I’ve been overseas for 9 months, currently I’m in my 13th country.

I met three young people during dinner and one is from LA but he is moving to New Zealand to be with his future wife who he met on Instagram. True modern day romance. I invited myself over to their table and prayed for them at the end.

I’m thinking to myself- where is home?

I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.”” -psalm 91:1-2

“For this world is not our permanent home; we are looking forward to a home yet to come.” Hebrews 13:14

“By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.” Hebrews 11:8-10

Traveling can be exciting but it can be scary too. There are many unknowns and I find myself being led to places that seem skeptical, I find myself talking to strangers I’ll never see again.

Sometimes I meet people I don’t want to say goodbye to and sometimes I’m annoyed by the loud conversations outside.

For dinner I met a woman from Beijing. She hired Fijians to work for her business. Then I meet Taiwanese business men.

Disorientating yes. Tents? Yes I’ve made a makeshift one with an extra bedsheet tied to the post of my bunk bed….for some resemblance of a private bed. It’s a 4 bed dormitory.

I was in the sun for 4 hours. It was a beautiful hotel, I used the pool and met a Punjabi woman who teaches art in Auckland. I gave her a word that she would travel the world and teach art.

I ate a bunch of fruits and found myself with an upset stomach. I’m trying to find familiarity but nothing is familiar and all I can find home is in God.

God is my home.

Not a place or a city, not a person though it may be nice to be with people you like.

Not my earthly family because we don’t talk much.

God is my home and when I feel alone I remember He is with me and I don’t need to fear.

This guy tried to talk to me after dinner but I felt tired. I had been talking to people all day. I realize people seek a romantic partner for that feeling of home too. That maybe someone will understand you as much as God does.

But at the end of the day, only God understands you completely.

Will you let Him in?

It can be exhausting being on the road. The amount of variety and different things that happen in your life is overwhelming but it’s holding onto Jesus’ hand that makes you realize, you’re home wherever you are. You can relax, you’re home with Him.

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You’re always at the right place at the right time.

Now if you’re not following the spirit, then God will send someone to get you unstuck. Someone like me to give you a word. God may speak to you through a poster or a song. He will do anything to get through to you.

A sheep does not need to find their shepherd, they stay put and the shepherd finds them.

A lot of people ask me what my plans are, tomorrow, the next week.

Sometimes I know because God tells me in advance, but sometimes I don’t know. I booked a flight 2 days before I flew. I went into New Zealand without a return ticket. However, legally you need to show something if they ask. They didn’t ask me. Well they did ask me on the check in computer.

Somethings are not black and white, God’s purposes are above men’s rules and plans.

When you walk with God so closely you learn to trust Him even when you don’t know anything about tomorrow.

You don’t need to stress out scheduling appointments because as you listen to His voice and heart you will go where the “divine appointments” are.

Some people call it following your heart.

God gives us intuition, our heart to guide us.

Some people are frustrated because they’re not following their heart. They are unhappy at their job so God sends reminders to tell them to quit. But fear stops them.

Some people are stuck in unhealthy relationships, but fear keeps people in it.

When you live in God’s divine flow, you don’t feel the need to control everything. There are times when I feel like I need to be in control, it’s because I’m holding onto fear!

Yesterday I felt compelled to change rooms as the room I was in was very bright and loud. At first I thought I should just deal with it but I was frustrated.

Then God said- you need to move. I ran in the rain to get to the receptionist, I ended up meeting the manager and housekeeper that were both Christian and I got to prophesy over them.

Later that night I ended up giving a word to a man who was very stressed out in my room. I said I know you don’t believe in Jesus yet but you can always cry out to him. I saw a vision of him carrying more and more rocks on his back. I said God’s burden is light, cast your cares on Him.

God had me there for him.

Then another man had itchy eyes and I prayed for him.

The Lord told me to go to the Korean restaurant. I ended up bumping into a Chinese man I met on the bus that morning. I joined their table and ended up prophesying over all of them.

I love meeting people who don’t know Jesus.

Jesus is so good, I can rely and trust in Him. I might not know what tomorrow holds but I don’t need to.

Adam and Eve thought they needed to know, but they only needed to stay in relationship with God and trust Him to guide them. The way God leads may be outside of your comfort zone but it’s always a fun and adventurous story! And you’ll never be bored. When you’re bored that’s when you know you need to get out of that situation, that you may be stifling what the spirit is doing.

