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Living Against Cultural Norms

On By Rebekka LienIn entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, lawofattraction, love, philosophy, prophetic word, Relationships, self- reflection, spirituality, travel, writer

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Living Against Cultural Norms 11/25/2018, 9th day in Shanghai China, 4 months overseas, written in the middle of the night on my notebook.
I’ve gone through more challenges than I would care to experience following Jesus and ministering to people in different countries. It’s easy to hide behind a computer but when you are interacting and living with people on a daily basis you’ll face many objections and challenges.

For one, sexism.
Another, the spirit of intimidation and control (witchcraft).
Another, hurt.
There were times I had to ask people to put their phones on silent mode in the dorm rooms. In a 8 bed dorm room you’ll encounter plenty of people.

When I asked this guy to silence his phone as all kinds of sounds were coming from his phone (BTW the first night I got woken up by someone watching porn on their phone, no headphones), he ignored me and pretended I didn’t exist.

He finally got off his bed, which is the top bunk above mine.

When I confronted him, he looked away and pretended I didn’t exist.
Then he stared at me and said “are you crazy? Why are you staring at me?”
I was speechless.
This kind of person exists in this world?
When I told other chinese people about it they said I should just ignore it. They ignore many things. To them it’s part of life- longsuffering.

I believe God calls us to forgive and love our enemies, but He doesn’t call us to be silent.

In fact, a prophet is supposed to speak in the face of opposition, persecution and intimidation.

This week I also showed my past TV appearance videos to some people. They were shocked as I was “skinnier” and “prettier” back then, they said.

I said “I didn’t know who I was back then, I felt that I needed to put on makeup but now I don’t feel the need to put on a “face” for anyone.

But those words still affected me and I had to climb out of the “feeling of not being enough” hole. The truth is I didn’t each much back then out of the fear of lack and the fear of gaining weight. When moments like that occur I have to look at Jesus and reaffirm “I am enough in Christ Jesus”.

I had a dream last night I hadn’t changed water in a tank for 3 weeks and the fishes were in a really thick shampooed filled liquid.

I had another dream a woman pastor layed her hands on my head and I started sobbing. When I woke up I could hear myself crying.

The process of loving others is not easy. I find myself angry and hurt at times, laughing at other times.

I share my testimonies and of God’s grace to people who aren’t perfect- like me.
People who are scared of intimacy, vulnerability, letting anotone into their hearts, people who carry a spirit of lack and don’t feel like they are enough, people who feel guilt and shame and sometimes have no capacity to give me any love because they haven’t embraced God’s love.

Even though I experience joy in these friendships， I’m ultimately still a pastor, minister, prophet.

Its not a 2 way street. I may be sharing intimate parts of my heart but I am never to look for belonging or acceptance from people I minister to because my home is God, no one else.

Perhaps the joy I felt caused me to think that I’ve found new friends, but close friends are people who can actually level up with you.

God will humble you and cause your heart to be enlarged, but your heart will also have to process continual rejection and persecution.

Most of the time people don’t understand me but my job is to share what is on God’s heart and know my belonging is in God.

Being a pastor to the lost sheep is not easy.

It’s a calling for people who will surrender to their hearts continually to God.

It’s a calling for warriors.
It’s a calling for those who won’t give up in the face of strong opposition.

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Don’t Stay Stuck

On By Rebekka LienIn culture, dating, dream, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, lawofattraction, love, prophetic word, psychology, relationship, Relationships, self-help, solo travel, spirituality, travel, writer

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Prophetic Word November 23, 2018
One of the tactic of the enemy is to make you think you’ve found your nest with people you think you belong with. But you know their true character.

They are not your destiny.

Your belonging is in Christ, not in people.
The enemy will send people to make you feel comfortable or familiar and because you’ve felt “alone” for so long you will think “maybe this is where I belong”, but

ARE they pushing you to GROW or allowing you to be STUCK in mud?

True friends will pull you out of the mud and not allow you to stay in it or even allow you to drown in mud.

Beward of wolves in sheep skin, they might even be your family members or friends.
A true prophet will not say what you want to hear but tell you the truth. A desire to fit in and be accepted by those around you will be detrimental to your growth.
You belong to God.
You are already accepted and approved by God.
Your only way is forward.

Beware of those who want to entertain you with mud (the past) because God wants you to move forward.
You must push through the familiar voices, they are distractions from your destiny and true freedom.

