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BREAKTHROUGH TESTIMONY- Holy Spirit Cannot Be Quarantined

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Oh how the Lord broke through my heart today. The wonderful ways He breaks through my heart. I’ve been frustrated with people lately because I think people are going overboard with the virus issue, but DO YOU WANT TO HEAR ABOUT MY DAY?

I had a dream that a man was telling me to go to far away places. He drew out a map and I saw a motorcycle in the dream. Acceleration. I was sitting in a jacuzzi and I was in Hawaii. I realize I did want to go to far away places. I saw a blue door.

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When I woke up around 8:30 am I heard “go now”. I was doubting His voice, but I started getting ready. There was a game show interview but I heard “change it to tomorrow”.

“GO NOW”, again I heard. I started to get dressed and heard “wear pants, you’re going to run”. 

I started running after the bus. Immediately “talk to the driver”. He turned out to be Catholic and never grew up with his dad. He didn’t even know if he was alive. I shared my story with him, I could feel something in my heart. He offered me pork rinds.

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I get off. Walk around, get on the next bus, more men. This time a deaf guy asks for my number.

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I go to El Pollo Loco and I’m eating at the counter and am told not to, so then I hear them saying “china”. I’m hurt because I feel like they are making fun of me regarding the virus.

I call my friend. But I hear “ask for help”. I do, I try to call everyone I know. One replies. A guy I met at the Abbey. I tell him what happened and start crying. 

I go back to El Pollo and confront them. She said they weren’t making fun of me, they were just talking about my backpack. She apologizes, I feel better. I remember how this Mexican guy yelled at me during the Sars epidemic and told me to put on a mask.

I walk to the bus stop and meet a guy. He is muslim, I tell him about Jesus. We talk throughout the whole bus ride. He wants to be my boyfriend but I tell him my husband needs to be Christian. I tell him he needs to go see his parents and he said his parents have already offered him a plane ride but if he believes in Jesus, his parents may kill him.

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I feel weird, I feel something in my heart. I feel heat rise up to my face.

I take another bus back to Pasadena. I’m talking to another bus driver, a male again. I go to Target as God has been putting on my heart to get a bike. A guy helps me, and then another guy comes. Immediately I am drawn to him. He says he grew up Catholic and I share my faith with him.

I remember my first boyfriend was white and Mexican too.

I buy popcorn chicken. The lady tells me she remembers me….I was talking to the Christian lady that worked there last time.

I get on another bus and immediately see a guy with a thug life hat. He’s a lost sheep I know this. He is hard of hearing.  We talk and I offer him chicken. He says he is really hungry and going to work so I give him food, a lot of food. He tells me he has never had a girlfriend (or in a long time) and we are sitting together, I tell him I do ministry. We are trying our best to communicate. He says he is Catholic too, Mexican as well. Basically everyone I met today was Mexican.

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I lay hands on his ears, I’m not afraid of the virus. I’m more concerned about healing him. That’s what I do. Jesus is not afraid of people. He heals the sick.

I get off and hear “downey”, I was hearing it all day. Well, it’s late. I intend to go home because it is safe, but I walk past the local laundry mat and see a girl. I tell her I’m a Christian and she says me too! I ask for her info but she declines. She tells me she forgot her laundry yesterday and came back to get it.

God tells me to walk her home but she declines. She says “I don’t make friends, I keep things professional”. I ask “are you scared of people?” She says “yes”. 

I walk home but feel no peace. God am I hearing right? Am I doing too much? I mean I’ve talked to a lot of people today.

But yes, I follow the prompting (leave my house) and I go to the bus stop. It will take 3 buses to get there but I hear “ask for help” after I get off 260 S. Previously the Lord told me to call a guy friend and he says “you won’t believe what just happened, a girl just asked me for a ride and to buy her food”.

I get off the bus…I’m scared, sure. I spot a white truck and a man eating alone.

“Hi, I’m Christian and God told me to ask for help, can I have a ride to Downey? I am a prophet and I hear God’s voice”.

Conversation ensues and he buys me food. We start going towards home but I hear Downey again so I tell him to turn around. He tells me his daughter and him have cancer. He tells me he went through a similar issue as my dad. I start crying, big big tears. He tells me his dad left them too, 8 kids.

