As much as I wanted to go back to sleep, my brain started running and I realize I needed to write down what I was hearing from the Lord.

This year I need your help to partner with me and see more of God’s purposes come to life: My goal is to raise $2020 a month, for now to cover (God willing) a place for me to move into (God willing to create a house church) and when God allows, a car. Please be in prayer for me.

The vision for 2020-

1. To make disciples and bring the knowledge Jesus to those who don’t know Him.
2. To set believers free from shame, condemnation and fear and train “freedom fighters” to set others free. To train people in hearing God and following His heart.
3. To expand my reach via social media, blog, podcast and youtube and preach the message of GRACE AND FREEDOM
4. To create a community of believers, bring together the misfits and believers who are spirit filled or have been rejected by traditional churches
5. To be a light in the entertainment industry and whatever God calls me into

Yesterday I asked a lady on instagram for donations as the Lord had instructed me to do, but she claimed that if God wanted her to give, the holy spirit would have moved her. In addition, God would have told me that she didn’t have money.

I immediately sensed a religious spirit. 

In fact, I know fear is a stronghold in many believers. When I first started fundraising I was afraid what people would think of me. Would they believe that I was actually a prophet? Would they think I was lying? Would they judge me?

This is a “fear of men”- meaning it’s a fear of what people would think and God wants to break that off believers. 

Another misconception from the religious mindset is that “if you trust God” you will not ask people to give. 

You are robbing people of the right and privilege of giving. God multiplies every seed that you give. Do you think the enemy doesn’t know that? That is why he plants seeds of doubt and lies in peoples’ mind to make them think that it is shameful for a prophet, leader, pastor to ask for money. The enemy wants you to think that preachers of the word just want your money. 

When you think you don’t have any money you will not give, but God’s kingdom stems from seeds.

The misconception is that if you’re doing something altruistic, you should do it without asking for anything in return. 

Again, that is a religious mindset.

You give seeds of finances to break YOURSELF free from bondages of fear (the fear of lack and feeling of not being enough).

It is a spirit of mammon that most people are in bondage to- not a spirit of sonship.

People define their worth by how much they have, not who they are. 

You are a son and daughter of God, not someone defined by what you have.

That is why in order to break off the spirit of lack and mammon I had in my life God told me to sell everything to follow Him. So I gave everything I had away. Because I was defining my life by what I had, not WHO I was or who GOD was for me (the father and the provider). 

Why does God tell me to ask people for donations instead of God inspiring people to give? Yes, sometimes He does. He inspires people to give.

But often times, He tells me to ask.

Why?

1. Because there is no fear in love.
2. Ask and you shall receive.
3. Breakthrough comes from perseverance and not living in fear.
4. Because He is training people to communicate

The disciples in the bible didn’t live in their head. They asked their family to financially support them in preaching the message of grace. They didn’t sit there and say “I’m trusting God”, they acted upon what God spoke to them. Elijah asked a widow for food, Esther spoke up to the King, Paul asked believers to give.

God does not give us a spirit of FEAR. So yes, I might be misunderstood by some but I will still do what God tells me. GOD GAVE US A MOUTH TO SPEAK. The reason a lot of ministers don’t ask for help is because of the fear of men and low self worth (which is also a spirit of lack).

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Prayer and prophetic words for protection over accusations and attacks of the enemy

I heard God say ask people to sow in 5 (grace)If you’re able to sow $5, $50, $500 and so forth or any numbers of 5 to support this ministry or 2, (for double portion) $20, $22, $220, $200, $2000.

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If the Spirit leads me to prophesy I will email you back with a word. But remember I’m like Jeremiah the prophet, I deal with the hardest things and it’s not always what people want to hear.

You can of course write any prayer requests on the comment section when you send a donation. I would be happy to connect with those who receive me as a prophet and want to be blessed by being connected to me. You become family to me, not just a random donor. This means I cover you in prayer and if God beings you to mind, I’ll always deliver that word to you.

Some people are really offended and get angry when I tell them what I hear. My job is to free you, not to make you happy for the moment.

Prophetic word- double portion is coming. Your husband/wife is coming! This is the final healing!

Stand in the season I’ve given you and do not be swayed by those around you. If God has told you to rest do not be overcome by the need to hustle.