They didn’t need to know anything outside of their relationship with God.

That is why God has been exposing astrology and witchcraft in the body of Christ. We don’t need to control or manipulate our lives- God has a plan for you! And it is perfect! Follow your heart and the spirit.

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This morning I ran to the beach and was utterly disappointed.

Unlike Hawaii, the beach at Nadi was brown colored, not like the sparkling blue they advertise on their ads.

I can’t seem to control anything.

Fiji reminds me of Mexico. To be honest it’s a bit 3rd world. This is just me being honest. The sweltering heat, the humidity, the mosquitoes.

Okay yes God I get it I have assignments here but I’m frustrated it. Last night I found myself praying for 2 Chinese students and 2 Indian brothers but now I’m in a dorm room surrounded by light. I’m light sensitive and sound sensitive.

I’m the worse suited missionary and yet God called me.

I hate sharing rooms to be honest, I like it pitch black.

I hate it when people talk while I’m trying to sleep. I hate crossing streets when there’s no light, The cars zoom by without slowing down.

I want to cry because I’m out of my comfort zone and I want to enjoy the process and the journey but all I know is I’m being stretched.

And stretching hurts.

I met a girl on the bus who told me she got charged $300 for an avocado she forgot in her bag. Remember to get rid of fruits while going into any country.

I said God will provide, don’t worry.

The truth is none of us are in control.

Then this afternoon the Lord told me “move upstairs”. I ran in the rain to the reception which was located next door.

At first they said no. I went back and thought let me try again. Again I ran in the pouring rain and this time the manager came and called the housekeeper. A girl who I met on the street made it happen. She came and turned out both the manager and housekeeper were Christian. I said “the Lord’s purpose is made manifest through those who recognize Christ in me”.

I prayed for the girl and said I saw you in an office building. She said she has a dream to go back to school and try another career.

I said you will do it!! Step out in faith!

I know God has assignments in this room for me and I had to move.

It’s inconvenient for others but God’s ways are strange. There’s a Chinese man in my room. I know I’m here for a reason and God will always make a way where there seems to be no way. You just have to be persistent!

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It’s a baby in the sky!

With the favor comes the jealousy.

Joseph was favored, he had a dream but his brothers were jealous and threw him in a pit.

You can’t be in my circle if you don’t have the all in mentality. God called me to sell everything and follow Him, through the tears I did it. People don’t know how hard it was. He told me to break up with my ex, I did it. He told me to forget my best friends who betrayed me, I moved on.

He told me to quit my career, I did it. My family talked ill of me for years and still do. They don’t understand my calling.

Because nothing else mattered, only Jesus. Nothing could suffice. My heart was coming alive. I tried to find identity in everything else but in Christ alone my hope is found!

Now that people are seeing the favor and anointing on me, they’re getting jealous. They think I haven’t suffered?

I’ve suffered alright.

I’ve been through the fire 🔥. I gave every penny to Jesus when my rent was due. He asked me whose house I was building, His or mine?

I cried. Jesus.

I’ve been through the furnace. New Zealand was hard. I had many moments of the pit. Walking around with a few dollars wondering what I’m going to eat or where I’m going to sleep. The furnace was hot. I ended up scrubbing toilets for 4 days wondering what God was up to. Instead of sharing God’s love with people, I was sharing toilet germs. Sure, I was still doing kingdom work but never thought housekeeping was on the menu.

God soon brought me out of that so I could do the real work. I prayed and reached out to stranger when I felt like I needed more help than them.

But I had so many prison moments in New Zealand. Being accused and having the police show up. Asking strangers to donate and being judged by religious folks. The things God ask me to do scares the shit out of me sometimes.

People want to experience the anointing but they’re not willing to obey the smallest things in their own lives.

I tell people to move on, they won’t move on. I tell them it’s time to quit their jobs or to let go of a guy, they won’t.

Then they come complaining to me.

I said “I already told you”.

It hurts more now because you didn’t obey when God told you to break it off.

I already said so.

It doesn’t mean I’m cold hearted, it means please trust God at His word and stop being lukewarm with your love for God.

It wasn’t easy for me either!

But I’d rather cry at the difficulty of obedience than the difficulty of relying on my flesh. I’d rather cry now than later.