I’m crying and I can’t stop. This is what God wanted, a breakthrough in my heart. Because I was praying for people to be delivered of the deaf and mute spirit. I felt muted, emotionally. I felt an emotional breakthrough.

But now, heat was rising up my throat and to my face, circulation was happening. Something spiritual. I felt loved. My face felt hot.

I prayed over him and told him HE WAS NOT A SINNER because JESUS MADE HIM WHOLE. I TOLD HIM TO RECITE “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus”. He had done enough for his daughter, he was enough.

It reminded me that I needed to see my dad that way even if he didn’t raise me. That I needed to release him from hatred.

The man called an uber for me. I hugged him. He was healed too. He said he isn’t as close to his daughter anymore but he wanted to be closer to her.

A Vietnamese man picks me up. He is married. God tells me to tell him “I love you”. I say “Jesus tells you He loves you”. God tells me to give him $1. He is Buddhist. He says in America people love Jesus more. He is elated with $1. But there is significance. Whatever you give to, you will reap.

You will get married, God says. Whatever or whoever you give to, you will reap. If you are giving to someone who has breakthroughs and freedom in their life, you will reap it. If you give to someone who has a big calling and purpose on their life, you have the same. If a musician gives to you, you’re a musician. So forth, I’ve found God does this prophetically. He will often ask me to give or ask for donations depending on the situation of what needs to happen in peoples’ hearts.

My life is crazy on so many levels but I see the fruit before the seed even hits the ground.

GOD SHAKES ME on so many levels. He heals me on SO MANY LEVELS.

Maybe some people are afraid of the virus, but I see that GOD REALLY HAS NOT GIVEN ME A SPIRIT OF FEAR BUT OF A SOUND MIND! AND HEALING, WHOLENESS, RESTORATION. 

GOD IS GOOD! When I get home, my musician guy friend has given a donation. I see the double portion of fruit bearing. If you open your heart, you will receive in love and provision. If you ask, you will receive.

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Prophetic Word- Break Off The Yoke of Slavery

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Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2     He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3     he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
    for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
    through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
    for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
    they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.

THIS MORNING I FELT LED TO MAKE THIS VIDEO around 7am.

Today I met two specific people that I want to talk about. This man’s parents died and left an inheritance, but will not allow him to have it until he gets married. He said that when he was young, he gave $300 to his friend and his parents yelled at him for it, said he was irresponsible. So they passed away and would not give him his inheritance. So he was eating a sandwich out of a plastic bag and had these broken bags.

I PRAYED TO BREAK OFF THE SPIRIT OF LACK AND SAID THAT HE DID NOT NEED HIS PARENTS’ MONEY NOR A WIFE, that he was NOT LACKING in anyway, that when God sees HIM HE ONLY SEES JESUS! 

GRACE will enable him to see his worth.

He asked me “I have to read the bible to stay away from sin right?” I said “God has already cleaned you of all sin, you have no sin in you”.

I heard “rest in me, don’t strive”.

And then He will live out of overflow, not out of a place of feeling like he was not doing right or not doing enough. He was on his way to see a friend who constantly yelled at him, he even drew a card to apologize.

But I heard “YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR HER HAPPINESS”.

Then on the way to Glendale (which is what I heard the Lord told me to go to)….I went to eat, then went into the bathroom of Capital One.

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There a woman was listening to Christian music. I yelled from the bathroom stall- “are you Christian?” She said “yes”.

She turned out to be a prophet as well, but was heavily accused and rejected by the church.

I SAID “YOU ARE ENOUGH”. She started crying. She was trying to prove herself, by speaking about prophetic things. But she said she was having a hard day and was praying the Lord would send someone to her, and God told me that morning “go to Glendale”. I’m glad I listened. She also heard the Lord say “you sing, you dance, you draw right? You sing on pitch”…God hears.

But I SAID “YOU don’t need to prove yourself to me, just be yourself”. I held her and we prayed on the street. 

OH happiness. Joy. God. BREAK OFF THE SPIRIT OF LACK accusing your children. Happy day, God. SONSHIP! OH YOU ARE ADOPTED BY GOD! YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD! OH YOU’VE DONE ENOUGH! I felt this Energy COLLIDING when I prayed with her. Powerful. 

