This is the painting I described yesterday.

Whenever I meet someone who has been wounded by Christians or the church, my heart breaks. I feel their pain. I understand how it feels to be betrayed by people you thought you could look up to, trust. I’ve met many people on this trip who grew up Christian but walked away.

I find myself listening to worship music and going to Jesus, I know how it feels to be totally isolated in a deep pain, a pain no one seems to understand.

You’re not alone.

I hear the Lord say to you

“You’re not alone. I never ever left you, I was always with you. Even though you doubt me, you turn your back to me, even in the pain, I’m with you. I see you. I never left you.

I feel and understand your pain. Though others have forsaken and abused you, I’ve never left you. I’m always with you still. Even if you curse me and say you are an atheist.

I’m not interested in being right. I’m only interested in loving you.

When I went to the cross, every beating I took for you, I thought to myself you are worth it.

I took the pain for you.

Will you lay down your pain now? Will you stop hurting yourself, punishing yourself?

It wasn’t your fault you went through what you did.

You live in an imperfect world but my grace is sufficient for you.

In your weakness my strength is made perfect. So lean on me. Lean into my strength. You are perfect in my eyes. Lean into me. Cast your cares on me for I am lowly and humble in heart”.

I will never leave nor forsake you says the Lord. You don’t have to go it alone. You are not alone.

I pray today that if you have been seeking a God who loves you -that you would open your heart to Him.

His name is Jesus.

Pray this out loud- Dear God thank you for dying on the cross for my sins. From today on I’m without blemish and I’m whole. In your eyes you only see Jesus. I’m saved by grace and today I’m a child of God, no longer an orphan. I’m righteous in Christ Jesus. My life will never be the same and I open my heart to knowing you Jesus. I’ll walk with you forever. In Jesus name amen!

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A painting I made in Melbourne

This morning I had a realization.

Yesterday I saw an artwork in a gallery with a woman crying and her cheeks were wounded.

On both sides there were verses from the Bible and one from the Koran.

The one from the Koran said a light beating was permitted to put your woman in line. Another was about woman submitting to their husbands.

Then yesterday I talked to a German guy who told me there’s a lot of the Bible he doesn’t agree with.

I explained that Jesus came to fulfill every law, not to bind us.

“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” Romans 8:1

“For it is God who is producing in you both the desire and the ability to do what pleases him.” Philippians 2:13

So if anyone tells you should or shouldn’t do something, they are using the law against you.

Grace is the only thing that should compel you.

When I asked God about the verse regarding submission, the Lord said “I’ve fulfilled every law”.

Here are examples of people using the law against you- it says the devil is the accuser….remember Jesus already paid the price for your imperfections.

1. Lie- God is not blessing you because you don’t tithe- it doesn’t say you are saved by grace and tithing, you are blessed no matter what. Tithing is only an act of worship and thanks. There are times on the road I really don’t have time to sit down and tithe but I hear God say “it’s okay, you’ve done enough”.

I may not tithe all the time but when the Lord leads me I may give all or a large portion of what someone sows into my ministry to someone I meet and who is in need.

This action is also compelled by the grace of God, not because I feel that God won’t bless me if I don’t do it. I do it because I trust that His grace is sufficient for me.

In the past I was very paranoid that God stopped blessing me because I didn’t do something – but I realized that’s the devil condemning me.

His sacrifice on the cross is finished, complete.

In fact, the more you understand grace, the more you will give because you start to experience the grace of God in your life. And you are no longer bound by the curse (ex karma).

Same goes with going to church. For many years I didn’t go to church and I sometimes felt guilty about it but during that time the Lord said “just rest, no need to go”.

Even now on the road I only go to church if I feel led. I meet plenty of Christians on the road and we pray for each other. But I don’t feel obligated to go to be a Christian.

I’m not saved by church attendance. I’m saved by the finished work of the cross and if the Lord leads me to go I go- but often it usually for the people that God wants to connect me to, or perhaps there’s someone He wants me to prophesy over, or perhaps someone will bless me with who they are- but very rarely is it just for the message itself.

The church is a organism, not organization. It’s supposed to be flowing, moving, supporting each other as a community, not as a stagnant organization.

2. Wives, you should do this or that.

At any time someone tells you what to do, they’ve chained you with the law. What is the law? Working for the blessings.