If I’ve said to go somewhere or you have a strong desire to do something, do not allow others to stop you with their logic and man’s way of thinking.

Today I was on the bus and suddenly smelled chicken that someone brought on.

I thought I’ll just go home but I got off a ways from the popcorn chicken place I went to a few days ago.

I started walking towards it – I said you know what even though it’s not the healthiest I’m going to get what I want.

When I got there there were no seats so I saw this girl and asked to sit with her. We had so much in common, acting, film, and having to give up our dreams in the past.

We ended up talking for 3 hours and I actually had a dream about the exact amount of classes and how many times she’ll take it last night, written in my dream notes.

And I also had a dream about what she went through in class.

You can have what you want. – prophetic word, God will restore all your dreams.

For those who have been waiting for your husband or wife, he/she is coming. Don’t settle for the counterfeit.

Here are some reasons to sow-

1. For breakthrough, as a sign of faith

2. It encourages me

3. It provides the finances I need to continue ministering to you and those God leads me to

4. Your giving frees people from fear, condemnation, shame and guilt

5. Brings people to Jesus!

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Thank you for being family!

Here’s some questions to ask yourself when you don’t want to go somewhere or be at some event with family or friends-

1. Do I feel guilty for not going? (Spirit of condemnation)

2. Do I feel like I’ll miss out if I don’t go? (Spirit of lack)

Even going to church is a form of obligation. If you feel like you’re missing out if you don’t go to church, or that you won’t receive the spiritual food you need- it’s actually a form of guilt and condemnation.

That means Jesus isn’t enough for you.

If you want to go, yes, by all means go- but you shouldn’t go because you feel like you’ll miss out on something for not going.

Jesus already died on the cross for you to be enough.

I believe much of what “Christians” do actually come from guilt and obligation, not love or desire.

Desire should be at the root of everything we do.

Because it is God’s spirit that gives you the will and action to do.

for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose. Philippians 2:13

So if we are making decisions to do things out of guilt or maybe hoping if we do it we get what we want in return, it’s not God.

1. Do you have the will to do? Do you actually want to?

The religious spirit tells you you’re not allowed to have what you want until you do what God says.

It’s a works system that says you only deserve to have something because of your “obedience”. It’s like employee and employer.

You’re not an employee, you’re a daughter and son of God!

You don’t get paid by God for the hours you worked.

You’re a child of God that has everything God has and this also means you trust that God has your best in mind like a child trusts His papa. So you walk in alignment with Him when He speaks, it’s not to control you but to guide you.

Here’s an example of guilt versus desire. My mom asked me if I wanted to get hot pot and I said no I want pancakes and she said you should eat pancakes it has a lot of carbs.

She got mad that I didn’t want to go with her. I felt some guilt and thought maybe I should.

But then when I started writing this I realize it was guilt tripping me. I’m glad I decided to follow the desires of my heart this morning.

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Some people marry their high school sweetheart and good for you, but that’s not my story.

My story is a roller coaster ride.

I grew up mainly with a single mother and my brother. And we moved a lot. I was born in Hamburg, Germany, moved to Taiwan when I was 5, then America when I was 8.

Honestly there were so many times I’d meet a guy and then he’s not it- I’d complain to my friends “why do other people have it so easy??”

But I don’t regret my life or story.

It’s super rich and colorful. It’s full of tears, dancing and laughter. Nothing about my life is boring.

I knew I had daddy issues that needed to be healed but I didn’t think it would be so strenuous. I had to meet men with a lot of daddy and mommy issues.

They say God brings people who mirror your issues or pain, well there were a lot of men that had mommy or daddy issues.

I was boy crazy growing up and never knew I was actually pretty close to my dad when I was young. I was shocked to see pictures of me clinging to dad when I was young.

At the age of 8 my parents officially divorced and I moved to America with my mom. Before that I remember my dad coming over to bring us toys. Gradually he came less and less. That was in Taiwan.

I didn’t know it then but I suddenly found myself shut down- because my dad completely stopped talking to me or contacting us.

It was like he stopped existing.

Then I experienced depression, I felt depressed and like a ghost outside my body. I started to stray more and more away from how I felt.

I journaled and talked to God a lot. I even wrote letters to my mother.

I appeared cheerful at church and school and became a helper. I helped everyone else to mask my own pain. People didn’t really know how I felt about my dad as I never talked about it.