You want to experience true freedom?

Be all in! Say yes when God calls.

Don’t be afraid. Say yes!

His call will break you and then you will become a warrior you’ve never encounter. Powerful by the Holy Spirit!

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He drowns our his pain and guilt with a bottle of beer

It’s a simple way of running away and living in a cycle of pain

Whether it’s my dad or the new neighbor

I’ve seen it all

Men who cannot express their pain, silenced by society and societal expectations.

That is, their hearts are hardened and the only way is God.

I wrote a letter to my dad once “I’ve forgiven you, I hope you can forgive yourself now knowing Jesus forgave you by the cross”.

He has paid for your punishment. He was punished on the cross for our iniquities. The winds of change has come on April 22. I will be leaving New Zealand today. A Sri Lankan neighbor will be dropping me off at the bus station and I will be moving on.

Yesterday the Lord told me “the extra food is for her, she will come”. I see Lord. She did come, a Maori woman.

She had been fighting sicknesses, sinuses, coughing, headaches, cramps. I asked “do you feel shame and guilt?”

Yes she said. She said she asks God to forgive her. I said “if you’ve accepted Jesus into your heart He doesn’t see blemish anymore, He only sees Jesus In you”.

The concept of grace is hard to comprehend but it’s whole and not lacking.

I went from not caring about my dad to forgiving him. So many of my family are bound by the past but I’ve learned to let go.

The whole world is looking for a God who frees them and I’ve met Him- Jesus.

Instead of blaming those around you I want you to say “I no longer blame those around me and I now forgive them. I no longer need to be tied to their toxicity and issues and I now release them to God. I can move on with my life”.

Sometimes the best way to help someone is to release them to God.

You can’t help someone if they’re not willing to change. Change is a choice and God certainly is a gentleman. He won’t force change on anyone. He will ask and He will guide us and if we say yes- the transformation that can occur is astounding.

I went from an impatient, bitter and angry girl surrounded by pain to a woman who can love the most bitter people. That doesn’t mean I compromise my standards and allow myself to be stepped on.

No I listen and succinctly cut to the heart, speaking the words of God into their situation.

Since God gives me wisdom and insight into what’s really going on in their hearts, it’s not my job to be an emotional dumpster- no. I can tell immediately what is really going on.

My job is to pin point exactly what lie needs to be cast out and what truth needs to be spoken over them.

We live out our beliefs and if we don’t realize God’s grace is complete we will continue living in a cycle of self condemnation and guilt.

God’s completely forgiven you, now forgive yourself.

I met a man this week who has a daughter in another country. She is half kiwi and half German. He hasn’t seen her in 6 years. I told her my story of not seeing my dad for 10 years. I said “it’s time to move on”. He had a wall of her photos.

Another day i said “I heard the Lord say you are moving to Germany”. He said “that’s actually the plan, I’d like to see my little girl”.

Stories that are related to mine causes my heart to swell. Oh God your mercies. How broken people are and how much we need healing on this earth. It’s 1:45am and the winds outside is loud and powerful.

I don’t want to be stuck in a cycle of pain anymore, I want to live my life free of my family’s past. I want to move forward just as I’ve told this man to move forward. Though he may not know Jesus yet, I’ve planted a seed.

You deserve happiness.

You deserve a happy life apart from your family’s pain.

Are you ready to fly???

It’s your season! Don’t be scared God is with you! Time to let go of everything that is weighing you down and go after what God has told you!

What if the only thing that is stopping you is your own fear??

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Last night as I was walking to the bathroom I saw a woman crying. I asked to pray for her and then ended up going to dinner with her and her daughter.

As she was sharing her life with me, I sensed a lot of fear, anxiety and control. I told her several visions.

I said “I see you in a boat and there is a hole in the boat but you are trying to patch the hole with anything, even your own clothes. However, I see Jesus reaching His hand to you. He is walking on water. He is above it all. You need to reach out to Him, not try to fix everything”.

If you connect with God laterally, everything horizontally will be worked out.

Some us us are trying to control our lives. We control every penny we spend, we save, we live in fear. We depend on our money for stability and security. We say we are building a nest and a legacy for our children but it’s idolatry.

Control is a demonic stronghold based in fear.

As I continued talking to the woman, I had another vision.

