Emotional Vulnerability

On July 14, 2016 By Rebekka LienIn faith, God, lawofattraction, lifehack, love, self-help, spirtual

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(Phuket, Thailand)

I’m stepping out and letting my heart be exposed. I’m letting go of control. Your heart is safe for me.

I’m learning emotional vulnerability with God. I’ve had a relationship with God since I was very young. I didn’t grow up with my dad, and my mom was rather emotionally unavailable. I often played under the table in my room. I had a really wild upbringing, mostly being home alone at a young age. I was free in a way, but always looking for protection, always defending and protecting my heart. I read an article I wrote about my life in a newspaper to my mom once and she got really mad, told me not to write about it because it seems like she was really irresponsible and neglected me.

But I realize that when I’m vulnerable with the world, perhaps I can reach one person who feels alone, someone in pain, someone who isn’t brave enough to ask others for help.

I’m afraid to write honestly because of how mean the world has been to me. Because of the response I’ve gotten to my writing, because of the judgement I’ve heard from strangers. Here’s vulnerability.

I’ve been afraid to be myself because how the world has treated me, or perhaps how I’ve treated myself.

For awhile my heart was numb because of all the pain I went through in my life. I felt pain because of I felt like I couldn’t breathe again after a broken relationship, I felt pain because I lost friends that were dear to me, I got mad at God, I closed my heart off. Instead of going to God for comfort, I pretended everything was okay.

Joseph had a dream, a big dream and his brothers laughed at him, he was tricked and sent to prison for years. That was his desert. I’m just walking out of the prison. The prison was people who were close to me laughing at my dreams. The prison was my shutting my heart off. The prison was pretending to forgive and forget, but feeling the pain still. The prison was my unwillingness to believe that God was safe.

And slowly I poured my heart out, it is a physical tension I still feel. I’ll feel a literal ache in my heart, my neck starts to hurt and in the pressure of all the stress, my hand has felt numb as if an after effect of my heart tension.

So in it all, I let go of controlling the pain or the fears. Because I know you are safe God.

Divine Letting Go

On July 9, 2016 By Rebekka LienIn art, dream, entrepreneur, faith, God, law of attraction, lifehack, love, self-help, travel

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That is the formula to letting God work in your life, let go of control….of everything. And what that means is watch the second season of Jane The Virgin, I still have 11 episodes left. It is currently my favorite show. She also happens to be a writer. I also love Crazy Ex-Girlfriend and her name happens to be Rebecca.

Anyways, being an empath, I feel deeply for people when they are in pain. I have been trying to help a family member who is depressed over her life, so here I am helping her….but in attempt to, I got depressed myself because she would take her frustration out on me. I confronted her and she apologized, even saying I dont remember yelling at you,…when you are depressed you dont realize you hurt people because you cant see right.

So I thought, I got to get some alone time. Divinely, I arrived 5 minutes before a free zumba class at the library. How divine! Then I BUMP into my friend at the check out! What? More like she called my name….what?

So I took a zumba class I did not plan for.

And well my mind was analyzing my life. Okay, let go of that family member, allow her to help herself. Stop letting her life depress you. Let her go through her own process.

Then I thought, okay what are the chances that I am just imagining myself dancing in a latin American country? I AM ALSO LEARNING ESPANOL!!! I THINK I Am ready to move there right now.

Then as I am binge watching my tv show, some other friend says hi to me at starbucks. So instead of trying to figure out my life or the next country or project that I am supposed to go to or work on, living in flow is just that…..dancing the journey (and enjoying it), instead of focusing on how perfect the steps are.

The right people and the right things will call your name-

Rebekka???

Yes I am here!

The Myth of Not Being Enough

On July 7, 2016July 7, 2016 By Rebekka LienIn dream, faith, Uncategorized

You are enough, for God. But usually not for humans. If you were purely living in grace, you are enough. Now, when you’re a kid, you get to play, and you’re allowed to be goofy. As you grow up, you gradually notice that you are rewarded for “being good” to your parents. You know, being obedient. Then, you are applauded for accomplishing things like getting A’s, being president of some volunteer organization or club at school, writing a good essay for your college, getting into a good college, dating the right kind of person that your friends approve of, looking nice, losing weight, the list seems to go on.

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That’s me just playing, because I wanted to, because I was curious, because I was interested, not because I was being forced to.

As you get older, you are applauded for getting the right kind of job with the right salary, you are congratulated for having a kid, getting married, maybe staying at a few luxury resorts….you get applauded for trying, but not really for failing. Or for living at home with your parents when you are 30…definitely not applauded for still being single and doing odd jobs and freelancing….you definitely are not applauded for “being” because “being” seems lazy, seems well, lazy times two.