My mother told me not to tell people that my parents were divorced. She was ashamed and was scared they’d feel pity for her as the church have us a single parent gift basket. As for me, I was happy we got gifts.

My first boyfriend was when I was 15. He was my first kiss.

I didn’t date much after that. I went to an all girl fashion school then started to date after college.

The young twenties was full of clubbing, but nothing crazy. I had my fair share of being heart broken. First a guy I met at work. Then a mutual guy friend, then finally when I met my long term boyfriend of 2.5 years.

He was emotionally distant and absent, like my dad.

He ghosted for days. I would think to myself- there are plenty of good guys yet I choose the most dysfunctional one.

I thought it was normal. But I realize it wasn’t. I was also emotionally shut off.

God had to fix my heart and my concept of self.

I had to learn that I was enough and not lacking.

I was not lacking a good childhood nor did I lack a father figure, for God had always taken care of me.

God gave me several college scholarships which I wrote essays for.

God protected me while I backpacked overseas in my young twenties.

God protected me from bad people.

God provided funds that I needed to eat and sleep while ministering to people on the road.

God did that, not my earthly father.

God healed my heart of every relationship, every heart break, God did that.

Jesus died on the cross for me to be whole, He took on every lack and said it is finished when He took His last breath.

So no, I don’t have a sob story- I have Jesus the risen Christ on the inside of me.

I am powerful beyond measure.

I’ll be happy to share more later!!!

May you come to a point where you realize how powerful you are!

Don’t feel sorry for people- share Jesus who takes away every deficiency from you.

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I left my career and family to follow Jesus-

I got rid of my car, my possessions, stopped renting my apartment.

People thought I was crazy.

My mom told me she thinks I’m smart but I don’t use it. It’s sad that the world judges people by accomplishment versus authority. Someone who has authority in Christ does not use if for anything, they use it only when God says. I used it to feed sheep. I left everything to follow Jesus, it was a huge sacrifice to leave my career and family for sheep. Why would anyone go and leave everything for people they don’t even know. It’s the burning love of God, saying I’m not leaving the lost sheep behind.

8-9 For the third test, the Devil took him to the peak of a huge mountain. He gestured expansively, pointing out all the earth’s kingdoms, how glorious they all were. Then he said, “They’re yours—lock, stock, and barrel. Just go down on your knees and worship me, and they’re yours.”

10 Jesus’ refusal was curt: “Beat it, Satan!” He backed his rebuke with a third quotation from Deuteronomy: “Worship the Lord your God, and only him. Serve him with absolute single-heartedness.”

11 The Test was over. The Devil left. And in his place, angels! Angels came and took care of Jesus’ needs.

Why would anyone be tested by Satan in the wilderness. Why would I have almost starved to feed the sheep. To find sheep. To be seasick, have diarrhea, to have fevers, to throw up on a plane, to have $5 left, to eat ramen, to not know where I’m going to sleep until God said. Why would I arrive in a foreign country without knowing where I was going to sleep because I was supposed to meet a divine appointment somewhere before landing or during landing and God would lead me to that person.

The compelling grace and love of God that said to me- nothing else but Jesus, I’ve tried everything else in my life and it led me to disappointment.

God alone fulfilled the empty void in my heart that I tried to fill with anything else.

Jesus alone. Filled my heart and so I went and shared Jesus with others.

And yes those who didn’t understand the worth and love of Jesus thought I was crazy. They wanted me to be stable, they wanted me to be like everyone else, to have a normal job and a normal life.

Oh but the blood of Jesus. The blood of Jesus. They did not see the blood of Jesus- the worth of Jesus. They wanted his money, not his crown.

They wanted his blessings, not his presence.

He was beat to pulp for your sake, yet you throw his garments out to sell it for a meal.

I went through the fire. I went through the fire. I held his hand and went through the fire. Now the demons are scared because they know I know the power of the blood.

I will not bend for the glory of the world. I have been tested In the wilderness. The glory and fame, the money and “appearances”, trying to gain worth from external things, people pleasing- it’s all trash compared to Jesus.

The test is always –

What are you willing to give up to follow Jesus.

Do you see His worth?

Or is He just there, a backup Plan?

Are you married to Jesus or are you dating Him?

