This morning I ran to the beach and was utterly disappointed.

Unlike Hawaii, the beach at Nadi was brown colored, not like the sparkling blue they advertise on their ads.

I can’t seem to control anything.

Fiji reminds me of Mexico. To be honest it’s a bit 3rd world. This is just me being honest. The sweltering heat, the humidity, the mosquitoes.

Okay yes God I get it I have assignments here but I’m frustrated it. Last night I found myself praying for 2 Chinese students and 2 Indian brothers but now I’m in a dorm room surrounded by light. I’m light sensitive and sound sensitive.

I’m the worse suited missionary and yet God called me.

I hate sharing rooms to be honest, I like it pitch black.

I hate it when people talk while I’m trying to sleep. I hate crossing streets when there’s no light, The cars zoom by without slowing down.

I want to cry because I’m out of my comfort zone and I want to enjoy the process and the journey but all I know is I’m being stretched.

And stretching hurts.

I met a girl on the bus who told me she got charged $300 for an avocado she forgot in her bag. Remember to get rid of fruits while going into any country.

I said God will provide, don’t worry.

The truth is none of us are in control.

Then this afternoon the Lord told me “move upstairs”. I ran in the rain to the reception which was located next door.

At first they said no. I went back and thought let me try again. Again I ran in the pouring rain and this time the manager came and called the housekeeper. A girl who I met on the street made it happen. She came and turned out both the manager and housekeeper were Christian. I said “the Lord’s purpose is made manifest through those who recognize Christ in me”.

I prayed for the girl and said I saw you in an office building. She said she has a dream to go back to school and try another career.

I said you will do it!! Step out in faith!

I know God has assignments in this room for me and I had to move.

It’s inconvenient for others but God’s ways are strange. There’s a Chinese man in my room. I know I’m here for a reason and God will always make a way where there seems to be no way. You just have to be persistent!