely ride. I ran and hopped in. And if you were wondering, geez so dangerous. I have hitchhiked with people all over the world and because I can sense peoples’ energy, I am able to do so. I said “you know, sometimes I always wonder whether there are actually kind people in the world when I’m in situations like this”. He said “me too, one time my car broke down on the freeway and I kept waving….no one stopped to help me”.

I felt sad because I knew that people refused to stop because they were busy, or thought their lives to be busy….probably also because he looked like a gangster. It’s funny how the most unlikely people are actually the ones that help you and the ones that sometimes have everything have no compassion for you.

And as I hopped off the car, I offered a blessing for him. Because with my hands frozen, my heart had melted a little this day. What if we were all kind to one another, what would the world look like? What if we didn’t judge by skin color or class?

It saddened me to think about it, but it also gave me fresh perspective. Thank God to the many angels that gave me direction today…and so it is with our lives, we can either be safe in our little cave and judgements of others or trust that the universe is full of kind souls, ready to give love and be loved by you….and thus, take the necessary risks to fulfill your dreams.