Writing from Perth, Australia- I have been through insurmountable circumstances on my journey, sometimes a sadness sinks in where I miss home, I miss my family. I’ve been away for 7 months and have barely talked to my family. The truth is I know that even the closest family member does not understand kingdom work.
And that’s okay.
I had to process the sadness and just sit with God.
I could hear Him say “I am enough for you”.
There are times we throw ourselves at friends, family, new friends, videos, phones, movies, shopping- anything but God.
We long for intimacy with our creator but we turn to everything but God. This journey has forced me to lean into God.
As much as I love the family I am staying with, I knew this morning that the Holy Spirit was telling me that it was time to move on. You are enough, you are not lacking. My longing for a family or to belong can only be satisfied by God.
I belong to God and God is my family.
People might understand you and love you, but only the Creator knows you from the inside out.
I wanted to stay here for a month, I wanted to continue in comfort but the Lord said “it’s time to move on, you’ve finished your work here”. My work was to prophesy to the ones I need to prophesy to. And instead of getting a phone with the money my mom gave me to buy a phone, I got a ticket to the next place the Lord was calling me to.
I felt a tinge of sadness. When am I ever going to get a phone?
The Lord asked me “why do you want a phone?”
“So I can have all access at anytime, to my friends and family”.
“I am enough for you”- He says.
He said that I will get a phone soon but then I needed to address the deeper longings. I’ve been officially without a working phone since October (since Japan). I know it seems impossible to travel without a phone but God has somehow made a way. I either borrow peoples’ phones or laptops or like today, I went to Big W (equivalent of walmart) and used their display phone.
I’m not kidding. I booked a flight on a display phone.
All things are possible with God.
Sometimes we think we are lacking something when in fact, we have everything we need to move forward.
That act of faith was in fact a breakthrough moment.
This night my friend told me a sister has decided to sow finances. Sometimes the breakthrough doesn’t come until we take that step of faith. Sometimes we are waiting for God to provide when HE will only provide if you trust Him and act on His word.
Today I stopped someone at the mall and said “can I pray for you”. She said “how did you know I was lost….in life”.
I said “holy spirit”.
I prayed for her and saw people attacking and accusing her and I said that even so she must follow her heart. That the Lord is with her.
She started crying and said that she just left a broken marriage. That she loved her kids.
I said that she is in a season where she is finding her worth and identity.
On the bus the Lord pointed me to a young woman who had 4 kids. I then prayed for her. I asked her where her parents are and she said she had none, that she was a foster kid. She is 18 years old, has one kid of her own about 2 years old, 3 that are foster kids and she lives with a boyfriend who is 22 and refuses to work while she works.
I don’t even know how my heart can handle these stories but I have to lean in harder into God and focus on the finished work of the cross.
Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world.