Your whole life after 3 years old, or whatever age you stopped playing because your parents wanted you to “succeed”, is a whole list of doing, trying, accomplishing, checking off lists. It’s a tiring rat race.

After I became self-employed, I had to release the idea of trying. I hustled really hard. And even that wasn’t freedom, it was slavery to the whole system of striving. When I finally gave into what I call grace, allowing God to open the right doors, I still struggle with it at times…but now I’m more sensitive to it.

The spirit of striving is like this spirit that sits on your shoulder and tells you “YOU’RE NOT ENOUGH = DO MORE!”

Do you ever notice that when you want attention and love from people, you rarely get it? You seem desperate and people can smell it? But when you’re content and filled with love, people love to bother you. It’s because that is BEING. The God void in your heart isn’t supposed to come from people, they can’t fill your every need. It’s supposed to come from within, a divine Godly love.

And when you are filled with DIVINE LOVE, people are attracted to real unconditional, spirit filled love. A desperate need for love comes from fear, fear of not being enough. Fear that you need peoples’ approval.

Yesterday my mom was like “if only you had studied something else”. I’m like, “you want a happy daughter or a miserable one?” And Helen Fisher had really helped me discover my personality, I got 97% explorer, which just means I don’t like being controlled and I love excitement and variety…….paired with builder is a no no because they tend to be too structured and have a need for stability. Which makes a lot of sense because in my past relationships the guy didn’t even have a passport. And here I am literally itching to go to 100 more countries.

SO rest into what I call divine grace.

And if you don’t understand what that means, ask. And you shall receive the answer as I am slowly learning. It’s a lifestyle, it’s a divine now.

You are enough. Stop doing and start soaking in the love that fills you to the overflow.

“And if by grace, then it cannot be based on works; if it were, grace would no longer be grace.”- Romans 11:6

What Is Happiness?

On April 5, 2016 By Rebekka LienIn faith6 Comments

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10 years later I find myself sitting at the orthodontist and looks me straight in the eyes “wear your retainers 24/7”, I’m like are you serious? And then I get some hot cheetos, my favorite magnum ice cream and some horchata, none of which is that healthy, but enjoying these snacks while walking a mile home, I suddenly am filled with delight.

I was always easily amused growing up.

In fact, you could put me in my room and I’d play with my barbies with a whole day, making up stories and have them talk to each other.

I could spend days on end imagining and living in my own world. I was happy.

Then all of a sudden, I found myself comparing my life with others. Well, they have a bigger house, oh I need a cell phone too? The truth was, I was already content because my mind was filled with fascinating delights. But as I got older, I started to see that “success”, you know by means of hustle was important to 99% of people. Though my mom encouraged the arts, teaching us piano, sending us to cello lessons, at the end of the month, the stress of bills seemed to outweigh the joy of creating.

I found myself wanting to help, to be independent. I worked all throughout college, my parents didn’t have to pay one cent of my college tuition. I climbed the corporate ladder, only to very fast, find out I hated it. And I hated structure because I needed my own space to create and to be myself.

What frustrates me with human beings these days is that they see sitting at a desk, being unhappy a sign of productivity.

What frustrates me with human beings these days is that it never seems to be enough.

What frustrates me with human beings is that they (or I) often worry about tomorrow when today is just as beautiful and the human beings you love are right in front of you, while you are staring at your Iphone trying to figure out when your next client will call.

So in the midst of being a walking sage these days, I find myself saying hello to animals, plants, finding potholes, secret pathways, stairs, and I’m fascinated, I’m excited, I’m overwhelmed with the beauty that is all around me and I’m happy.

What has it cost me to be happy?

Getting rid of my car
Not having a sim card
Letting spirit lead.
The need to control
Having a lot of friends who don’t really know me.

It’s an act of returning to childlike joy, and though it cost me a great deal, reverting to who I am, a creative and joyful child, I am filled with the delight of God.

You Are The Creator Of Your Life

On May 9, 2015May 9, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn business, entrepreneur, faith3 Comments

Nothing is real save love. Nothing matters but love.

I’ve walked everywhere for one week now, no use of my car. It’s allowed me to reach some spiritual awakenings in my soul.

‘Those who live according to the flesh have their minds set on what the flesh desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.’

