Before I went overseas I had many dreams about wearing a wedding dress getting ready on an airplane.

The wedding dress was symbolic of trust, marrying Jesus, trusting Him, giving my whole life to Him.

And yet I still have trouble trusting Him at times. Like times when He tells me where to go next to minister to the people He needs me to reach. I don’t see the finances for the plane ticket; it slowly comes together but very slowly. Like I have two days left to pull the finances together. If He even wants me there then.

I woke up thinking “I give up. It’s like pulling a dead cow. I tried my best. I give up and surrender. Not by my flesh or effort but by your spirit”.

It was much easier to work for money but now that I trust God for it to do the work He has called me to, sometimes and most of the time it’s a matter of letting go.

I let go.

You won’t abandon me. Why me though? Why of all people did you call me?

Because you choose to trust me even when it’s scary. You choose to face the fears and go through the pain even when you don’t see a way.

That is why you are a pioneer because no one else will do it.

Why won’t anyone else do it?

They don’t trust me.

They don’t believe that I am good.

That is why many have yet to step into what I have called them to. They will rather cling unto a job or a man, something they can see.

You can’t always see me, yet you can hear me.

I can hear you but my heart still battles to trust you.

And that is okay. I know you are fragile, human, imperfect but I only see Jesus in you. Perfect; unblemished; not lacking; abundant. That is all I see.

He paid the price.

I am asking you to see Jesus in you. That is the only truth.

This journey is about intimacy. Not everyone wears a wedding ring with my name on it. Some are unwilling to trust me, I’m waiting patiently and will continue waiting for them.

Woman of God will you trust me? Will you trust me when you don’t see it yet? Will you listen to my still voice? Will you put a ring with my name on it?

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Hi friends! I am currently fundraising for my stay at Christchurch. You all have seen the work is being done and your contribution impacts people for eternity. Your giving will also be returned 100 fold in Jesus name! Any amount helps- $20, 50, 100, 500, 1000.
May you give as the spirit leads! Thank you in advance. Thousands of lives are being touched for eternity!

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I just arrived in Christchurch and a God sent angel gave me a ride to a hostel he found online and I felt peace about it! I got to pray over them!

God I need you more than ever. I’ve seen you work before yet every time I go to a new place I ask you “will you lead the way? Will I have a place to sleep?” I’m looking for your lost sheep, I’m looking for your sheep. I’m relying solely on you, for your provision. I’ve seen miracles. At a moments notice, you sent me to peoples’ homes and yet again I leave and I feel like I have to start over and yet again I have to be brave and courageous and have the question mark of “when, how?”

How will you provide this time? 

How will you lead me this time? 

I often arrive late at night in a new city not knowing where you are leading me, but I follow. 

I follow with my carry on and a duffel bag, a stranger in a foreign city. Everything feels foreign, I don’t feel excited, I feel apprehensive. 

I feel scared at times. Will you take care of me again? Will you do it again? 

Then divine encounters after divine encounters, I see healings and miracles, both physical, emotional and spiritual.

I am the messenger and carrier of your miracle. How could it be? 

I see people cry and laugh with wonder, faces transformed, body healed, heart open. 

How it could be? 

I asked how will you provide, how could it be? 

You’ve done it again and again, country to country, you never fail me. 

I’m your chosen prophet; a pastor to lost sheep, I hold and embrace the lost sheep and welcome them back. I tell them “you’re not under condemnation, you are perfect in God’s eyes”.

I pray with the lost and they hear Jesus’ voice. You long for your children and all to come to you. Your ways are gentle, never forceful. 

You chose me but sometimes the calling and purpose seems too big for me. I am just human but with you in me. 

The resurrected Christ in me. You speak through me, healing the broken hearted and mending old wounds. 

You correct peoples’ views of you through me. You say “I am a loving father, not a mean one”. 

God you will not leave me stranded, the servant and messenger. Through me the world have already seen- you are too real, only by God’s grace you’ve carried me this far. 