Beware of those who just say what you want to hear or give advice that allow you to stay stuck.
Not everyone will make it out. Some will stay in the mud.

You don’t dim your light to accommodate peoples’ darkness, you shine your light- even brighter to bring change to darkness.

 

Just because it feels comfortable doesn’t mean it’s a path from God. Sometimes the more you find your freedom the more you should face and confront difficult conversations and blockages. 

Because your path to FREEDOM comes with battles.

 

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PROPHETIC WORD FOR WOMEN!

On By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dream, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, law of attraction, lifecoach, love, prophetic word, Relationships, solo travel, spirituality, therapy, travel, writer

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The enemy has silenced women for so long with guilt, shame, accusation and intimidation BUT WHEN YOU know you are pure and righteous by the BLOOD OF JESUS you will RISE SO HIGH. YES I JUST FEEL LIKE GOD IS SAYING COME OUT OF HIDING!!! YOU HAVE NOTHING TO PROVE, BECAUSE I’VE ALREADY PROVED IT ON THE CROSS. YOU don’t have to defend yourself because I AM YOUR GREAT DEFENDER!

RISE and SHUT THE ENEMY UP.

ASK FOR WHAT YOU NEED AND WANT. YOU don’t have to SUGAR COAT IT because I’ve PAID THE PRICE FOR IT!

You deserve it. YES I JUST SILENCE THE VOICE OF INTIMIDATION AND GUILT. NO YOU ARE NOT GUILTY OF THE PAST, YOU MAY HAVE MADE MISTAKES BUT JESUS has WASHED YOU CLEAN.

YES you are NOT AN ORPHAN, you are a mighty child of GOD! People will judge you or accuse you but your LAWYER JESUS says “you are righteous by the blood of Jesus, there is NO condemnation for those that are in CHRIST JESUS”.

It’s time to remove the shackles of fear and guilt.

YES GOD. WE DECREE AND DECLARE there will BE NO MORE OCEANS to drown you but THE LORD will part the seas for you! I PRAY acceleration and I DECLARE all provisions and PEACE BE onto you. YOU ARE ENOUGH, you are NOT LACKING. I PRAY THE DOORS OF HEAVEN be OPEN, I PRAY everything that has YOUR NAME ON IT be RELEASED IN PERFECT TIMING.

YES LORD we AGREE.

Every weapon against you be destroyed in the NAME OF JESUS, every setback, every discouraging thought, every stronghold of depression or oppression be loosed from your mind and heart in JESUS NAME! Every anxious thought be replaced with YOUR LOVE JESUS!

Only YOU Lord can set us free. And you have already done that on the cross. SO WE CLAIM it, we inherit it as HEIRS on this CONTRACT signed by your BLOOD JESUS!

YES WE ARE HEIRS AND NOT ORPHANS! WE inherit every rightful authority, provision, blessing, restoration of relationships, right relationships, alignment of ministry and life calling, angels of protection and provision, health, and more in Jesus name!

 

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The Holy Spirit Vs. The Religious Spirit

On By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dream, faith, forgiveness, health, lawofattraction, love, prophetic word, self-help, spirituality, therapy, writer

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Often times when I ask to pray for people on the streets, bathrooms, malls, restaurants people ask me “what church do you go to?” as if a church would give me legitimacy. Some people ask me if I went to seminary, as if seminary gives someone legitimacy.

Without the holy spirit, it doesn’t matter what qualifications you have, you are still operating from the flesh and from a fleshly mind. 

For some reason people think that if you are with a specific church, then you are a true prophet. WRONG. There are plenty of false prophets that are in megachurches, that lead megachurches and are not filled with Jesus or the holy spirit.

The only thing that qualifies you is the fact that Jesus died on the cross for you and He paid for it, it’s the HOLY SPIRIT in me that heals sicknesses, diseases, heartaches, identity. It’s the blood of Jesus that heals, nothing else.

It’s not a name of the church that heals the sick, it’s not what theology I know that heals the broken hearted, it’s the name of Jesus and those who have a true relationship with Jesus.

It is the religious spirit that wants to disqualify people from walking in their calling to simply touch peoples’ lives and hearts by the pure unadulterated love of God. 

And the Holy Spirit can do whatever, whenever.

