Category: God

Divine Letting Go

On By Rebekka LienIn art, dream, entrepreneur, faith, God, law of attraction, lifehack, love, self-help, travel

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That is the formula to letting God work in your life, let go of control….of everything. And what that means is watch the second season of Jane The Virgin, I still have 11 episodes left. It is currently my favorite show. She also happens to be a writer. I also love Crazy Ex-Girlfriend and her name happens to be Rebecca.

Anyways, being an empath, I feel deeply for people when they are in pain. I have been trying to help a family member who is depressed over her life, so here I am helping her….but in attempt to, I got depressed myself because she would take her frustration out on me. I confronted her and she apologized, even saying I dont remember yelling at you,…when you are depressed you dont realize you hurt people because you cant see right.

So I thought, I got to get some alone time. Divinely, I arrived 5 minutes before a free zumba class at the library. How divine! Then I BUMP into my friend at the check out! What? More like she called my name….what?

So I took a zumba class I did not plan for.

And well my mind was analyzing my life. Okay, let go of that family member, allow her to help herself. Stop letting her life depress you. Let her go through her own process. 

Then I thought, okay what are the chances that I am just imagining myself dancing in a latin American country? I AM ALSO LEARNING ESPANOL!!! I THINK I Am ready to move there right now.

Then as I am binge watching my tv show, some other friend says hi to me at starbucks. So instead of trying to figure out my life or the next country or project that I am supposed to go to or work on, living in flow is just that…..dancing the journey (and enjoying it), instead of focusing on how perfect the steps are.

The right people and the right things will call your name-

Rebekka???

Yes I am here!

 

Drama Rama

On By Rebekka LienIn coach, dream, entrepreneur, forgiveness, God, law of attraction, love, Uncategorized2 Comments

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Movenpick Cebu.

I’m sitting at Shangri-La and I’ve never had so much drama in my life.

I can’t go into detail but I’ve been having many dreams. In all of this, this experience of being in Cebu, filming a tv show,,,,and well losing my phone, oh I meant this strange evil person robbed me and took my phone from my pocket, going to the police and all that,

Here’s some things I’ve learned: 

  1. Material things fade. Money can’t buy you worth.
  2. People are fickle. People change constantly and are rather good at hiding their true emotions. We live in a society filled with fear of being authentic and truthful to our spirit. 
  3. There is always a blessing in disguise, the blessing sometimes may be a lesson that is sprouting within your spirit, and not a dollar amount.
  4. Choose yourself. Choose what feels good and right in your spirit. People will persuade you to be their friend when misery calls for you to entertain, but you must stand strong.
  5. Stories are knit in our minds based on our past experience of disgrace. We must learn to disassociate ourselves from our false selves and even our memories of who we are and how we relate to other people.
  6. A secret is not worth keeping because it can destroy your soul.
  7. There is no black and white, because people’s emotions are colorful.
  8. There can be hope and love in the world if we learn to break our walls down and show vulnerability.
  9. We live in a society based on competition but how God created us is to work together for our social well being, there is no love when people are isolated. People must come together to communicate their truth.
  10. Forgiveness and letting go- 1st importance.
  11. As much as people tell me to stop being so trusting, I continue to see the best in people because God continues to do that for me, so I will continue to forgive because I know I am not perfect. 

PS-

We must choose to let go and forgive daily.
It is a daily exercise of love for our souls.
We can become cold and hard hearted because of what happens to us in life, but our choice to forgive isn’t for other people, it’s for ourselves. The truth is our ego is our worse enemy, it chooses to neglect what we truly need, which is love.
But ego loves pride, loves to think we are better than other people.
By doing so, we isolate ourselves and choose not to help others. …Thus, we no longer have the ability to receive love as our hearts have closed off to help.

XOXO, BEX

I Am That I Am.

On By Rebekka LienIn God, love, UncategorizedLeave a comment

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I am that I am. Higher than your thoughts.

I am that I am, defender of the weak, defender of the broken.

I am that I am, more than the voices that taunt at your vision of who you are, I am your protector.

You are not your accomplishments, your title, your clothes, your face, your personality, your accolades, your mean spirited words, your goodness, your relationship status, you are a spirit being. You are not your fame, your likes, your statuses, your golden watch, even your most simplified truths. You are a spiritual force that desires to overcome the words that true to define who you are.

You are not your ego, your abilities, your talents, your smartness, your beauty, you are transcendent.

God bless your going and rising, your rushing and striving, but let Spirit meet you in the secret place, where silence is enough, and you get to radiate light while light illuminates your countenance. Where your very presence and being is enough for the God who created you. 

I have come to know you in my dreams, you reveal my deepest fears, and overcome them with only a spoken knowing.