I tell tales too miraculous to believe. They listen in awe, but they don’t know the sacrifices too big to explain. This is the longest I’ve been away from my mom. Midway a family member got sick. I keep going, praying for them. 

I keep going because there are souls and lives at stake. Most people live comfortable lives seeking their own lives but I’ve been carrying my cross and following Him. I’m working for a kingdom most can’t see. 

They’ll say “sure I’ll follow Jesus but only as much as this” and they’ll point to the end of their couch or the end of their house or the end and premise of their city. 

I’m a layed down lover. I do it because His love broke through the deepest part of my heart and I’ve allowed Him to break my own strength. 

I can do nothing in my own strength. I boast in Christ alone. If He doesn’t move, I am literally in trouble. I’d been stuck in a country or sleeping on the streets or homeless with no food to eat. 

Yet, he has provided all that I need according to his riches in glory. Sometimes my needs are met by the people I am ministering to. 

But He is a good father and he will never leave nor forsake you. 

I am almost 8 months overseas and I’ve never missed one meal or had to sleep on the street once even if I had to sleep late looking for a place as the Lord directed.

I’ve seen the Lord speak to Muslims, the Lord speak in Vietnamese, the Lord heal wounded backs, I’ve seen people open their eyes to God through prophetic words, I’ve had hundreds and even thousands of divine encounters. 

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. I am currently fundraising for what is ahead. Going to Christchurch, New Zealand today. Thank you in advance for obeying God – May the Lord bless you abundantly! 

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please pray for:

1. Safety, protection by angels

2. Provision, finances

3. God to prepare the hearts of those I minister to

4. The city of christchurch

When we hear from God we prophesy and open up peoples’ hearts to who God is.

Yesterday I was walking behind a guy I saw at the hostel and I said- aren’t you from the hostel? He said yes. I said what’s your tattoo?

I said “can I pray for you?”

he said “yes but I’m not religious so you can pray for me but I’m not praying with you”.

“Okay no worries I’m praying for you and you are not praying with me”.

”right now??” He looked like he wanted to walk away. We were in the middle of the street. I touched his arms and closed my eyes.

“I see you djing. Do you DJ?”

He said “I used to as a little kid. How did you know that?” He looked a bit surprised. He started to talk about his love for music. He was from England.

When you are always talking to God and hearing from God, you prophesy to open peoples’ hearts to who God is.

Yesterday I felt led to go to the kitchen. There was a girl who was very against the institution of church having grown up in catholic school.

I said “I don’t like institution too. In fact I’m not religious either. Jesus came to destroy rules not to bind us. He came to set us free”.

I said “come. I will pray for you”.

I held her hand and said “I see people all around you criticizing you” she was shocked, she told me she was so criticized over a situation in her life that she came to New Zealand to escape. I won’t go into detail with what was happening but then I also saw an image of someone pulling her hair and God cuts her hair.

she said “I’ve been wanting to cut my hair! But I’m scared I won’t like it”.

I said “just do it. Life is about trying and living in freedom. God wants us to try without fear. He is cutting away criticism from your life”.

I could tell her whole face lit up. She didn’t seem skeptical anymore. I told her testimonies about God working in my 8 month journey. She said “for some reason I believe you!”

Because I spoke into her situation, I knew what was in her heart. We talked for A few hours, she no longer had her guard up. God loves her.

God knows what is in your heart. He is not concerned about you knowing things, He is longing for a heart connection.

A french man listened into my conversation with the woman. He tried to ask me theological questions but I said “I’m not here to debate about theology, I’m here to show you God’s heart”.

I asked to pray for him. I saw his heart being opened and light coming out of his heart. I said- God is opening your heart because you tend to analyze things with your mind, it’s your way of self protection.

Okay well, he tried to analyze the truth I spoke about his heart.

My job is to do heart surgery. Jesus always speaks into peoples’ hearts. He is a master of heart language. He is not a theologian, He is a heart master.

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. I am currently fundraising for what is ahead. In one more night I’ll be going to Christchurch, New Zealand. Thank you in advance for obeying God – May the Lord bless you abundantly! 