When God gave me a dream this week about China, I didn’t hesitate. Yes, I thought He initially wanted me to go to Paris in December, but when the Holy Spirit speaks, it doesn’t what preconceived notion you had, you move with Him.

So I booked a ticket to China. And I realized that God was speaking very loudly even before this dream. I had been staying in an airbnb where the owner had moved to China, someone from 10 years ago emailed me and asked if I was going to China anytime soon, I was craving Chinese food having been in South Africa for a month, the people around me were being called to China.

When God moves, you must move with Him. Before I went overseas, the Lord told me I was going to China as well, but I thought it was going to be later (2019) but there are people I need to pray for and timing is EVERYTHING.

There are so many people I would not have been able to reach or pray for if I didn’t obey God. People I prayed for just had job interviews, some just lost their jobs, some needed finances, some had broken hearts and severe backaches, hereditary diseases, some were running away from God’s calling. 

Some people, a few months after are no longer stuck. Some are living their calling, some have answered the call to ministry, some have learned more about their identity in Christ, but there are hundreds, even thousands of lives touched because I chose to say yes.

I’ve prayed for people in bathrooms, on buses, in restaurants, everywhere. It’s been a ride.

I am currently doing a fundraiser to raise funds for my on going ministry. Specifically I had to fund most of the trip on my own and when God finally told me to do a fundraiser, I realize that what I’m doing, is going to save lives, transform lives, change the world.

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Why I Left Everything To Follow Jesus

On By Rebekka LienIn christianity, culture, dating, dream, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, lawofattraction, love, Relationships, spirituality, travel, writer2 Comments

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Where do I even begin?

When I was young, I wanted to be a missionary but I didn’t want to live in a hut.

Slowly I started to believe a lie that I had to be successful in the world to be influential (or a light). I started pursuing my “dreams” and “goals” to be this successful and independent career woman. I was going to write books and speak around the world. I believe I am still going to do those things…however, my motive wasn’t right.

My motive wasn’t right because I didn’t believe that I was enough. 

I grew up with a single mom, didn’t see my dad for 10 years and grew up with a cloud of abandonment and rejection over my head.

God started to heal me. This road was long and strenuous.

I basically ran my own road thinking it was God’s. I ran myself dry. I was in a drought. I was still following God, but I wanted to do it my way.

The truth is I was running away. I was in pain, but I couldn’t face the pain of healing.

I went from running my own business to backpacking in Europe for 2 months, on my last leg of the journey I woke up from a dream where the Lord specifically told me to quit my career. When I went back all the finances dried up and the Lord told me to sell everything and follow Him. I was late on rent and my family was accusing me of living an irresponsible life.

So there I was laying at my friend’s house. God said “at 3pm you will know where to move”. Well, my mom had already offered up her place. The idea of living in a studio with my mother (who I have clashing personalities) did not seem like such a good idea.

But that’s exactly where God wanted me to be. And I surrendered. 

He wanted me to go through the grueling healing process of reconciling with my mother. I proceeded to spend 2 years living with her. During this time God also told me that I was a pastor to the lost sheep and that I was not to pursue any work opportunities. 

Imagine, you are almost 30 and the Lord tells you to rest.

All of society would be criticizing you, wouldn’t they?

Well, I went through the test of accusations left and right, until the point I knew who I was.

“I am a daughter of God and I am righteous in His eyes, I am approved by Him and not by men or women. I stand firm in this identity, Jesus paid the price for me”. 

After 2 years, the Lord said “it’s time to go”.

I packed my bags and went. I thought I would stay in Taiwan for a year, but the Lord actually wanted me to gather the lost sheep in different corners of the world. I went from no energy to praying for strangers on the street everyday. I went from timid to bold. I went from fearing to being fearless.

I went from needing recognition to simply being unknown. 

I wanted the spotlight but then I found identity in being loved by God. God led me through different industries like acting and real estate to show me that my worth couldn’t be found in any of that. 

Now, I spend days pursuing lost sheep. I ask to pray for people who laugh at me and reject me. I pursue sheep that avoid me because they know I will speak the truth to them. I climb mountains and dive deep to find the ones who have been wounded by religion or the church, I find those that are not believers in Jesus and I tell them Jesus loves them.

There are days I can’t stand the persecution, the pain, the rejection, the weariness, the attacks of the enemy and I’ll just cry to Jesus.

But I do it because Jesus changed me, He healed my heart of brokenness and He loves me.