I realize SO many Christians have very little idea of how to be loved by God, God is not a mean father judging you from heaven. He is not saying “omg she or he has failed again”.

GRACE means HE DOESN’T EVEN SEE IT. 

That empowers you to FOLLOW JESUS even more, with life, with gratitude. BECAUSE YOU ARE FREE! 

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YOU ARE FREE UNDER GRACE!

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Be a hypocrite.

THANK YOU JESUS FOR FREEING ME!

I didn’t realize that I started to monitor my actions recently based on what people have said to me. People have questioned me and attacked me, it started to make me doubt and speak in a lower register (in terms of boldness).

I realize that I can’t be wrong because in God’s eyes I have been made righteous. So even if I was wrong, I can’t be punished for being wrong. I am free in Christ Jesus.

The result of your life isn’t dependent on your works, and how perfect you are, but by GRACE. Your dreams won’t come true because you’re super hard working or because you did everything right, it will be by GRACE. People aren’t impacted by you because of you, but because of Christ in you.

So if you start to put the burden on yourself to accomplish, achieve, strive, perform- you are starting to live from a place of the law, not grace. 

KEEP PUSHING FORWARD, I don’t CARE IF PEOPLE think you are crude, or unrespectable, or a little bit off, KEEP LIVING IN FREEDOM AND NOT PRETEND TO BE SOMETHING YOU ARE NOT. The religious spirit will tell you you’re doing wrong because you don’t fit into their expectations, but keep dancing!

2 Samuel 6:14-22

And David danced before the Lord with all his might, wearing a priestly garment. So David and all the people of Israel brought up the Ark of the Lord with shouts of joy and the blowing of rams’ horns.

Michal’s Contempt for David

But as the Ark of the Lord entered the City of David, Michal, the daughter of Saul, looked down from her window. When she saw King David leaping and dancing before the Lord, she was filled with contempt for him.

They brought the Ark of the Lord and set it in its place inside the special tent David had prepared for it. And David sacrificed burnt offerings and peace offerings to the Lord. When he had finished his sacrifices, David blessed the people in the name of the Lord of Heaven’s Armies. Then he gave to every Israelite man and woman in the crowd a loaf of bread, a cake of dates,[b] and a cake of raisins. Then all the people returned to their homes.

When David returned home to bless his own family, Michal, the daughter of Saul, came out to meet him. She said in disgust, “How distinguished the king of Israel looked today, shamelessly exposing himself to the servant girls like any vulgar person might do!”

David retorted to Michal, “I was dancing before the Lord, who chose me above your father and all his family! He appointed me as the leader of Israel, the people of the Lord, so I celebrate before the Lord. Yes, and I am willing to look even more foolish than this, even to be humiliated in my own eyes! But those servant girls you mentioned will indeed think I am distinguished!”

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Religious spirited people hate it when you dance, because dancing has no rules or laws. It is free. It is an act of freedom. 

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Divine Appointment With An Uber Driver

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I’m ALWAYS blown away by how the Lord leads me.

Today for some reason I didn’t eat until 10:30pm. I thought about going somewhere close, but I felt a craving for hot pot. I called an uber as it was not far away….watch the video to see what happened next.

God is not a respecter of persons, GOD WILL USE ANYONE OR ANYTHING. He is present at a gay club, He is present in New Zealand, He is present and He will use ANYONE. He will use a Buddhist, a Muslim, He will use a Samaritan, a prostitute.

Are you open to how the Holy Spirit leads?

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You Are Enough

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You are enough, you are not lacking.

You deserve love.

You deserve good things.

You deserve to have.

You deserve to relax and rest.

You are intrinsically VALUABLE.

You are not valuable because you have money, or because you’ve accomplished things, you are valuable because YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD. 

YOU ARE A CHILD OF GOD.

He loves you so much He died on the cross for you. He doesn’t love you because you worked for His love, He doesn’t love you because you’re nice to Him all the time, He doesn’t love you because you do all the right things….

Jesus loves you unconditionally.

When God sees you He sees Jesus. You are unblemished. Whole. Not lacking anything. You have done enough. You can rest in His perfect GRACE. 

It’s a complete payment.

From God-

“Hey KID!

You don’t need to prove your worth to me. I want to bless you unconditionally. I don’t bless you because you worked for it, I bless you because you are my child. I bless you not because you always say or do the right thing. By the way, you are right in my eyes so there is no wrong thing.