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Love takes risk

It isn’t afraid of failure 

It isn’t afraid of rejection or humiliation 

Love is bold

It says what’s on its heart

Love knows no bounds, has no limitations

There is no fear in love

There is no loss in love

You can’t lose from loving, you can only gain 

Heartache is our hunger for eternity where nothing begins or ends

Love is not logical 

It’s not mathematical. It cannot be explained or computed, measured or transacted. 

Love is illogical. It can’t be explained or understood by the mind but can only be felt with the heart. 

It crosses boundaries, institutions, organizations, structures, age limits, racial boundaries, and is often offensive. 

Our heart wants what it wants because we are searching for wholeness, we are searching to love beyond our humanity. 

Deep down we just want to be loved for who we are.

We suppress our desires because it seems wrong, but our hearts long in secret for that wild and passionate love. 

We don’t want the safe love, the clear cut, dry and boring love. We don’t want routine and if we long for safety and security we often get bored.

Life is much more than Netflix and chill. Life is much more than sitting on a couch and being numb. We are looking for adventure, a love that hurls us outside our comfort zone, that puts our hearts on the line. 

We are not looking for more rules to tell us how to love, we are looking for rule breaking love. 

Why do we keep loving when we know it won’t go anywhere, because we long for an eternal love…deep down we know heaven exists and that love is supposed to be eternal. 

People cross paths to experience this eternal and unconditional love. God has a way of expressing His love through and to people. 

Marriage sometimes ends in divorce because one or both have clung onto a safe love, unable and unwilling to be vulnerable, hoping the other would go first….hoping that you don’t have to be vulnerable first, to let down your pride, to say I need help, I’m not well, I’m scared to love.

Be the first to love, be the first to say what’s on your mind. This applies to any types of relationship. When we let our guards down, we allow love in.

We think that if we just play it safe and settle for a safe love we won’t get hurt, but the truth is our hearts will hurt from not being alive.

We think that if we just psycho-analyze every mistake we’ve ever made in love that we will never feel the pain of loving, but that just results in a dull love.

God’s love for us is vibrant. It is not a stale love, it climbs the highest mountains and faces the biggest humiliations. It has no fear in love.

Love isn’t about right  wrong but it is an expression of our hearts’ desire to be known and loved for who we are.

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. 

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I’m so tired I want to cry.

I just went through a similar Paul-shipwrecked experience. How I could have missed the dates, I don’t know. I booked the wrong dates. Instead of February I booked March and the whole city was fully booked.

A receptionist from Nepal in a hotel finally made an exception. He gave me the room that they usually hold onto in case of emergency. He had already rejected several guests.

God is a God of exception. His favor will find exceptions for you. Or He will provide more for the losses.

I slept at 4am after walking around the city at 3am trying to find a place to stay. I felt a lot of fear and lack waking up in the morning. There’s something real about not knowing where you are going to stay at night. It’s petrifying, scary. Even though I said out loud LORD MAKE A WAY, my heart was tense.

I met 5 drunk teenagers when I asked where I could stay and ended up laying hands on them, prophesying over them as I smelled their drunk pores. Sweet and helpful kids. It was a little too real.

I am currently in Auckland, New Zealand.

Prayers are much needed.

And of course finances as well.

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Korean academy kids I met in Singapore hostel

Usually I wake up in the middle of the night and the blog post start running through my head, it’s like a dictation from God. I have to wait until the morning to write it sometimes since I’m using the hostel computer nowadays.

The anointing came with a cost.

To have the boldness, the courage to go from country, city to city like apostle Paul did traveling exactly like how the disciples did, it took being crushed.

In 2014, I broke up with my ex boyfriend who I knew wasn’t my husband. At that time I lost many friends. I thought my world was falling apart but God was actually preparing me. He told me to sell everything and follow Him.