Here goes:

There is no lack, but perceived lack. Nothing is real outside of what is within our consciousness. Anything that desires to be manifest will be manifest in its due time. Any areas of strivings are evidence that you do not know you have 100% power within you as long as you know you are complete in God, as God has redeemed you…as long as you have received the free gift of completion.

Since you are 100% complete and whole, and in your inner reality, there are actually no lack, no problems…since these external concerns are simply deviations from self love or the knowledge that you are loved.

What is real is who you are on the inside. Until you come to see that you are creator of your life, you will keep striving for that which you think you lack within. All progress starts from within.

When you receive perfect love from God- in the eyes of God you become pure, perfect; there is no lack. Thus, we are all remembering who we already are in the future. There is no time in the I AM. You are who you are, there is no time, we live forever…our spirits are eternal beings. Our bodies are simply temporary dwellings which our spirits live in.

Any perceived problems, lack, relational conflicts, divorce, breakups, heart breaks are our hearts telling us “things are supposed to be beautiful, eternal, things are supposed to last”.

Our lives are like spirals, there are perceived backwardness, such as losing our careers, relationships, people, but these are necessary seasons just as winter is necessary for summer to come later.

When people accuse you of not giving them love, it is often because they do not acknowledge love is within them and waiting to be received. People also treat you as they treat themselves. If they judge you, they judge themselves harshly. If they demean you, they demean themselves in their own lives. Now you say that people have hurt you, but if we start to see that people act out of their perceived lack (not knowing that love is realized in their consciousness first), you are then not responsible for how they feel.

Your worth does not come from whether people approve or love you. Love is complete within you, so whether someone likes you or not does not affect how you feel. You are devoid of ego, only spirit.

This is intense stuff but I hope you gained something from this blog post.

XOXO- BEX

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Your Heart Desires To Be Set Free

On May 3, 2015May 3, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn entrepreneur, faithLeave a comment

You heart desires to be set free

To have space, to have freedom to be, to be still and to know all is completed.

All is won and done.

Your heart seeks peace, seeks rest.

Our outward actions are manifestations of where our hearts are at.

Some hearts need more time and space, some hearts need less, but we all need to nurture the child within, for without it, we’d be simply flesh and bones.

Intimacy scares me, though I thought I gave my heart to a higher cause, there is still self-protection, and self-protection is fear that God will not protect my heart. We live in fear because we think it is safe, but we are compromising our dreams to live in lack. We choose to live in a veil of stability which only becomes a prison.

In a prison, we are unable to break free by our own will. By divine grace, we are set free.

The only reason I’ve become so mature, wise and deep from self-reflection is because I’ve created boundaries to give my heart time to be, not do. Are you giving yourself a garden to cultivate your deepest thoughts, desires and wisdom?

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Why You Should Take The Road Less Traveled

On April 21, 2015April 21, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn faithLeave a comment

Today I took the road less traveled as I often do.

It’s interesting when people that do not have interesting lives tell you what to do, it makes me chuckle a bit. People think being alone is very dangerous, but I think otherwise. I’m never alone, God is always with me. I’m always being directed left or right, back or forward. Can human beings direct me? Not often, unless they’ve walked the same road I’m trying to walk on.

I woke up around 8:30am and decided to try a hike I’ve never done before. It’s supposed to be 10 miles roundtrip. When I got to the bottom of the hill, I noticed there was an interesting path, very rocky all the way up. It wasn’t a paved road. Instinctively, I started walking up.

Then the road started getting real tiring and it was REALLY cold. However, I was only wearing shorts and a sleeveless drake shirt. Midway up, I thought about going back.

Isn’t that us in life?

We often want to give up midway to the top. It’s easy to give up and go to starbucks to enjoy our safe cup of coffee, to veg out at home and never see a stranger again, it’s easy to live our routine lives and take the easy path. It’s easy, but our souls tend to die a little more each day because human beings are meant to be challenged, to be excited, to be passionate about life….there’s a little adventurer that longs to see a greater life.

Do you know what spurred me on?

A set of footsteps, actually the same footsteps all the way up that led me. I knew it was just one person who had gone up this path maybe earlier in the morning or the day before…or who knows when, but it gave me courage to keep going.

Another analogy- when we know that ONE person, even one, have gone before US, we have courage to keep going.

Whose footsteps are you following?

Ones that inspire you or ones that are simply traditional? Nothing wrong with traditional and the worn path, but are they living the life you desire?

So I started to sing and talk to myself, I kept hearing “there’s gold on top of the mountain”. There’s gold indeed. I walked by some graffitied metals, up I walked. I even peed once since no one was on the trail.