“But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.” Galatians 5:22-23

A fruit is an external manifestation of a seed God planted in you. So it’s not something you made happen, it’s what God did in you. It’s supernatural.

So if there is a loving marriage, God made it happen. If someone chose to love, God made it happen.

God is the one who produced in me the desire and ability to do what I do- but it’s because of the understanding that He already finished all the work on the cross that set me free to follow Him.

If we think that God will only bless us if we obey Him then we don’t understand grace.

It’s His overwhelming love for us that compels our hearts to give up everything to follow Him.

Imagine a kid who does something in obedience to her strict father. She is paranoid and scared that he will punish her if she doesn’t obey him.

She doesn’t understand his love for her. She continues to obey out of fear. But she doesn’t feel loved.

I feel like that at times, but then I realize it’s the enemy trying to make God seem like a tyrant.

Now imagine a kid who is sure of her father’s love for her. She forgives, loves, gives and open her heart to receive because she knows her father loves her, not because she is fearful that her father will retaliate if she doesn’t obey.

The last couple of days have been really intense for me. The money was not transferring or coming in and I felt like I was being torn. I also felt the leading of the spirit to just go and flow with Him not knowing where I was going to stay.

I literally walked where he was leading me. With all my bags. The next day I booked a bus, then the next day I booked another bus somewhere else. It was one after another. Money was really tight. I found free food in the kitchen. Like it was for real. I had to ask people for help. And the people I prayed for actually gave.

My heart was like ahhhhhhh, I’m scared.

I’m scared that God won’t take care of me. But I came through. And I understood it was all learning to trust His heart for me. I also understood that He led me to the places and people that I needed to minister to. It showed me that I was worthy of the help too, that what I was doing was touching peoples’ hearts and they were willing to reciprocate. Which I found so rare in previous times.

I am making you more like Jesus says the Lord. Though it feels difficult, you are being set free from everything that is holding you back.

Yesterday I wept and wept as I prayed to God. I haven’t cried that much all this trip. I felt like my heart was coming out of my chest. I was crying for the lost sheep I met.

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

God wants to break every fear off of you. And sometimes He’ll do that in a tight place, in a place where you feel like you can’t go on anymore. In that place you learn His perfect love is actually enough for you.

This morning the Lord said “look in your bank, the money should have transferred”.

Sure enough it did. God needed me to know that even if I didn’t have money, He would provide for me. That if I asked someone for $5 they would give $20, that if I asked for a ride, they would give me a ride. That if I didn’t have food, there would be food for me in the kitchen.

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I felt so burdened and drained today. I thought it was because I was stressed about having 11 nzd for tomorrow or maybe I was worried about where I would sleep tomorrow.

But when I started listening to worship music I started weeping. I closed my eyes and heard the pain of the wounded man on the bus today. I closed my eyes and saw the reaction of those who heard I’m a missionary, those skeptics of God, those wounded by the church or Christians.

I couldn’t stop weeping and praying.

When will the church stop debating theology and actually love those Jesus calls us to love??

When will we allow our hearts to be truly broken??

Today the man on the bus asked me what God was telling me.

I said “He told me to listen to you”.

“Well I’m not sure if you want to listen to an atheistic”.

God told me that this man just needed to be listened to, so as I listened I felt my heart breaking. I felt his pain and it climaxed at night. I started praying in the garden, I felt like Jesus in the last hour. I wasn’t bleeding but I was actually on my period so I was bleeding in some way Lol.

Will you pray with me?? For every soul I talk to?

Here’s a short 3 minute prayer video-
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Thank you to all those who have sown into the lives and souls of hundreds and thousands people on the road.

God continues to break my heart for the lost and the wounded.

Today I didn’t know where I was going but I kept hearing God say- go to Nelson. I met a Christian woman on the bus and then ended up sitting next to a man who had been badly hurt by other Christians. I said- this is why God sent me on this bus.

I told him that God was not about right or wrong, but He is about love.

When will the church stop judging and start loving as Jesus did? When will we stop with the legalism and law and understand grace is complete and not lacking?

You can’t love with your head. You must allow your heart to love, be broken. Theological debates are useless. People believe with their hearts, not head.

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In my twenties I was still caught up with trying to please others. I didn’t know it, but I wanted my mom’s approval. I wanted her to be proud of me. I wanted her to be able to boast about me.