I sold every last piece of my furniture. I had an apartment, a car. I returned the new car. Before I had believed a lie that I needed to be successful in the world to be a light, that if I could become rich and famous then I could really preach the gospel and be a light. But it was a lie from hell.

I needed to be stripped of everything that did not carry the power of the holy spirit. Everything that was created by my own means, everything that my flesh strove to attain, that I needed to be stripped away from.

From then on, I just followed where His spirit led me. I ended up in Hawaii for 2 weeks, I came back and didn’t tell anyone. The Lord would lead me and tell me where to stay. I stayed with my friend for a week, then months, then I went to Thailand and went through Southeast Asia as He instructed me.

A lot of the countries I’ve been to on this trip I’ve actually been to before. I saw the holy spirit work mightily. It was only a glimpse of the anointing I carried because I still had to be healed of a lot of things.

I had to be crushed.

This crushing came in the form of living with my mom.

For the first time in my 28 years of living I was being supported by my mom. I felt unworthy and ashamed but in resting I learned that I was a child of God and not an orphan. I received things that I could never afford on my own while I was slaving away as a freelancer, like a gym membership for example. But I also got attacked verbally, accused about my life, relatives turned on me, called me lazy and selfish. I had worked since the age of 8 and yet, that was not enough.

I was learning grace and this grace called me child, not an orphan.

The last of my days as an orphan, I found myself at church and the Lord asked me to give everything I had. I had $200, $700 lacking of rent and rent was already late. God asked me whose house I was building, His or mine.

So I surrendered.

I didn’t have rent for one month, then two months, then I knew it was time to move on.

I didn’t have rent money but I had peace.

That was the beginning of being crushed. Crushed so I could have the anointing that crushing comes with.

There is not one person that I come into contact with that I don’t pray for. Sometimes I pray for wounded ankles, infected ears, pain in the body.

I see that God truly heals hearts and bodies.

And that the kingdom is worth living for.

There is much spiritual territory to take this year. God has already told me several countries and cities that I need to go to (Australia, New Zealand, India). It will take finances. Yesterday I had a dream that someone wrote me 2 checks, one for $2000 and one for $200. Then some guy said “whatever you want, please tell me and I’ll put it on the table”.

So the new goal is $2200 for whatever is coming up. Australia- Perth, Cairns, etc. 

Thank you for those who have been ministry partners and have been sending me out in obedience to the Lord. I pray the Lord protect and bless you.

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During the last 5 months, since July 2018 I have layed hands and prayed over hundreds, even thousands of people, restoring their identity to being a son and daughter of God, delivering them from shame, guilt and condemnation.

Some people ask me how do I know if it is God speaking, well would Satan want people to be free? 

LOL. Just look at the fruit. And stop asking silly questions.

In South Africa, I often walked in the malls and asked God to show me who needed prayer. There are many Christians in South Africa but not everyone knows that they are free of condemnation. 

I’ll walk up to janitors and say “let’s pray” and she will get two or 3 of her co-workers and we’ll go into a danky hallway to pray. Sometimes I covered a whole family from Brazil who was sitting next to me. Sure, there were times people waved me off when I tried to pray for their injured leg as they shouted “no I don’t believe in this Jesus”.

Then there are other times that God leads me to a small local stall. Like yesterday. I went to this stall 3 times yesterday. The first time God gave me the impression that she was working too much. The evidence was in injuries in her body. She had a dark bruise on her leg. I asked her what happened and she said a moped ran into her.

I said “can I pray for you?” She was a Hindu. She said, YES PLEASE.

I layed hands on her leg and said “do you believe you will be healed by Jesus?” She said “yes, yes”.

That night I went back to eat and after eating, I felt like she needed to know God was her father. I said “you are God’s children and God’s children get to rest. He is the one taking care of you, you can rest. Jesus died on the cross for you, you are worthy worthy worthy”. She got her husband because she was so excited to hear this. Then her husband got another man who understood English a little better. But they woke him up from his sleep so he was a little pissed off.

Nevertheless, the message was sent.