 

An Afternoon With A Feather Hatted Stranger

On By Rebekka LienIn beautiful, God, lifehack2 Comments

The best days of my life is when I take a risk, a chance to talk to a stranger and walk away, an hour, two hours later with awe of how good God is. Today I decided to go to Starbucks and I was truly filled with joy. I got my coffee for free because the barista charged me the wrong amount. I was in glee! Second of all, I saw an old man with a wild hat with feathers and an American flag and he was drawing. 

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I was filled with courage and decided to go talk to him.

A normal person walking by would just look at him and think “what a crazy old man”, but to God, people are beautiful and unique. To me, I know everyone has a story. 

The story that I heard this afternoon touched my heart. A son that passed away, living at YMCA, a man from Chicago, relocated to LA. A professor of writing, published books and have yet received any royalty checks since, this man deserved better.

I got to know a beautiful soul today and even had the opportunity to pray with him as he was having nightmares. The joy I feel when I can help someone with their lives….gosh, I would not trade a zillion dollars for it. Because when two human beings connect on that level, it is simply divine, spiritual, beautiful. 

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It’s like everything fades away and we are in a spiritual realm, becoming who we really are, divine beings.

Thank you God for the opportunity to be a blessing to the outcasts. Your heart is for the poor, broken, the homeless, the hungry, the outcasted. Even when I sat there with him, I could see the stares of strangers…

I used to be like them, too busy to notice anything. To be aware that we are spiritual beings, to be conscious, to WAKE UP. 

But after I dedicated my life to love, community and freedom, I was able to slow down and sense the heart of God again. I’m not a fighter, I’m a lover. And we need more people in this world that will take a risk, take time out of their lives, get out of their head, stop worrying and love someone…just because.

Loving is listening. How can we listen to those that desire to be loved?

XOXO BEX

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Free Speech- My Vulva, My Clit

On By Rebekka LienIn God, self- reflectionLeave a comment

Finding Femininity

I stared down at my down there, it was big, pulsing, covered with remains of selfish love.
It held power, love, femininity and spoke of womanhood.
I’m a woman and I’m beautiful.
As I stared at the two friends, flaps of grace and beauty, chilling side by side,
I knew that I had arrived, at the point of embracing that I am beautiful.
No more, no more wearing tight jeans that tortured my vulva.
No more, no more wearing things that suffocate my beloved.
I’m letting go, letting my queen reign.
I’m letting go of societal expectations, my vulva, my clitoris want to breathe!

http://twitter.com/rebekka_lien 

Just a snippet of the book to come!

 

Baby Love

On By Rebekka LienIn faith, God, person i want to be, self- reflectionLeave a comment

“I’ve never felt more peace now that I have so little in the bank account, more peace than when I had money saved!”- I said.

My last day of work was July 29th, today is September 8. It’s been more than a month since I last worked. Miraculously I still have enough thanks for all those that helped me with my trip. But I’ve never been happier!!!

The past month, I learned Baby Love. I learned how to be loved as a helpless baby. God has shown his faithful providence and protection over me. I’ve seen Jesus as superman caring and carrying me through the tough times. Now that I’ve let go of all earthly security, I’ve never had more peace in my life. As a child of God, God takes care of you and you need not worry.

“better the little that the righteous have than the wealth of many wicked; for the power of the wicked will be broken, but the Lord upholds the righteous”- psalm 37:39 (righteous by faith in Jesus Christ, not by works)

My landlady’s baby!

How God Provides!

On By Rebekka LienIn faith, God, Music1 Comment

Exactly 18 days ago, I sent out a fundraising letter on email and on Facebook.

I didn’t know how God would work, but God worked in ways I still find hard to believe. Yet, I had faith and it was that little mustard seed faith that God honored!

The first person who donated lived in England, the second was a Tumblr/Twitter Follower that I never met, the third was someone I totally didn’t expect to give, the fourth was someone I hadn’t talked to in years….so on and so forth.

The whole week before I was gripped with anxiety and fear, it was not from the Lord, but God had me experience that because it was kind of like withdrawal from “Earthly Security”. I didn’t know how I would pay rent for the 2 months that I was gone- since it’s September and October, half of on each month. I had already been unemployed for a month and was learning the meaning of “being” and “resting” with God. My roommate said that I was so at peace compared to when I used to work full time. I was able to laugh and smile again.

One night I broke down and felt God’s immense LOVE, I saw myself with wings, stepping on rainbows, and spewing colors that I’ve never seen. People looked up at me in awe and the blind were healed. I felt God’s love like I never before, in a fetal position, I surrendered.

Several moments and divine encounters built my faith that week.