The message of the cross is powerful through you not because you always have the right grammar….it’s because I live on the inside of you. You can raise the dead and heal the sick because I live on the inside of you. You carry my presence in your being. 

I am so excited for what’s ahead for you. But I want you to know that you are enough now. I only see perfection in you because the blood of Jesus covers you. I don’t see your sins or imperfections. Where are they? I don’t see them. 

I don’t see stupidity like your dad said, or your mom said. I see the smartest kid alive. You’re amazing, awesome, I’m so happy to be your dad.

I’m so proud of you. Thank you for being my child. Hey, let’s have fun together. Let’s go on adventures. I’m going to bless you everywhere you go, you have favor on your head.”

I personally never felt totally ready when I stepped into what God was calling me to, but God would tell me “you are enough”.

I never had the funds for what He was calling me to do.

Sometimes I was a at a deficit. I was at a negative.

But then God would provide. 

Because “the Lord is my shepherd I lack nothing”.

So when I needed courage, when I needed to speak, I spoke not from my own wisdom or understanding, but I spoke what I heard or felt, without preparation. The Bible says “don’t prepare when you speak in front of authorities, the Holy Spirit will speak through you”.

But when they hand you over, do not worry about how to respond or what to say. In that hour you will be given what to say. For it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. Matthew 10:20 

The other day the Lord told me to pray for a woman who was being arrested. Two cops were taking things out of her pocket.

I opened my mouth and asked “can I pray for her?” 

One cop yelled “NO! What’s wrong with you? Keep walking!!”

And I started walking but sobbing. His yelling shocked me but helped me cry.

I started praying for her because I knew she was oppressed, not a criminal. I kept saying “she didn’t do anything wrong” to myself. That day I was feeling condemned and felt guilt try to oppress me. God works in strange ways to war, but you are righteous in God’s eyes because of His sacrifice.

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Testimony From A Brother In Christ

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A couple of nights ago, I was in the negative in my bank account and the Lord told me to go dancing. That night I met a director, a model, and an actor, a guy from Bangledash and some other people. When I was about to walk out of the car I saw someone had sown into my ministry. I felt God’s assurance that He was providing and His hand was on me.
I decided to ask him what his story was as I usually do ask, I want to get to know my family. Here’s his story. 
Haha well my “story” is far too long and would take up multiple books to tell it all but I will tell you a little.
So I saw your video posts on facebook almost a year ago as you were part of one of the groups I am in on facebook.  I followed you just a little bit but not much as I follow other ministries as well and I don’t care a whole lot for social media  (trying to change that as media presence is important today of course).
However I had many financial issues months ago and am still recovering after yet another attack from certain occult members and witchcraft against my finances.  So I was without internet for awhile and other things so I lost touch with your ministry.  Last month I started a new job building welding equipment and it was the position I had prayed for.
I have tithed for years now but never gave first fruits and despite how bad my situation was I did not care- this time I was giving my first fruits.  I prayed and made a list for almost 2 weeks and asked the Lord which ministries and how much to give.  At first you were not on my list.

Then Friday your name and face popped back into my mind.  It has been hard to hear the Lord at times lately but  perceived that he was saying that you were in need.  I took my old laptop to McDonalds and was giving to other ministries and I checked back up on you on facebook and saw one of your recent posts of being in need so I looked up your website- now knowing of course that my discernment was correct – and gave  a scriptural giving first (the 6:20 from Matthew 6:20.) however I knew that was not enough of course so moments later I gave again.