But 9 months into my full time job at the age of 23 I knew my life wouldn’t be like any other.

I guess age doesn’t really matter.

It’s more about knowing who you are in Christ Jesus. I’m glad I started to learn this early in life.

I feel more content, more happy than I’ve ever felt in my life. Sure, the devil still comes to discourage me and tell me “look at you, you’re struggling to pay for a hostel and your friends are married and have a house”.

I actually battled these thoughts last week.

As a shepherd to the lost sheep, a prophet being sent by God, I don’t always have much materially. In those times I start envying those that are at home. I imagine them sitting in front of their tv, munching on snacks.

But I know it’s the devil trying to get me to stop reaching souls.

Then there are times like this, sitting on a bus I booked this morning (a donation just came in) and I didn’t know where I was going until I asked a girl where she was going and she replied picton.

“That’s where you need to go”.

Yesterday without knowing where I was going to stay at night the Lord told me to go into the city.

I knocked on someone’s window and asked for a ride. I prayed for him.

Later, I’m standing on the street and I see Wendy’s. I decide to go in and I start to talk to a young man from Minnesota. I prayed for him and told him testimonies after testimonies.

It turned out he grew up Lutheran but never thought of God in a personal way.

He told me he had stayed at yha hostel and I felt I was supposed to go there. There, I met a writer. I got to pray for her. She told me she left the church 3 years ago. I said, someone hurt you didn’t they?

She said she lost two babies in a miscarriage and then her husband left her. She was writing a book on intercultural relationships and another on happiness.

She encouraged me to write my book.

I told her how I had a dream that I had a pencil in my stomach and someone pulled it out. Maybe it was her who was supposed to pull it out.

On March 9 I had a dream I was pregnant with two babies and the babies were due October 11. I felt this was significant for me but maybe many others out there.

Don’t be afraid to step out and do what God has put in your heart to do.

It’s time to birth what God has given you to birth.

The difference between me in my twenties and thirties is that I’m not afraid of what people think about me anymore.

I don’t need to prove myself.

Sure there are times I get insecure or I have fears but I rebuke them. They’re lies from the devil – they’re not part of me.

I am righteous in Christ Jesus. I am enough in Him. I am not lacking.

I endured living with my mother for two years while she accused me about not having a stable job. At that time the Lord told me not to work and to rest. He was training me and preparing me for this work that I now do. It was not easy and I often felt bad about myself but God would say “you are enough, you are not lacking”.

He was preparing me for the numerous accusations that the enemy would try to bring against me on the road- some from himself, some from non Christians, some from religious spirited Christians, you name it.

I needed to hear God clearly and obey His path no matter what others said.

I’m walking true North, with Jesus. His path is true north. No matter what others say, listen to Him. He will never leave nor forsake you.

When you know who you are in Christ Jesus you won’t be moved by what you think you need to be more, you are enough.

You won’t be moved when someone says “why aren’t you married yet, you’re too picky”.

You won’t be moved when others say “you should or shouldn’t do this”.

You won’t be moved when you see others living their true north.

You’ll be stable, only listening to the One who created you, knowing you are a child of God!

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With love, Rebekka

Writing on the bus in New Zealand

This is a prophetic word.

I woke up from a dream where I was telling someone that my mom gives to my brother whatever he wants but nothing for me. I come home and throw all the piano books to the ground. My mom says what is wrong? I tell her and say “I’m starving!”

I run out and find the guy I liked (this is in the same neighborhood and the same guy from my dream yesterday) and tell him what happened.

Later I’m at a table and my mom shows me a picture of her with a guy. I can tell she has compromised herself, she has lowered her standards to be with him.

In the dream I start crying because I feel for her but for every woman who has given up who she is to be with someone.

I suddenly don’t feel mad at her.

When I woke up I heard God say “most people are not living at the level of intimacy that I desire for them”.

There is a level of intimacy God longs for us and He is currently doing a deep healing and work in our hearts. He said that most people do not say what’s really are their minds and they hold back because of fear.

Yesterday there was noise next door and I told the receptionist. When I came back my roommates said “that’s what you were doing? Why didn’t you just tell them directly?” I said because I’ve been through this enough to know most people get really mad and offended and I don’t need to deal with it, which is true in this case.