Do you have other lovers?

Is it a guy, your career, your plans?

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I’ve been on reality shows and tv shows, and though I wanted to be known, I realize there’s nothing like the peace of knowing you are enough now.

Because the lights will dim and the applause will stop as you lay back on your bed.

When you’re left to face the mirror.

Do you like you?

Do you feel like you are enough.

I met a girl who worked for a celebrity. She was lonely and depressed. A guy too, working always, never enough. Longing for acceptance.

I’ve been to the glitz and glam and their souls still cried out “I’m not enough”.

All the drugs, weed, gambling, sex, money, clothes, fame and popularity won’t suffice if you’re looking for your worth in something other than God.

Do you know who you are?

A child of God.

Redeemed by the most high Jesus, pure and blameless becoming sin for you.

So that you could be whole and without sin.

All the lights will dim.

They are just numbers.

As soon as encouragement comes, another criticism.

Something new, tomorrow old.

Even the friendships may dim and feelings grow cold.

But God will never leave you.

What’s a win, when I see someone turn to Jesus and stop looking for acceptance anywhere else.

If you’re going to perform, perform for expression not for desperation of approval.

God created the world.

He created because He was.

He didn’t create for our approval.

He created as an expression of who He was.

I pray today you’ll be able to create out of who you are, not for approval, validation, or even survival.

God created out of rest. He always had enough. He always was.

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The girl I prayed for and ministered to was 19 who felt like home wasn’t home. I drove around the gym 3 times for some reason and couldn’t really “go home” even when I past my home. I would sit in my car and think of her, someone who wanted to hear what I had to say. I thought of my home with a disapproving mother who criticized me.

I sat in my car and couldn’t move. Where was home?

I always had a heart for young people and children who felt homeless or neglected because I was neglected. My friend said I would teach the gospel to orphans and I’ve pastored lost sheep who have been outcasted by churches and society in 20 countries. I went back to the gym to take her home. Because she was now family. For some reason I couldn’t just leave.

God had told me to go to the gym. It was random but I went. I had no membership and she was trying to explain the price. I said I did ministry.

She said she could use the help so I reached over to pray with her. I started prophesying things about her life. She was shocked I knew.

She accepted Jesus with me and felt heat in her body. I felt so much joy like it was my birthday. Knowing that she is now family.

I know how it feels to be homeless and to not have anyone to turn to as I ministered on the road. But to go to God as my only stability. I grew up with an absent father who wasn’t physically or emotionally there. I found my stability in Christ alone. He fathered me and I’ve been able to mother many young people all over the world. I love my mother but I also didn’t feel encouraged growing up. So I had to find encouragement through God.

Jesus is the only one who can be home to you. He will love you for who you are And accept you totally.

This night I woke up and this poem came into my head. It’s about foster kids. It’s a poem from God.

Life in a plastic bag

2 pairs of underwear

3 t shirts

2 pairs of pants

My life on the run, no parents, I feel like an orphan

Who will love me for who I am?

When will the yelling stop?

When will my pain subside?

I’m a child of God, not an orphan.

I’ll call my Heavenly Father daddy.

He won’t disappoint me.

I trust Him totally.

When will someone love me for who I am? And when will I stop pretending?

Life in a plastic bag.

I found home and I found my family. This time they love me for who I am.

I also met a man who felt spiritually alone and didn’t grow up with his father today. I got to talk to him and tell him who God can be for him.

I place the orphans back into God’s family. Those who are alone.

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It’s not your fault or their fault.

In fact we do the best we can with what we know.

And if we don’t know much, we can’t do what we don’t know.

So no it’s not their fault they betrayed you, they were wrought with shame, they didn’t know how to be honest, they hid behind a mask.

It’s not your fault you cut them off. Your mental health was at risk.

It’s not my fault my dad left our family. He didn’t have the capacity to love.

He wanted to be with other women. His heart wanted that.

So whatever your heart wants, you can’t blame it.

Only God can transform our hearts. Not by our own self will and you surely cannot so anything out of guilt or obligation.

God always transforms us from the inside out. Not through guilt or force.

He always changes us through an unceasing love and grace.

If someone has no capacity to show love to you, don’t force them.

Love comes from the inside, it’s natural, not forced.

They didn’t leave because you’re unlovable. They left because they left.