I said “I see a new season, a new door of light. You are on the escalator, it’s automatically going up via grace of God but you are tiring yourself out running in the same place on the same step even though it’s already moving”.

The crazy thing is she found out about this hostel “accidentally” at 8-9 am that morning while the Lord told me to stay at this hostel at 9am.

Divine timing.

I was the prophetic solution. I carried the word for her. I was the messenger.

The problem is usually not the problem, everything is spiritual and the solution is always to surrender to God.

God does not ask us to fend for ourselves or to figure out the solution.

I know there are times I try to figure out how I will eat, where I will sleep, how and when the funds will come in for the next country or even next day but God asks me to trust completely in Him and not in the funds.

So what do you depend on more than God?

That becomes an idol.

You cannot be spirit led if you are fear driven. If you are fear driven you control aspects of your life to feel in control, thinking it’s safety.

But that’s idolatry and that keeps you in bondage. It’s a demonic stronghold.

After my meeting with her, I had a dream that my mom and other relatives had set up shop and were trying to sell stuff.

Everything was neat and tidy. I was so angry. I got a baseball bat and flung everything, destroying the things that represented fear and bondage.

Then I started dancing on the table that the items were set up on.

The Holy Spirit represents freedom. It is freedom. God is freedom. Jesus came to fulfill the rules, not to give us rules.

I shared with the woman that Jesus finished the work on the cross and she shouldn’t be striving for perfection because in God’s eyes He only sees Jesus in her. She needs to rest in the finished work. God doesn’t even see imperfection anymore at the point of receiving Jesus.

He only sees wholeness.

The other day when a new friend sowed a seed, she said “you earned it” since she felt so much better after I prayed for her.

That always bothered me. I realized it’s because I didn’t earn it. I deserve it because Jesus died on the cross for me to have it. Healing costs so much more than $20, $30, $500, $10,000, a million.

Healing came from Jesus sacrifice. He took the punishment on the cross.

I didn’t earn it. Jesus paid for it. He paid for her healing and He paid for this ministry. So if anyone ever sows they are simply sowing what God gave them.

And God called me to ask her not simply because He is providing for me but because He wanted to break off the spirit and fear of lack off of her. That’s what giving does.

I am not in need. I am empowered by the Holy Spirit and fearless. I’m not in fear of lack anymore because I’ve had nothing on the road at times and yet God came through. So when I ask people to give it’s not for me, it’s for them.

God wants us to live in freedom. He wants us to live free of fear from judgement, rejection, lack and death. He wants us to rely on Him more than we rely on our sense of control over our career, what’s next, relationships, friendships, finances.

Will you surrender control?

Will you be a child and let God take your hand?

When we try to control our lives we are operating as our own god.

When we walk with God, we put Him where He needs to be, a father, our husband.

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The spirit of rejection stems from a spirit of lack and says to you that you are unworthy of love or honor.

I battled a spirit of rejection most of my life. From the moment I was in my mom’s womb she spoke words over me, regret, hatred, bitterness. At that time my dad was cheating on my mom. You can imagine how angry she was.

I felt that. When I was young I had really bad temper. I exploded and yelled and felt everyone was attacking me and they often were.

When I received Jesus into my life my temperament changed completely but I still felt rejected at times.

I think because I was different. I always stood out. I had interesting fashion in high school. In fact my mom made most of my clothes. I was born in Germany, then moved to Taiwan, then America. I am a third culture kid and never felt like I fit in anywhere.

I got voted most unique in high school. Recently I watched a movie called Wonder Land. There is a part Peanut hides in a house and counts and organizes candies based on color. It gave him a sense of control.

Some of us become workaholics and refuse to have a social life because it gives us control and no one can reject us when we have no relationships.

God has challenged me to put myself out there. Whether it’s talking to strangers, asking to pray for them or asking for donations as I fundraise for this trip I’m on….I’m susceptible to rejection.

And the crazy thing is God wants me to ask until someone says yes, or says no. He wants me to experience both yes and no’s.

I realize God has purposed me to reach the outcasted and they often have a spirit of rejection on them. This results in passive aggressive behavior- not saying what’s on their mind but saying it in a subtle manner because they fear rejection.

God has challenged me to ask people who are afraid to help – to break off the fear of lack and feelings of helplessness.