Exactly a week before I leave, my good friend gives me a check amounting to my rent! Praise God!!! The angels truly spoke to people and how God is gracious to us! I so honor those that gave and their obedience to the Lord. I know that it is not in vain- that you will be rewarded 10 fold because God sees your generosity!
I was piecing together the cash I had to pay rent for October and was lacking 40 bucks or so. I prayed, “God today provide”. At the prayer meeting, my friend gave me a gift and inside was a check for 50 bucks. God is so GOOD!

It was at the end of my prayer meeting that my friend left. However, he came storming back, knocking on the door. He said he had previously been trying to find an offering he had lost and determined that he would give it to me if he found it. He looked in his bible before he came but it wasn’t there. When he went back to his car, Jesus had put the envelope back in the bible!!!

Furthermore, God provided in small ways that I can’t even begin to thank Him!!! My friend gave me a bunch of random household stuff that she thought I wouldn’t need. But I totally did need them- simple things like liquid hand soap. In order to save money, we were using old school hand soap. Everytime I used that bar soap, I thought, a liquid hand soap would be nice. God hears my thoughts! Other things that He provided through people were toothpaste, face wash, etc. Things that were so simple, yet showed God’s detailed planning in our lives. He hears our little thoughts and lavishly blesses us because He loves us.

That’s what I’ve been learning- God is a lavish lover, a lavish blesser who honors our little faith.
I am so blessed.

I really feel like God is calling me to be healed and to be a healer. God is putting ex-prostitutes on my heart. He is also putting in my heart a desire to speak life into someone’s soul and to restore what Satan has destroyed- our identity as beloved children of God.

My friend painted this in Germany.

The Fire

On By Rebekka LienIn faith, God, self- reflectionLeave a comment

September 1, the beginning of new things.

The launching happened in August, September is the opening of presents.

Lots of presents, there will be lots of presents, only for those that have kept the faith.

And spoken truth in times of trouble.

I just had a massive encounter with God.

I was crying out to God, looking at my current situation and seeing that there was no way out but to see God speak a miracle.

I lay in my bed, listening to Misty Edwards’ song- “you won’t relent until you have it all”. As I lay there, I knew God was stripping me of all the things I held so dearly for security…Whether that is the need to have a savings or material possession… Whether that is the need to know what I will be doing when I come back from Australia.

In the moment, I encountered Jesus in a way I cannot describe in writing.

I saw Jesus open His arms and beckoning for my hand. We danced and I suddenly saw a ballerina, the image that my friend had prophesied for me. I was a ballerina, beautiful before God’s eyes, dancing with God. We were dancing the future into being. We were creating the future together.

I suddenly felt tears welling up, I started sobbing in desperation for God. I saw Jesus next to me while I twirled in my dress as a girl. He looked at me with pride, He said “wow, that’s my girl, you are so beautiful”. I was praying in heaven language. I saw myself with wings, stepping onto rainbows. I was spewing colors with my wings. Everywhere I went, people looked up in awe and the blind were healed.

My faith has been expanding, strengthened beyond imagination. God wants it all, the Refuge wants me to LET go of all my worldly securities and be a FIRE of God. I saw so much fire, burning, passion of love spewing into the world. I saw a stage, I saw myself fully relinquished to God, thrown, adopted, burning for the LOVE and only the LOVE of Jesus. I felt the tears, the desperation of children that are human trafficked, the lepers on the street, the homeless, the abandoned, the widowed, the abused, I felt deep yearning and compassion for justice.

Right after, my friend messages me and tells me he wants to treat me to boba because I can’t spend money before I go to Australia. God has sent 10,000 angels to pave the way and fight for me. It’s funny how God knows the desire of my heart, even as specific as boba.

I started laughing. God is so funny.

 

Yah, I Know I’m Kind of Crazy

On By Rebekka LienIn God, travelLeave a comment

So I finally sat down and did some calculations.

I have to raise or somehow God will rain down at least $1,672.57 by September 11. So I can pay my bills and September and October rent before I go to Australia. I already pulled out my money for Australia.

I’m struggling between having faith, waiting on God and doing everything I can to sell everything I have to earn some money.

I have a lot of clothes I can sell, but it’s hard to list all of them in that time span. I can sell my laptop, but my laptop is my life work.

So this leaves me thinking, well, it’s got to be God or else I don’t see how anything is possible. I wrote this down in my journal “He will not fail you or forsake you”. It’s scary to be in a place of need, perhaps, even shameful- as obnoxious as that word is, but it leaves me in utmost need of God and His grace to rain even more heavily. When the miracle comes, as last minute as it is, I’ll show the world that God is really that real. For now, I’m going to pray fervently, having patience and believing all that I have believed about my God.