As for me- I am Roger Raymond Ballog.  Some call be Gypsy which people started calling me years ago because I am a Roma Gypsy and I am a lead guitarist and singer and composer of Christian Rock music so I just went with that name for years but now I prefer Roger B haha.
I live in Clarksdale MS – you may have heard of it it is the place with that infamous cross roads where many famous musicians have gone to sell their soul and I am totally against it of course and the demonically charged music in this area which is mostly blues.  I been saved awhile.
I am the first Holy Ghost filled and saved person in my family and am very persecuted because of it.  My family hold to false religious stuff and superstition.  Most are Catholic and also practice witchcraft of fortune telling or some form of paganism and think that is ok to put next to God.
I wanted no part after the Holy Spirit started leading me.  But as you would guess I did not come up believing.  The Lord tried to talk to me when I was a kid- but so were many other spirits.  Later when I was in my early 20s (I am now 32 going on 33)  I met a man just a little older than me and he was the first Holy Ghost filled person I ever met. He was differant.  When he spoke to me he told me about the Lord and dared me to go to church so I did.  But not because of the dare actually.  See as he was speaking the Holy Spirit was downloading into me and telling me that Jesus was the source of my needs and desires and the answer to my problems. 
So I went to church at local 1st Assembly of God where my new friend in Christ James went.  I did not own a car so I walked in cold, snow, rain I did not care.  I mostly wore black and leather and had long hair in those days so I know i looked wierd to these churchy religious people.  At that time I did not know God’s ways but I wanted to know him.  So I went.  James discipled me a little and then we just kinda lost touch.  The Lord started leading me differently tho and I started to change.  I did not at first agree with the bible.  It offended me and I did not believe it so I threw it at the wall and swore it.  But I kept seeking Jesus and prayed heavily seeking to hear from God.
He started to come and speak to me very clearly and he would tell me things and when I would look them up on a computer –  I would find it was a bible verse!!  Many verses in the bible he told me before I found them or even knew it was a bible verse.  So I put aside my offense and started reading it.  Then I was led to another church- 1st United Pentecostal.
A very old timey church but full of sweet people who knew the Lord.  I knew I had to get baptized and receive Christ.  So I did there and went there for years.  After sometime I felt I had received the spirit but could not speak in tongues or something was holding me back from fully receiving the spirit.
Years later I found out why-  witchcraft and occult crap as well as spirits hindering me like the spirit of rejection.  So I later got deliverance and spoke in tongues and received the spirit.  I have seen Jesus do many outlandish miracles in my life that shock people.  I myself walk in miracles at times and it is cool.
I love praying for others and seeing them get healed or set free from demonic  oppression or supernaturally fixing things through the power of spoken word.  At the moment I am trying to get my life back together and finish my first EP.  I am also taking ministry classes amongst other things.  I am an odd guy.  I am very different from others.  I don’t seem to really fit in any crowd really.  I am especially growing tired of religion and churchiness at the moment. 
I want to see great spiritual movements of God and people being blessed, healed and delivered and set free.  I see life as a musically- literally.  I want the whole world singing and dancing in the streets and losing their mind praising God. Even singing as they work instead of complaining or being negative.  Ok I will shut up now haha.
Thank you Roger for obeying Jesus when He put me on your mind.
This was another confirmation that the Lord is continuing to bring lost sheep to me, those who are a bit different, spirit led, creative folks.
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Thank you for the testimony Roger!

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“All the believers were together and had everything in common. Selling their possessions and goods, they shared with anyone who was in need. Acts 2:44”

 

 

Love Is Not Kept, It Is Experienced

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I heard God say “Love is not kept, it is experienced”.

Sometimes when we lose someone that we loved in our life, we feel like something is missing. You were never lacking, you just experienced love through this person.  You loved and you were loved. That’s divine.

Today I was going to uber somewhere and it malfunctioned. It was already noon and I hadn’t eaten breakfast or lunch. I decided to take the bus.

When I walked to the back of the bus I was surprised to see a guy I previously met on the bus and ministered to. We talked and I started to feel anxiety because he kept talking about how everything is lacking. I tried to encourage him and I heard God say “don’t try to change him, just get to know him”. Well, how do I do that God when he is speaking from so much lack. I tried to tell him how I backpacked 30 countries and how there is so much in the world, dreams, visions, I wanted him to see the possibilities and not to just live for his grandparents. He would even say “well I don’t go out because then I have to spend money”.

I tried to tell him how I felt, he was like a brother to me. I realize I have the habit of trying to fix someone and I know it’s not my job to, God wants me to understand relationship, it’s about just being with someone. Love is about understanding and accepting where people are at in that moment. You need to love yourself in that way too, wherever you are, whatever state you are in, accept where you are.

The next bus I transferred to had a mentally unstable man. He had a spiderman web tattoo on his hand and AWOL tattooed to the top of his eyes, under his eyebrow. He was talking to himself.

