Yesterday I had this huge huge awakening. Something in my mind clicked after watching my Korean drama. I was so wooed by the romance in the drama that I thought to myself, why am I wooed by a drama, and not by life? Why am I not living out how I want to live?
Then I started journaling. I wrote an entry on why I am awesome (you should do that as well, it made me cry).
An excerpt of what I wrote: “I am awesome because I am extremely intelligent. I am beautiful, smart and wise. I am hardworking, creative and unique. I have a mind of my own and a heart of gold because I care for the poor and the oppressed. I’m funny, joyful and optimistic. I don’t let hardships get to me, even when they come, I persevere”.
WHY ARE YOU AWESOME? Write it down and you’ll be surprised how happy you’ll be.
Then I wrote WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF TODAY WAS YOUR LAST DAY LIVING?:
1. Apologize to anyone I ever hurt
2. Forgive everyone who’s hurt me
3. Smile more, laugh more
4. Take things lightly
5. Talk to family, appreciate them
6. Appreciate my friends and bf
7. Go outside more, watch the sunrise, go to the beach, enjoy nature
8. Say what’s on my heart and be thankful because this day IS A GIFT.
Most of us live life like it’s going to last forever. In fact, I do believe our souls live for eternity. However, our lifetime on earth is short. Recently, I realized how much had taken life for granted. I was complaining, discontent, mad that I had to go through so much longsuffering to become a successful artist. I was mad that I had taken such a unconvenient path, not knowing exactly where my money was coming from, living an unstable life…comparing myself mostly, and not ACCEPTING MY GIFT AND DESTINY.
Then I went for a walk. I became thankful for nature, for the silverlake reservoir, for all my friends and family that have been through EVERYTHING with me. I had so many breakdowns, I can’t remember how many times my friends have comforted me. I remember how money showed up in weird places, how my boyfriend took care of me when I was sick, how my mom cooked for me when I was broke, and the list goes on.
I’m truly thankful and I want to live each day like it’s my last, without grudges, being thankful ALWAYS.
What would YOU DO if TODAY was your last day living? (comment below)
Would you dance like no one is watching? Karaoke at the top of your lungs cuz you don’t give a shi#!?