Sometimes we are just not meant to be together, our paths cross but are not meant to last forever.

It’s not your fault and it’s not their fault.

Only God can change peoples’ hearts.

When I realize that the pressure is not there anymore to try harder. Because it’s not my fault they’re not willing to open their hearts to love or to give love.

I am enough and whoever is supposed to be in my life for a season is there for a reason. I accept that and I can move on knowing it wasn’t anyone’s fault and I don’t have to keep rescuing a sinking ship.

I tried to rescue my mother from her low self esteem. I tried to rescue my dad from his shut down heart but no matter how much I spoke life over them I got even more hurt in return.

So this pattern recycled itself. I found myself rescuing people but then soon realized they needed to find help in God alone.

I don’t have to carry anymore false responsibility. It’s so freeing.

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Sometimes you just need to tell God how you feel.

God I’m disappointed.

I don’t understand. Why me. I’m hurt. I’m tired of being hurt by others. I’m tired of being attacked. I’m tired of being the victim and not the victor.

I feel dead inside like I’m not here, like I’m not present.

God help me to forgive and overcome. Help me to breakthrough in my heart. I don’t want to stay here, in brokenness. I want to be healed.

I’m tired of these negative patterns in my life. I’m tired of attracting people who don’t love me for who I am. I’m tired of being persecuted and rejected. I’m tired of fighting.

I just want peace. I want to stop and feel you.

God says-

I am here. I am with you.

I’ve never left you. I’m here. I will never leave nor forsake you. I know you’ve been hurt, I know you carried the pain of yesterday but now let’s move on together.

Are you willing to move on?

Are you willing to let go?

I know you were feeling numb within, dead inside but are you willing to feel the pain?

Are you willing to let me in?

Me-

I couldn’t take it anymore. I’m even scared to eat now lest you make me return the food again, lest I eat another dish I hate. To face the fear of judgment and rejection.

I couldn’t take it anymore. Lest God you make me open my heart again and have friends backstab me again.

I can’t take it anymore. Meeting men and then be disappointed again. Oh he’s not it, just passing by.

Nothing in life is for sure.

But it’s our choice to open our hearts and to be vulnerable. Because it’s not about the success rate but if we are willing to open our hearts again.

Are you afraid to be disappointed?

Try again and let the hurt go, day by day.

Everyday.

God- for I will heal your wounds.

God but I hate you right now.

I’ve driven aimlessly trying to find my heart and my desires and it’s not for church, or the beach.

I’m trying to find my heart.

Is it in Mexico, is it in New York or in La?

Is it in a friend or a guy?

No it’s in you Jesus.

But I’m struggling to open my heart to you again. I know it’s not your fault God but can I really trust you.

Why use me to play the bad guy? To tell someone something they don’t want to hear?

I’m just the messenger.

God – you are mine and you will always be.

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You deserve to be happy and you do not need to sacrifice yourself to be deemed worthy.

You are valuable just as you are.

Growing up I felt like my worth was based on how much I was helping others.

So I often sacrificed my time, energy, everything to listen and help others, often neglecting my own dreams, desires and wants.

I started to see that it was important to take care of my own needs and desires.

If you google over helping, it’s actually a real addiction. Sometimes when you are stressed you look to help others as a way to overcome your own stress, it’s projecting.

There needs to be a balance.

Here are some questions-

1. Are others supporting you the way you’re supporting them? If not, ask.

2. Are you treating yourself the way you need to be treated?

In what I do I often find that I am faced with fears and unknowns, in those moments I feel like I am neglecting myself and I’m not sure if I can trust God.

I give a lot of love, and my gifts, talents especially prophetic giftings to others, teaching them as well.

So I need to ask God and people for donations in return. And I need to ask for the emotional help I’m in need of myself.

And I need to make sure I’m not running myself dry trying to help others.

I need to learn to set boundaries.

What does boundaries look like for you?

Sometimes the people God sends me to are carriers of small gifts, like a ride to my accommodation, a hug, company. They touch me through their friendship and love.

Be aware of those that continually drain you.

When my mom was in town I often felt drained by her so God would tell me to leave the house.

This girl grew up jehovah witness and catholic. She said she had cut her vacation short to be with her son and God had us meet by divine appointment.

Some divine appointments in Mexico

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