I heard the Lord say “pray for him”, but I kind of didn’t want to. There were other people on the bus across us. Finally I made some comment. I looked him in the eye and asked what his name was. He became normal all of a sudden, I guess that is what human contact does.

He said he does meth sometimes when he is depressed, it helps him clean out.

I asked if he knew Jesus and he said not really. I prayed to cast out the spirit of suicide. He bowed his hands and put his hands together like a prayer emoji. People were watching us.

I finished praying and then he said “can we make out?”

I said “no”.

He said “I can see Jesus looking at us, smiling, saying ‘I am so proud of you two'”.

Then he started to get off the bus, he said “I love you Rebekka”.

I said “I love you two”.

He’s like “this area is just full of crime and stuff”.

Then he was off.

I felt warm in my heart. God, I know I complained when you told me to pray for him, but I get it now. It’s love. Love is to be experienced.

Sometimes we don’t want to put ourselves out there, because it’s scary, but love is to be experienced.

When you’re hurt by someone, it doesn’t mean they took anything from you. You were never lacking. When you’re hurt, when you lose someone, that’s all that is. Life.

Then more love will come, from God, from people, through people, but they are conduits of love, not someone to be kept (to be locked down, to be controlled). They are children of God, images of God, reflections of yourself.

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So while God has been bringing me to different men, to meet, to talk to, to minister to…there are some I am actually attracted to, and I find myself closing my heart because I don’t want to get attached in anyway knowing they are not my future husband…but I realize, it’s not about that, it’s about simply opening my heart to love.

I’m scared that I’ll lose someone and they’ll just disappear, like my dad.

I’m scared that I’ll get attached and suddenly they are not there anymore, and then I’ll have to feel pain. I hate the feeling of pain, no one likes pain. But that’s the beauty of love.

Experience every emotion, and then move through it. Don’t avoid the feeling. Don’t run from it. Embrace it, and then love again.

Don’t live in regret that you got hurt by someone, or that you chose to love someone….

Everything you experienced was love.

Sure, you may not have married your high school sweetheart but every person you loved was an experience of love.

Love is not kept, love is experienced.

I experience love through every stranger I meet.

Sometimes I am deeply hurt by people I minister to or are friends with. Sometimes their words pierce my heart and I want to cry. I do cry. Sometimes I weep. But all of that is my human experience, love experienced.

I never lacked anything or anyone. I don’t lose anything when I lose someone I love, because they were simply an expression of God’s love to me. 

In that way I don’t have to regret any experiences of hurt or love, I don’t have to regret even hurting myself. I learned from it, I learned to love myself.

You don’t have to be afraid of love my friends, open your heart, you will get hurt but you will be loved too. 

You may not be part of my life forever, but you are here to show me a part of God’s love. I receive that and I can freely give love too. You are not taking away anything from me. You are simply receiving love from God through me. We don’t own anyone, we don’t own our family or our friends.

This way, I can freely release you when it’s time to, if I have to. I can allow you to love whoever you choose to love. And when I lose you, I know God will send others too.

When I meet my husband, I can love from a place of abundance knowing I never lacked anyone or love, that I was always whole in God’s eyes. 

Congrats to those who are getting married soon by the way 🙂 Love you!

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I Can’t Please Anyone, I Can Only Be Myself

On By Rebekka LienIn forgiveness, God, healing, health, jesus, lifecoach, love, solo travel, therapy, travel, writerLeave a comment

I was laying on my couch in a fetal position. I don’t know, I was scared. If you’re in relationship with people, you’ll get hurt and you’ll hurt people. I’m petrified to be in relationships with new people, I’ve been really hurt in the past 2 years (doing ministry).

That’s something I did not feel like going through. And now, people were actually being nice to me, they were approaching me, messaging me, saying they liked me a lot.

But it’s scary when people are nice to you, because any minute they can betray you and one wrong thing can tick them off (I’ve realized). Maybe they never told you how they actually felt and they were bottling everything inside and now one thing you’ve done wrong have totally pissed them off. 

What about all the things you’ve helped them with? It seems that it no longer matters. It happened to me, and it frightened me how quick people could change.

I realize because the last couple of months I’ve experienced a lot of judgement and rejection from people around me. Some were unintentional, and some well, I was confused by it. How could I have done it better? I’ll think. I thought it was maybe better to not deal with people, yet there were people all around me.