The great thing about being a rarity is that you can do whatever you want and no one will be there to judge.

I got to the top area, and was praying for a paved road…finally there was. I thought to myself, “should i keep going or go back because going back is familiar but I have no idea where I’ll be walking now if I keep going forward”.

I heard “keep going forward”.

Now, I started walking down the grey path, some kind of paved road that no one drove on. It was a secret road.

As I started walking down, I looked at the daunting mountains.

OMG am I going to make it back alive. Where am I? My phone had no reception and just from looking down at the city, I was FAR FAR FAR away from the starting point. I just kept hearing “trust me”. Spirit was leading me. The mountains that once inspired me now seemed scary.

I suddenly see this biker and my heart leaped. I hurried and asked him how far I was from the bottom. He said “shouldn’t be that far, it took me 20 minutes to bike up”. Happily, I walked down, but it was WAY more than 20 minutes plus from where he parked, there was still 3-4 miles down the hill. I walked by a chinese couple, I asked them again and this time I told them where I started from, they looked at me with awe. OMG they said. You started THERE!

“I got lost but now I’ve found”- with my totally frozen hands.

My hands were completely frozen, it hurt to bend them. Finally I saw a white car and a gangster looking guy. He was on the phone with a redbull in his hands. I asked him how far it would take to get down…and by any chance, if he was driving down, could I get a lift? He said he would if he was going down soon.

I kept walking.

And like an angelic sound, the humming of his beaten up car came down like a breeze on a hot night.

The most unlikely ride. I ran and hopped in. And if you were wondering, geez so dangerous. I have hitchhiked with people all over the world and because I can sense peoples’ energy, I am able to do so. I said “you know, sometimes I always wonder whether there are actually kind people in the world when I’m in situations like this”. He said “me too, one time my car broke down on the freeway and I kept waving….no one stopped to help me”.

I felt sad because I knew that people refused to stop because they were busy, or thought their lives to be busy….probably also because he looked like a gangster. It’s funny how the most unlikely people are actually the ones that help you and the ones that sometimes have everything have no compassion for you.

And as I hopped off the car, I offered a blessing for him. Because with my hands frozen, my heart had melted a little this day. What if we were all kind to one another, what would the world look like? What if we didn’t judge by skin color or class?

It saddened me to think about it, but it also gave me fresh perspective. Thank God to the many angels that gave me direction today…and so it is with our lives, we can either be safe in our little cave and judgements of others or trust that the universe is full of kind souls, ready to give love and be loved by you….and thus, take the necessary risks to fulfill your dreams.

Who Does God Say You Are?

On January 13, 2015 By Rebekka LienIn entrepreneur, faith, law of attractionLeave a comment

A lot of people have messed up views about who God is. I don’t claim to be all knowing of who God is, but I know that I wouldn’t be alive today if it wasn’t for God. I converse with this mystical force that people think is this old bearded man who is super mad all the freaken time. I think of God as love, as beauty, as all knowing, as brilliant, bright, loving, all encompassing, non-judgemental, gentle, funny, light-hearted, truthful, definitely not what people have portrayed him as….he definitely does not hate gay people, I don’t know who the hell made that up.

Anyways, on a more serious note, I’m sure that as 2015 has already progressed into 12 days….many of you are already failing, maybe frustrated that you haven’t seen any breakthroughs. As I was dancing this super fast piece at dance rehearsal, I heard this annoying voice “just leave, you can’t do it”. That’s the voice of darkness. I literally wanted to leave because I was so tired, but something in me told me that I needed to PUSH.

I believe it IS the PUSH season. You need to hold onto who God says you are. Well, your thoughts of who God is maybe already tainted….but let’s just say it’s not…let’s just say that you are starting to get to know a totally loving God, who God totally is….God would say:

“You’re awesome, you’ve already overcome, you are my brightest star, you are more than a conqueror, you win, you always win in your own competition…” etc. Think positive affirmations, but these things are true about you.

As I was dancing, I kept thinking about my moves…omg. I’m totally messing up. The more I thought about my every move, the more I messed up. So I just said “Let’s dance in flow, let the spirit lead”, and in doing so I felt that I started to dance with more expression, more FUN.

So maybe your resolutions haven’t come true, but don’t give up on who God says you are…..an overcomer, a CEO, boss.

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How To Build Influence In Today’s Cyber World

On March 17, 2013March 17, 2013 By Rebekka LienIn business, faith, self- reflectionLeave a comment

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Believe it OR NOT.

I am STILL a STRONG believer in FACE TO FACE contact.