She said “well I can deal with any noise”. Well I can’t. And I have to confront these issues head on. I have to speak up for my sake, and I shouldn’t be made to feel guilty for it.

How many times do we drown out how we really feel by ignoring it? We don’t tell others how we really feel because we fear rejection or we fear drama?

We silence ourselves or isolate ourselves instead of facing the rejection that we may face for being authentic.

In that moment of standing up for what I wanted, I realized I was different from the girls. And that when we live our truths we need to face being outcasted by others.

What is something you’ve been wanting to say to someone but have been fearing their reactions? God wants us to live in truth and by being vulnerable we will grow in our relationships.

What is something you’ve been holding back from God?

Anger? Bitterness? God can take it all. He will listen. He’s not just there when you’re happy but when you’re at your worse. We often present the best version of ourselves to others but true intimacy is about showing the most vulnerable part of yourself at all times.

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Remember when you used to write love stories?

Yes. And you drew comic books?

Yes.

It’s been awhile.

I had a dream about a guy I used to like. I thought this guy liked me too but one day he told me he started dating a girl and I was heart broken. I thought I didn’t understand betrayal but I totally forgot about this long forgotten memory.

How many of you have become a very logical being because Lord forbid if you felt anything you might be heart broken?

How many of you have shut down your heart to protect it?

But then you actually blocked out everything good as well?

Let’s talk romance.

I think we all want a wildly romantic life. Not just with a partner but one of wild adventures, surprises and miracles. Most of us actually love good surprises but we’ve become control freaks because life didn’t always bring us good surprises…In fact a lot of negative surprises came our way.

That’s why I often found myself wildly surprised on this trip- sometimes in ways I felt really out of control. I tried to do anything to stay control.

Take right now as an example. I know where God wants me to go next, so I tried to raise the funds to buy the plane ticket but it didn’t come together.

So I’m like okay God I think you want me to slow down and just trust you.

Take today as an example. I really want to see sheep but went the wrong direction on a bus. I ended up in a residential area and had to knock at a corporate door for directions.

It reminded me of 3 years ago when I went to Bali and wanted to scooter my way around like Eat, Pray, Love but ended up getting into an accident and had to lie in bed for 2 weeks.

My friend told me “you we’re just living in freedom. God is now ordering your steps”.

It’s okay to try to get ahead, but God will order your steps. Since you might be as hard headed as I am, you May encounter a closed door…

God is asking me to slow down. He is wanting us to spend time with Him and rebuild our hearts and strength for what is to come.

Greater strength, greater anointing, greater harvest.

God wants to surprise us. Even when we think we’ve got God figured out. Even as a prophet, we are to be like little children.

He doesn’t want us to know everything. He wants us to trust Him completely.

That’s a romantic life.

Imagine going on a date and constantly asking your date- what’s next? What’s next time? When?

That would be an awful date. He wants us to be enraptured by His love and to be fully indulged in His adventure. He wants us to enjoy His company.

So what about taking His hand? And letting go of control?

I’m listening to Korean love music as I write this. I love romance. I love been enraptured in the moment.

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Before I went overseas I had many dreams about wearing a wedding dress getting ready on an airplane.

The wedding dress was symbolic of trust, marrying Jesus, trusting Him, giving my whole life to Him.

And yet I still have trouble trusting Him at times. Like times when He tells me where to go next to minister to the people He needs me to reach. I don’t see the finances for the plane ticket; it slowly comes together but very slowly. Like I have two days left to pull the finances together. If He even wants me there then.

I woke up thinking “I give up. It’s like pulling a dead cow. I tried my best. I give up and surrender. Not by my flesh or effort but by your spirit”.

It was much easier to work for money but now that I trust God for it to do the work He has called me to, sometimes and most of the time it’s a matter of letting go.

I let go.

You won’t abandon me. Why me though? Why of all people did you call me?

Because you choose to trust me even when it’s scary. You choose to face the fears and go through the pain even when you don’t see a way.

That is why you are a pioneer because no one else will do it.

Why won’t anyone else do it?

They don’t trust me.

They don’t believe that I am good.

That is why many have yet to step into what I have called them to. They will rather cling unto a job or a man, something they can see.

You can’t always see me, yet you can hear me.

I can hear you but my heart still battles to trust you.

And that is okay. I know you are fragile, human, imperfect but I only see Jesus in you. Perfect; unblemished; not lacking; abundant. That is all I see.