Yesterday when a guy offered to make a donation I was really shocked, no one has offered this directly without fear. His heart was open. He didn’t hesitate. He didn’t fear that he would go without. He wrote “for your purpose”.

The couple I ministered to affirmed me so much I felt awkward.

It’s been too long since I got such direct affirmation.

I’m so used to rejection that a moment of praise had me feeling guilty.

Should I accept the compliments or shift the praise to God?

I had a dream this night that the Lord set me free from false humility. He showed me that I often undermined my light so my light wouldn’t highlight peoples’ insecurities because I often find that people are shocked and intimidated by my gift of seeing and prophesying.

Instead of seeing it as a gift, they find it creepy or unreal. They see me as a weirdo.

But I sensed that God is resurrecting our hearts this Easter.

We will no longer revert to expecting rejection. We will expect others’ open hearts, we will expect others to say yes and celebrate us. We will no longer hide in our dark cave but create communities that are safe for each other. We will step out into the light and find freedom and safety in God and in each others’ arms.

I want to thank those who have embraced my gift, who I am on this journey. Whether you’ve been reading my blog or have met me in person. I honor you. I honor who you are and who God has created you to be.

As I’m writing this, I’m crying at a cafe.

For so long, I felt misunderstood and persecuted for who God has made me but I’m seeing the tide turn around.

God is honoring you.

He is bringing you to prominence.

You will rise from the ashes and you will no longer weep.

You will no longer hide your shine to accommodate for peoples’ darkness and shade.

You’ll shine brighter and brighter because the world needs you.

Shame and guilt be broken off.

Value and worth is you.

You are worthy dear. My beloved son and daughter. You’ve gone through enough. Come hold my hand now. Come out of the cave.

By the sometimes we think people will only help us if we help them but that’s not the truth. There are people like me who have purely blessed someone with healing and prophetic words because the Lord asked me to, basically most of the people I’ve ministered to.

Sometimes we are scared to take risks because we fear rejection but I want to encourage you to step out in whatever areas God has called you to step out in!

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“I will never leave nor forsake you. You don’t have to figure anything out”

I know I’m trying to make things work when I keep asking Holy Spirit; should I stay here or here? Should I go there now?

The last 7 days the Lord has led me like a whirlwind to 7 different places. His instructions were specific and direct. I met tons of people that I ministered to and prayed for.

I realize as a prophetic person I can get into a rut of trying to see or ask God what’s next but He’s like relax.

This happened tonight.

Crazy testimony.

I felt led to eat at a restaurant and was sitting there watching Korean drama.

I was probably there for almost 2 hours. All of a sudden I noticed everyone had left but a couple.

I saw the guy wearing a shirt and God was speaking loud to me through it so I asked to take a photo of it. I found out we were all from LA and I asked to pray for them. The prophesies were so accurate they were blown away. I told them my testimony and the guy asked me if I had Venmo and said he wanted to pay for my dinner.

I was just wondering how God would continue to provide but this time I didn’t even have to ask. He said I had a gift and he wanted to support my purpose.

As we were walking out we noticed we actually stayed at the same place.

Because of the prophetic prayers people who would never go into a church are blown away by how I would know something without them telling me.

Today’s event reminded me that God knows what He is doing and I must continue to spend without fear knowing that God will continue to provide as I follow Him in faith.

Yesterday with the help of 10 people sitting around the lobby of the hostel (whom I also prayed for) I was able to stay at the hostel I booked at. Later I checked and the hostel actually already charged me but that happened I believe so that I can pray for the people. #god works in strange ways!

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I am moving on tomorrow and just going where the spirit leads. I’m currently in Auckland, New Zealand.

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Here’s a testimony from today-

At around 12 the Lord told me to go to Panmure. I went to the bus stop and when the bus arrived I was the first one on. The lord said to pray for him. Well I asked if he was from India and he said yes. I said I was a missionary and he said “please pray for my mom. She’s paralyzed, has a blood clot in her brain for 3 years, had arthritis for 40 years”.

He said Panmure was actually his last stop and he was getting off work.

I thought God definitely planned this.

He got off work and we walked off the bus. There I prayed healing over his mother. I asked him if he believed in Jesus and he said he believes in God and he believes in prayer. I said Jesus died on the cross for all sicknesses and all sins.

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