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Prophetic Word- A Call To Ministry

On By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dream, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, lawofattraction, love, prophetic word, Relationships, self-help, solo travel, spirituality, travel

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Right now God is commissioning and sending out many people who have been on the edge of their own plans and God’s plans.

You see, Jesus walked on this earth and called many. He said “peter, follow me, you’ll be fishers of men”. Peter followed. Many left their homes and careers to pursue what Jesus was doing on this earth.

God is calling many right now. 

I have been talking to a lot of people and prophesying to “move forward”. For many that means quitting their jobs, moving, aligning themselves with where God is calling them. You see Jesus was always on the move on this earth. He never really settled too long in one place because His food was to do the Father’s will. 

There are so many Christians that are holding onto their own lives because they are afraid that the Father God won’t take care of them or provide for them. When Jesus told me to sell everything and follow Him, I was scared, but I followed because nothing else seemed to satisfy my heart.

The other day I got to prophesy over a young lady at the salon. God told me “she is a preacher”. I said “you are a preacher”. She said “I just want to work for myself”, but I felt the Lord say it so strongly…

It was a spirit of unworthiness that had her.

Many of us don’t believe we have what it takes, but it’s not us, it’s Jesus in us enabling and empowering us. 

I have prayed for hundreds of people on this trip, security guards, random strangers, anywhere and everywhere…and I noticed that God has just been calling through me to others “you are called to preach, you are called to be a missionary”.

But the fear of lack prevents many from moving forward.

Just yesterday the Lord finally gave me a huge breakthrough. He showed me that I was feeling unworthy because of past accusations. He showed me how many people accused me when I fundraised for my trips, some people from my past church told me “you don’t go to my church anymore so I won’t support you”, some like my mother said “why should people support you when they are working for their money”, some trolls on my blog even accused me by saying “get a real job”.

You see why I didn’t ever want to fundraise?

I had left everything already to follow Jesus, yet I was being dishonored, rejected and scorned.

By in obedience to the Lord Jesus I continued, casting my cares on Him.

He said to me “you are worthy, what you are doing is the most important work in this earth and in heaven, souls are being saved, people are being freed from fear. You prophesy dreams and work miracles. This is the only work, the Father’s will, that is worth doing”.

I sense many women especially are breaking free from expectations and pursuing what God has called them to do.

This does not mean that you may go to seminary or join an organization for the Holy Spirit is BREAKING structures and institutions so that the REAL work can be done. Institutions have often LIMITED what the SPIRIT wants to do. CHURCHES have LIMITED what the SPIRIT wants to do. FUNDS AND FINANCES HAVE BEEN RESTRICTED AND NOT GIVEN TO THOSE WHO ARE DOING THE REAL WORK OF GOD.

Women have not been able to PREACH at churches because of false ideas about verses in the bible. The reason Paul said that women are not allowed to preach is BECAUSE BACK IN THE DAYS there were WITCHES who were preaching in the church, they were involved in witchcraft…(if I remember right from my earlier research), basically they were not OPERATING OUT OF THE SPIRIT.

Anyways, that’s not the point…the point is that the Spirit lives in all believers, not just men.

Because of many archaic ideas about women preaching, we have not seen the full manifestation of what God wants to do on this earth. 

I am a pastor. I pastor people everywhere I go, I don’t have a title from a church,  God called me Himself….so if men say “women can’t be pastors” their real argument is “they can’t be recognized by people, they should NOT BE SEEN, THEY SHOULD NOT RECEIVE APPLAUSE”, but it’s not men who recognizes or approves of women, but GOD! They are basically saying “I don’t want woman to RECEIVE THE HONOR they are worthy to receive because I (A MAN) want ALL THE GLORY!” 

BUT TO GOD BE THE GLORY ALONE!

I pastor people and no one sees. I pastor people in hostels and on the streets, I listen to people who I don’t expect to give me anything in return. I do it because Jesus is loving through me. I follow Him because I am in love with Jesus.

I don’t do it for the recognition.

And if I ever followed Jesus for the recognition than Jesus definitely burned that out of me because He brought me to the lowly place….a pastor who will sleep in a 10 bed dorm room. A pastor who doesn’t own a phone right now.

Even when the religious spirit tried to block me from preaching, the Spirit sent me to different churches, as a new comer, with no notification (as a visitor, not a guest speaker) He would tell me to pray for people and eventually I’d pray for the pastor. And the Spirit would rain down on that church as I prayed and prophesied over them.