If you haven’t noticed, there are SO many millions of people marketing their online content, selling goods, making millions….this is great, but…

I still believe in LONG TERM impact rather than quick results.

As human beings, we are prone to NOT trust people.

How do you build INFLUENCE in today’s cyber world? Just a few tips…

1. Attend events, parties, functions that relate to what you love, what you’re passionate about. AUTHENTICITY is key in today’s over populated blogs and websites. People don’t listen until you listen to them first. This means, making GENUINE friendships IN person. It’s been amazing to meet people I’ve met on Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook in person- nothing is impossible these days. Of course, you can’t meet every single person, but FACE TO FACE contact definitely builds trust, chemistry, and connection.

2. Help Others & They’ll Help YOU in return – Just because I am going to be like Oprah one day doesn’t mean I have to be snobby about it (LOL!!). I believe giving someone a FREE connection, sending opportunities to people, networking the right people….giving students, newbies a chance, is a great way of being a mentor. In turn, they will support YOU and broadcast you because of your love and generosity.

3. GET GOOD at INTEGRATING YOUR LIFE – Get good at mentioning your work, your business….when you pay someone for their service or goods, make sure to mention your product or service too. Ask for them to promote you, give them your business card.

Places I have given out my business cards: Clubs, Bars, House Parties, Relative Functions, Work Events, Cafes, Banks (to the teller), on the bus, on the train, etc

I also leave stacks of my flyers and business cards at every cafe I go to. Every outing is an opportunity to expand, to build influence. The right person will pick up your card at the right time. Don’t ever give up, always be ready to promote yourself.

4. Be A Teacher – when you teach, you become an EXPERT at what you do. I will be creating a video about this. I was at a cross roads in my life and didn’t know what to do to generate income, plus I hated the 9 to 5. I drew a chart with 3 columns.

1 was my Skills and Talents. I wrote down everything I knew how to do and was good at.

2 was my PASSION– what excites YOU? What can you remember in the past that created a fire in your heart?

3 was MY VISION– The ultimate purpose and fire of your life. WHAT is your vision? Mine was to empower and help others be who they were meant to be…I want to help people SOAR to their FULLEST and beyond what they can imagine. That is my vision.

I linked all 3 and decided that I could teach everything that I was good at. Then birthed my business. You can discover your life calling too!

Living OUT OF DESIRE RATHER THAN SHOULDS

On March 16, 2013March 16, 2013 By Rebekka LienIn business, faith, love, psychology, self- reflectionLeave a comment

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I don’t believe in the word “should”.

I believe in listening to my inner voice and listening to my body when it says that it is tired. However, I am NOT saying that you should listen when it’s trying to be lazy. There is a major difference here.

Most of us grew up thinking that success only comes from hard work. I believe this is true, partially.

I believe success COMES from SMART work, not HARD work.

For example, if you had a really bad system for working, and you kept doing the same thing 40 hours a week, you’re not being SMART….you’re just wasting time.

Most human beings probably can’t concentrate for more than 1.5 – 2 hours.

That is WHY I believe we should listen to our bodies and mind and feelings. When we need a break, we will start to lose focus. Do jumping jacks, run around the block.

For me, I go and watch a movie at the $2 movie theater or I walk around the neighborhood. I hang out with friends at random parts of my week, but that allows for some relaxation and fun….because once I’m back home, I am WORKING FRIEND!

When I have snapped back from having fun, I WANT to work.

I believe that HUMAN BEINGS are MOTIVATED by desire.

What do I mean by this?

If I tell you to sit at a desk for 10 hours a day, would you want to? Probably not.

If I tell you to sit and work on a project that you could potentially reap $20,000 from, would you do it? Yes.

Desire. You desire that money. For something, whatever it is.

If we could get RID of the SHOULDS and the CONTROL, we can start motivating people by knowing their inner DESIRES. Start to observe what your friends, your boss, your coworkers, your mom or dad, your relatives, your husband/wife, boyfriend/girlfriend DESIRE.

Most of us desire a better life.

This BETTER LIFE is DIFFERENT for everyone.

My desire is to live a life of leisure and smart work. I want to work smart, and reap immensely for my talent and skill. I desire to love and help people with my talent. It’s not really about “should”, I think it’s about conquering the fears that stand in the way of our desires….my desire is to build successful coaching and real estate businesses.

Like any other human being, I have fears too. I have fears of rejection, fears of failure, but everyday, I push through….because I believe in life, in myself, in people, in God, in promises fulfilled.

I believe in my childhood dreams, do you?