Ministry is that, people.

I am not perfect, my word is not final. God’s is. Everyone must hear God for themselves, not rely on a teacher, preacher or prophet.

I think I’m petrified in making a mistake in relationships. It’s easy to prophesy and leave, but to actually manage peoples’ hurts and emotions, and not to take on the responsibility to heal them- give it to God. 

That’s the hard part. Ministry is so hard.

I’m a human too, I have emotions. It hurts to be rejected and judged because everyone has triggers, everyone has past hurts. Something I might say may trigger someone and then when they blow up, I feel like it’s my fault. But I know it’s not, yet, it takes time to recover. 

I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus.

Welcoming new people into my life is difficult, it takes courage, it takes grace.

I am not perfect, I am perfect in God’s eyes sure, but I may not always know how to act or be, and that’s why I need to realize, it’s not on me to make others happy, I just need to know I am enough in God’s eyes, be myself and be gracious towards myself if someone gets hurt. 

I can ONLY be myself, write authentically, speak truthfully and obey God for myself.

I cannot be responsible for your emotions and your life. I cannot take on false burdens and responsibility and try to make YOU happy.

People come to me and tell me not to write a specific or certain thing and I start doubting, “God should I change what I write so they won’t feel bad or be triggered?” and I often hear “just be honest”. 

I can’t change how I write, what I say, who I am. I just have to continue being myself. 

I know I am influential and I have a platform, but it’s a platform God gave me – not to please anyone, but to be 100 PERCENT myself. If I change what I write to please you, I’ll not be myself. I can try to communicate and understand your story, but I can’t change who I am to appease men. 

Please do not rely on me, please do not think I’m the ultimate voice. Please don’t put that much power in me.

I’m learning to live from a place of freedom versus fear, a place where I can be totally myself and not try to please anyone, or play defense all the time, just waiting for when someone gets ticked off and explodes.

I hope that there will be more people who actually tell the truth at all times and are not afraid of confrontation. 

I want these people in my inner circle and I believe it is a safe place to be, no judgement or rejection, but only honesty and love. We’ve all been hurt before, but it’s important to start speaking your truth to people even when it’s scary and know that you’re a child of God, loved by the heavenly Father.

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Prophetic Word- Confront The Fear

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I woke up this morning feeling really paralyzed, I haven’t washed my hair for 2 days (a rare occasion), my period is coming and I realize I needed help to overcome the fear of punishment/condemnation. There was a situation that I needed to confront with my mother. I find that God uses money the most for me to confront fears. For example, asking her for money. Because that is the biggest source of worry and condemnation in her life.

We struggled with money growing up and God has sent me to live with her to help her break off the spirit and fear of lack. I had always grown up very independent but I never knew my worth as a child. I was ashamed to ask for help and prided myself in being independent.

Prophetic Word- DO THE ACTION THAT WILL CONFRONT THE FEAR 

We ask God to upgrade or promote us, but that means there are more opportunities for the public to criticize you. God will never give you more than what you can handle. Is it easy? HELL NO.
IT’S really hard.

And a big part of me wants to run and hide.

And I do, sometimes. I run and hide and I don’t want to put myself out there to be hurt or judged.

The more we can go to God to mend our wounds, the quicker we can get healed and walk forward.

When we submit to FEAR instead of listening to GOD, AS HARD AS IT IS IN THE MOMENT, we stagnate our progress.

We SO want to be in control, we want to be in a safe place emotionally, ALL THE TIME. We want to be in control of peoples’ reactions, but we can’t control them.

I pray all the time PROTECT MY HEART. But I still get hurt, I get wounded and I don’t want to get up. I want to hide.

“I’m RIGHT HERE” says the Lord.

He never left you nor forsook you.

I’m a safe place, says the Lord.

Today I pray the LORD BREAK OFF THE SPIRIT OF FEAR IN JESUS NAME. The vision I saw was a picture of me in a royal robe, a dress, I am royalty. You are royalty, nothing will phase you. You are deserving and worthy.

Knowing this, Ask God to Go with you to do the ACTION to confront the fear..

+ God may be asking you to confront a person
+ He may be asking you to step out of your comfort zone
Whatever it is, know that God is with you.
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What is your BIGGEST FEAR? 