I’m TIRED OF people wanting the glory! It’s JESUS that gets the glory!

God is calling MANY OF YOU TO GIVE UP YOUR LIVES FOR HIM. For the anointing flows in surrender. Let the Spirit live and love through you.

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The Making Of A Prophet

On By Rebekka LienIn christianity, coach, dating, dream, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, lawofattraction, love, Relationships, self- reflection, self-help, solo travel, spirituality, travel, writer

 

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“But I tell you the truth, no prophet is accepted in his own hometown.”- Luke 4:24

I don’t wish that anyone be called by God to be a prophet, pastor, evangelists. What you see in America is not what being called actually looks like, most people don’t tell you what the process looks like to be called. 

The biggest struggle I’ve had to go through is being rejected, by everyone. The biggest lesson I learned in being rejected is that “I am worthy, I am enough”.

I’m going to tell you what it actually looks like to be called. Growing up in a conservative church, people didn’t really believe me when I told them that “God told me”. I had a ear for God early on, but didn’t know it was being spirit filled.

I listened and will follow Him where He was leading. I got booted out essentially by the conservatives. Later on I tried to pursue success in the world and failed miserably as God closed all the doors. He said “You are a pastor to the lost sheep”. 

Now He also called me after my failed attempt to be successful in the world to “sell everything and follow Him”. I proceeded to returned my leased car, my apartment that  I was already two months behind in rent, and I basically did everything that a model citizen wouldn’t do.

After years of being “independent” I moved back home with my mom. I felt like I was losing everything I built my life on. I lost my career, my laptop crashed, I didn’t have a sim card for 3 years.

The accusations got louder and louder- “what are you doing with your life? You are almost 30. Stop wasting your life. Get a real job”.

Well, God told me very specifically to rest and to follow His voice. So there I was praying for people on buses and on the streets. I didn’t know that my life would essentially look like that NOW but I am praying for so many more people on a daily basis.

You see, I looked like I was living an irresponsible life but I was setting people free from fear and bondage, I was healing backaches and speaking identity into orphaned hearted people. But that didn’t seem to matter to my mom. 

But in those 2 years God restored more of our relationship.

So I lost everything but I gained the Lord. Jesus.

All my vices suddenly disappeared as the Lord started healing everything wounded in me. I stopped wanting to drink whereas in my early twenties I often found myself drowning my pain in alcohol or going out with people.

Now people offer me alcohol and I just don’t want it. It’s not because of self-discipline but because God has took away any desire so that I can be sober minded.

It says to be vigilant for the enemy is always prowling to attack, this is true. I let my spiritual guard down when I am drunk. But now I am drunk with the SPIRIT of GOD. And it is INCREDIBLE.

In 2014 I also broke up with my ex and I stopped dating. Suddenly I didn’t need attention from men anymore. THAT WOUND HEALED. The Lord did it. You see even if a nice looking guy shows up I can read his mind and his spirit!

So what did the process look like? LOTS of tears and rejection. Being rejected by your own relatives, friends, being judged about your life. Traveling to places and sometimes not knowing what I would eat or if I had money to eat, being laughed at when I get in front of a stranger in front of a big crowd of people, being ridiculed. 

YES, people say “no” all the time when I ask to pray for them. Yes, people laugh at me.

When I tell people I’m a prophet, some laugh. Some people who don’t believe in Jesus laugh and ridicule me. Some people think I’m saying it to be boastful and they attack me.

But you know what I say “I don’t wish it upon anyone because the cost has been great”.

Now more than ever what I pray over people is this “you are enough in Christ Jesus, there is now no condemnation for those that are in Christ Jesus. You are righteous by grace and not by works”. This SETS PEOPLE FREE because they are no longer under judgement, but FREEDOM. 

I had to go through all that to know what IDENTITY MEANS.

The crazy thing is that the farther I went from Los Angeles, the more I was actually honored as a prophet and as a human being. Above is a picture of my brother in Christ. I have received such encouragement from people I have met here, in Japan and in Korea. Though I was once dishonored and rejected, God is restoring honor to me.

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You Are Already In Your Promise Land

On By Rebekka LienIn dream, entertainment industry, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, Hollywood, lifecoach, love, relationship, spirituality, travel

I received the revelation that “I’m already in my promise land” when I watched Toure Roberts’ message last night. Thank you PT!