He paid the price.

I am asking you to see Jesus in you. That is the only truth.

This journey is about intimacy. Not everyone wears a wedding ring with my name on it. Some are unwilling to trust me, I’m waiting patiently and will continue waiting for them.

Woman of God will you trust me? Will you trust me when you don’t see it yet? Will you listen to my still voice? Will you put a ring with my name on it?

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Hi friends! I am currently fundraising for my stay at Christchurch. You all have seen the work is being done and your contribution impacts people for eternity. Your giving will also be returned 100 fold in Jesus name! Any amount helps- $20, 50, 100, 500, 1000.
May you give as the spirit leads! Thank you in advance. Thousands of lives are being touched for eternity!

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I just arrived in Christchurch and a God sent angel gave me a ride to a hostel he found online and I felt peace about it! I got to pray over them!

God I need you more than ever. I’ve seen you work before yet every time I go to a new place I ask you “will you lead the way? Will I have a place to sleep?” I’m looking for your lost sheep, I’m looking for your sheep. I’m relying solely on you, for your provision. I’ve seen miracles. At a moments notice, you sent me to peoples’ homes and yet again I leave and I feel like I have to start over and yet again I have to be brave and courageous and have the question mark of “when, how?”

How will you provide this time? 

How will you lead me this time? 

I often arrive late at night in a new city not knowing where you are leading me, but I follow. 

I follow with my carry on and a duffel bag, a stranger in a foreign city. Everything feels foreign, I don’t feel excited, I feel apprehensive. 

I feel scared at times. Will you take care of me again? Will you do it again? 

Then divine encounters after divine encounters, I see healings and miracles, both physical, emotional and spiritual.

I am the messenger and carrier of your miracle. How could it be? 

I see people cry and laugh with wonder, faces transformed, body healed, heart open. 

How it could be? 

I asked how will you provide, how could it be? 

You’ve done it again and again, country to country, you never fail me. 

I’m your chosen prophet; a pastor to lost sheep, I hold and embrace the lost sheep and welcome them back. I tell them “you’re not under condemnation, you are perfect in God’s eyes”.

I pray with the lost and they hear Jesus’ voice. You long for your children and all to come to you. Your ways are gentle, never forceful. 

You chose me but sometimes the calling and purpose seems too big for me. I am just human but with you in me. 

The resurrected Christ in me. You speak through me, healing the broken hearted and mending old wounds. 

You correct peoples’ views of you through me. You say “I am a loving father, not a mean one”. 

God you will not leave me stranded, the servant and messenger. Through me the world have already seen- you are too real, only by God’s grace you’ve carried me this far. 

I tell tales too miraculous to believe. They listen in awe, but they don’t know the sacrifices too big to explain. This is the longest I’ve been away from my mom. Midway a family member got sick. I keep going, praying for them. 

I keep going because there are souls and lives at stake. Most people live comfortable lives seeking their own lives but I’ve been carrying my cross and following Him. I’m working for a kingdom most can’t see. 

They’ll say “sure I’ll follow Jesus but only as much as this” and they’ll point to the end of their couch or the end of their house or the end and premise of their city. 

I’m a layed down lover. I do it because His love broke through the deepest part of my heart and I’ve allowed Him to break my own strength. 

I can do nothing in my own strength. I boast in Christ alone. If He doesn’t move, I am literally in trouble. I’d been stuck in a country or sleeping on the streets or homeless with no food to eat. 

Yet, he has provided all that I need according to his riches in glory. Sometimes my needs are met by the people I am ministering to. 

But He is a good father and he will never leave nor forsake you. 

I am almost 8 months overseas and I’ve never missed one meal or had to sleep on the street once even if I had to sleep late looking for a place as the Lord directed.

I’ve seen the Lord speak to Muslims, the Lord speak in Vietnamese, the Lord heal wounded backs, I’ve seen people open their eyes to God through prophetic words, I’ve had hundreds and even thousands of divine encounters. 

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. I am currently fundraising for what is ahead. Going to Christchurch, New Zealand today. Thank you in advance for obeying God – May the Lord bless you abundantly! 

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please pray for:

1. Safety, protection by angels

2. Provision, finances

3. God to prepare the hearts of those I minister to

4. The city of christchurch