Telling people how you actually feel? Asking for help? Emotional, financial or spiritual help? Performing? Marketing yourself? Asking for a raise? Fundraising?

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It's so easy to stay small, to stay in our comfort zone, to do what is familiar. But flowing in the wave of the holy spirit means stepping out into the unfamiliar. YES you might hate it at times, but God will always (1)

I have not gone into everything with boldness, I’ve gone into most things feeling the FEAR, feeling the apprehension, but God eases me and says “I’ve got you”. Fear is fake, fear is a skeleton that flaps his hands, he can do no harm.

UPDATE! IN THE LAST HOUR.

My Provision Testimony – 

So I had been worrying about finances as sometimes I’m afraid to move forward or go out as I don’t see a way (in the dream I was telling a friend that there was a deficit I had to pay off from last year) and then God gave me a dream where I was opening books (different books and each one had cash inside) and there was Taiwanese money inside one book, but I had left it somewhere.

In the dream the water in the pool became a slide. The water rose up and went down. And people were sliding down into this safe place.

And then this morning someone who lives in Taiwan sowed a seed. It was the exact amount I saw in the dream.

LOL.
Jesus.

So I don’t know what you are going through, God may not provide everything you need for a month, but He may provide what you need for the day.

Don’t live in fear because you don’t see a way for a few days, if He has given you enough for today, move forward in courage and live your life flowing with the Holy Spirit.

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Love Letter From God- You Are A Child

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Dear Child,

You know how kids run around? They throw tantrums, they draw on the wall, they fall and run, they spill juice? I want you to be like that. I want you to freely talk to strangers and not be afraid of judgement or rejection. You are free. You are wild. Be that. Now I am setting you free from many fears that you’ve accrued in your life.

You got rejected by a class mate, you tried to be friendly to someone on the street, they yelled at you. You became afraid, you tried to hide. 

You were betrayed by friends, you failed math or chemistry, you started to feel like a failure. You could never meet your parents’ expectations, life wore you down and you kind of just gave up. 

Well, I want you to know that you are perfect in my eyes, run around again- Like that free kid. 

And maybe you never got that kind of childhood, but I’m teaching you now. Hey you have freedom to be a child. I will never yell at you. I will never criticize you. I will only pick you up when you fall. I will give you a hug and say “I love you, I’m so proud of you for trying, I love those drawings on the wall.

I’m not concerned about the dirt on your pants or the dirt in your hair, keep climbing trees freely. I’m not concerned about the couch, it’s just a couch. Jump freely on it.

I know they told you you had to sit still in church, but you can dance if you want.

I know there are times for discipline as a good father disciplines his children, but not in the way of judgement or condemnation, I will love you to me.

You are not all knowing, and that’s okay. You didn’t know that you would get hurt or that you would get into an accident, that’s okay. Keep living in freedom, don’t be afraid to try again. Your parents said “you should’ve known” but you didn’t. You were just living in freedom.

My children know their identity and they are free. Maybe you don’t feel like a child sometimes, maybe you are afraid to fail, maybe you are afraid of rejection, but do you know that I love you so much? 

It doesn’t matter that they reject you, you are so loved by me. I have so much love for you.

Come to me and come walk with me. I’m always by your side, I have never left you. Why do you think that I left you when all this time I was by your side? I am not people that I should leave you. There are times and seasons and not everyone is supposed to be there at all times, life is complex and there are seasons people need to move on and you need to move on from them too.

And that’s okay, because you will make new friends.

Children do whatever they feel like, they don’t sit there waiting for their dads to tell them what to do, they live in freedom. 

Of course I will guide you through your desire, I will give you directions to lead you to great things because I can see things ahead of you. But these are not instructions to limit you but to surprise you, to bless you. 

These are instructions to guide you so we keep walking with each other as you learn to trust me continually, you learn my character, you learn that I am reliable, that I am trustworthy.

I will never force you to do something you don’t want to. But as you trust and walk with me, you’ll see my heart of love for you. 

You are walking in your true identity as a child of God. You need nothing else. It’s so much fun, let’s also have fun together. Let’s break barriers and let’s go on adventures. 

You are enough, you’ve done enough, you are perfect in my eyes because of Jesus sacrifice. You don’t have to do things you don’t like anymore.

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