I was having a lot of spiritual warfare and nightmares where the devil was trying to choke me or stop me, but when I heard that “I was already in my promise land” and that is why the enemy is doing everything he can to stop me, I was filled with joy.

Yes, right. What was my promise land anyway?

I stepped into my calling and owned my identity, that’s my promise land. Nothing around me really changed, I didn’t move (Yet), I didn’t have an increase in finance or an immense amount of material increase, NO ONE around me promoted me or gave me a life changing opportunity….but what did God increase IN ME? 

God increased BOLDNESS in my faith.

God increased PEACE and SPIRITUAL AUTHORITY IN ME.

I also finally had the BOLDNESS To STEP into my calling as a prophet/preacher/pastor- ppp.

I didn’t go to seminary, no one ordained me. But the Holy Spirit pushed a button within me, God activated me and said “It’s time” after a LONG TIME in the wilderness. I spent about 2 years just resting and in hiding while God was healing my heart.

I didn’t need anyone’s approval anymore even though the struggle was REAL on the outside even with family member’s asking me why I haven’t gotten a REAL job.

Last time someone asked me that I firmly replied “I am a prophet, I work for God”.

And I didn’t feel insecure about it anymore. Because I literally have the responsibility of LIFE and DEATH on my hand, I have peoples’ lives and blood on my hands.

There are people who are set free from bondage because of the power of God, and this is more than the immediate and temporary relief of human opportunity.

God’s power is life changing.

It releases people from the grips of death, suicide, depression, rage, unforgiveness, poverty, lack, generational curses, infirmity, disease, cancer, addiction, and pure evil. There are evil spirits that roam the earth everyday, suppressing, oppressing and lying to people.

God can set you free. Jesus is the only way. I’m no longer afraid to speak boldly because I know the other side and only darkness resided there.

Overcoming The Fear of Failure

On By Rebekka LienIn art, coach, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, love, Relationships, self-help, spirituality, therapy, writer
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I believe it was May 1 when God gave me the go ahead to start pursuing opportunities again. To be honest, I was hesitant. I had been in a year of waiting season, healing and restoring brokenness in my heart and allowing God to take away the lies and fears that had boggled up my being.
And the biggest breakthrough in April? My dad asked me for forgiveness for not being there for most of my life.
I needed to hear it. I needed to know that he cared.
And somehow his caring broke open a part of my heart that had been closed off for so long.
It wasn’t my fault after all that my dad neglected his responsibility to care for me.
It wasn’t my fault that my parents divorced, it wasn’t my fault that I lived my early life full of fear, desperation, depression, striving, toil. Even writing about this again causes tears to well up.
I didn’t realize this but I lived in a way where “God if I just do this right, if I just make the right decision then my life will be good. If you just tell me what to do, if you tell me what is good and bad, then I won’t screw up my life more than it is already.”
I was scared of making mistakes, I was scared that I had truly ruined my life somehow with the decisions I had made.
Perfectionism.
Pressure.
Condemnation.
Those were things I felt and lived under.
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Grace says “you are enough”, your decisions don’t affect my plan for your life. You are not under judgement anymore. You are in relationship. Trust your gut. Trust that I will never leave or forsake you.
As I venture into new territory, reclaiming the things that was barred from me, reopening lost opportunities, I am learning to trust that God is truly with me. I won’t be afraid of rejection anymore because I know that these rejections only say “something better is waiting for you”. Just this morning, my previous commercial acting agent told me they won’t be able to sign me again. I am relieved because I know God is working a whole new thing for me and I can trust a better thing is waiting for me.
“He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all–how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?” Romans 8:32
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Photos by Patrick.
I took these photos a few years ago in Hollywood Hills and I knew God had put a calling on my heart to thrive in the entertainment industry. Somehow I went to auditions after auditions for 2 years and the opportunities I did get were reality and travel shows. I felt like every door was shut to me and as hard as I tried, doors were locked. 
Then I was called into a season of rest. May 1, 2017- we are finally out of the waiting room and into the big arena. Yesterday I finally got to see my neighbor’s music studio. His name is Joseph. I am reminded that Joseph had to go through the prison to go to the palace. But he never lost his dreams. 
May we carry on knowing that every dream in our heart is a dream from the maker and that we were conceived to actualize and manifest those dreams into reality.