Then two Indians came all of a sudden. I was about to leave but then I said “can I pray for you?” They were really enthusiastic and said yes. I saw one climbing a mountain, and he was so shocked “I live in a city full of mountains” and the other I saw he was dancing and he said “I am a musician”. Then I shared my testimony about leaving everything to follow Jesus. 

They said “you must come to India”. This was another sign of where God wanted me to go.

They were utterly shocked by the accuracy of these visions and so was I.

The Lord doesn’t always give me specific visions to share with people, so I knew that He wanted to open their hearts.

Some days I sow, some days I reap.

Some days I feel accused and have to fight the accusation. The truth is there are times people (usually conservative Christians…most unfortunately) question me and I have to just say out loud “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, there is no condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus”. 

But last night I realized how special I am. I am really special. I am really faithful. I obey God not because I’m scared of Him, but because I trust utterly in His grace.

The other day in Singapore, I went to church and when they started worshiping, I just fell on my knees and started sobbing to God. When your heart hears painful stories and when your heart continues to love those who are broken, who need healing, who need God, you can only fall on your knees. 

Often times I find myself weeping for those who weep. 

I weep for the man who was Christian but became Buddhist and his wife died. I weep for the owner of the hostel who has extreme anger issues and hit a customer. I weep for the Christians who don’t know they are free.

I have become bolder than a lion not because of my own flesh, but because of His grace. When you know you are accepted by the Lord, you don’t need anyone else’s acceptance. You can sit alone and know the Lord is sitting next to you. 

I walk up to strangers because I am captivated by His love.

People ask for a formula, but there is no formula- the formula is to surrender to Jesus and His love. I simply follow Jesus in loving people. I don’t care about a ministry, I care about people as Jesus cares for them.

How did He train me? He trained me for many years, with no recognition, no ministry, no funds to back it up, He asked me to obey in hard times because He was testing my heart- that my heart was pure as gold, white as snow. 

How low are you willing to go? How broken do you allow your heart to be? Because this is no game. Your heart will feel the pain, your heart will feel like it can’t go on anymore but then you will cry and weep and you will feel angels surrounding you.

This is love, a passionate love, a love worth living for. I have felt the presence of God’s love in looking into the eye’s of people.

God is so gentle, He is so loving, He never condemns, He brings people up from the dust and restores them with words of affirmation. He says “you are enough, you are not lacking”.

Yesterday I had to type in what the Lord was saying to a young Indonesian staff at the hostel. I typed “Jesus loves you as you are”. He asked “really?”

I said “yes”.

God is a restorer, not a condemner.

It is the devil that condemns.

Thank you to everyone that has already given in obedience to the Lord. I am utterly grateful to you. May the Lord bless and keep you in Jesus name and multiply unto you everything that you give.

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It’s one thing to say “just trust God” when you’re in an environment you know and with family and friends around you, it’s another when you’re alone (with Jesus and a hosts of angels) in a foreign country, your phone broke, you are low on cash and your card stopped working.

I have been through many situations on this missionary journey of following Jesus that looked like God would not come through. There were many nights I couldn’t sleep from unknown noises, TV next door, the mosque prayers, the noises seemed to be endless.

Your back starts hurting and your feet are swollen from walking.

Sure I pray for people and give them a solution from God, I help entangle the mess people aren’t able to step out from and entangle themselves, but sometimes I ask God “how about me?”

You are free.

You are enough in Christ Jesus. I may not look like I have everything but I have everything – Jesus.

The enemy will bring situations to wear you down, and then he will say “see God must not be with you, if He was with you this wouldn’t be happening” but in those tests and trials God actually wants to solidify your faith and trust in God.

He is training you to trust Him as your Father. I believe many of us don’t see God at work because we haven’t put Him to the test, we haven’t walked out in faith.

Perhaps God has called you to leave a relationship, to leave home, to quit your job, to pursue something new and you’re afraid.

I’m not always brave.

In fact a lot of times I feel anxious, I feel like I can’t sleep and I have to battle those thoughts with prayer.

I feel exhausted physically.

Then God says “you are enough, you are not lacking, I am enough for you”.

So today as I was walking I just kept saying “I am blessed and highly favored”.

Yesterday I was so tired I kept thinking I feel like I’m dying and God said speak life! So I said okay….all things are possible through Christ who strengthens me.

In order to really live in grace you need to put God to the test.

If He said to quit your job, you do it trusting God is your provider.

If He told you to be a prophet missionary and travel without knowing how you will do it, you trust Him and walk in it.

I feel weaker and weaker in my flesh but stronger in the spirit. I know I cannot boast in my flesh at all, it’s God who has brought me through everything.

And that’s grace.

I cannot do anything on my own but with Christ alone.

Have you put God to the test? He will show Himself faithful. Step out in faith.

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This post is super vulnerable as I battled not being able to sleep and was having anxiety due to the TV playing next door. Slowly I felt the thoughts come to me.

I have a fear of intimacy. I’ve been told to tone it down as people have set boundaries with me before. Often my expressiveness, my too much news, my over emotions causes people to pull away from me.

I don’t know how to be a happy medium so I hold back.

I feel like I’m too much so I pent up what I’m actually feeling.

TV noises bother me. I like sleeping on schedule. I’m a control freak about getting my 8 hours, so I’m a perfectionist in some ways and I’ve tried to be perfect in friendships- always running over to be the shoulder for others to cry on and sometimes neglecting myself and my needs.

So as I’m coming out of the cave of emotional intimacy, I’m realizing that I’m petrified of telling my truth because I’ve been rejected for being too honest, I’ve been ridiculed or pushed away for being honest.

There’s a push and pull of wanting what I want and sometimes feeling like over indulging.

With food, sometimes I want sugar. I want a lot of it but then I feel guilty and bad for taking in so much of it.

I doubt my heart sometimes, I think this is too good to be true and find the smallest thing irritating.

I have so much energy and creativity in my mind I feel crazy half the time.

I’m hyper sensitive to noise. I can hear wiring in a wall, the smallest intonation, music notes that a noise makes. I know which do re mi it is.

There’s not enough paper for me to write all of my thoughts in this world.

I’m a bottle ready to explode at any time and sometimes I try to contain it.

I go back and forth, taking naps, then not being able to sleep at night.

I am enough in Christ Jesus. I am not lacking. I am not too much or not enough. I’m just the way God made me.

This is the truth, that I am ultimately enough and I can stop holding my breathe. 

Sometimes I don’t know what I want and I get caught up with making the “right decisions” when in reality there is no right decision because in Christ we have the freedom to follow our hearts and trust that God gave us those desires.

There is no wrong decision when you know you are righteous in Christ Jesus.

So live in freedom. You don’t have to be perfect in any relationship.

I dare you to be honest. I dare you to tell your truth. I dare you to not hold back anymore.

Yes you’ll get hurt. I got hurt because people didn’t respond the same way I acted towards them but that is love and thats what God has called me to and yes it sucks sometimes and I have to go back to wherever I’m staying and cry because these were not going to be friends forever people, but simply people I prayed for.

I put my heart out there every single day. I pray and talk to strangers. It’s a tough life but I has taught me to live fiercely, without reserve.

It is 1:39am and I can’t sleep. The TV sounds are coming by through the walls and I’m like Lord help me. There’s nothing I can do now but it provoked these thoughts. So I guess holy spirit works in weird and strange and uncomfortable ways.

I dare you to tell your truth this year without caring what people will think. Put your heart out there and don’t hold back anymore. There’s no right or wrong, be free in relationships. Tell your truth even if others disagree with you. You don’t have to be perfect.

You don’t always have to be there for people, you don’t always have to be on, you can be weak and say so, you can be honest and be loved for who you are bd not who you pretend to be.

Sow a seed- Your giving makes changing lives possible as I minister to and share the gospel of grace to people around the world! There is an ongoing need to fulfill the mandate the Lord has put on my life. Join me as I change and save lives! 

Thank you! 

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