In Momentary Afflictions, Be. Renee Zellweger.


All is well in our deepest longings, truth, meaningless, presents.

We seek what escapes us, what is momentary, status, symbols, reputation, what others think of us, it is all in vain. All of it is in vain if we do not have a strong anchor to who we really are.

When we leave all that we know, our culture, our people, our family even, we realize that happiness derives from within, from embracing the moments. And if not now, then when? Should we wait until we have it all together, until society deems our present situation redeemable? Until our community thinks we have made it? Until stability seems steady, sturdy? Until we have succeeded to climb up higher into the darkness of corporations and societal success? Until when will we let go and escape, find what we really want in life?

Some of us will never question what and why.

We will never escape into the woods, turn off electricity or connectedness to find our true connectivity. What keeps us alive, what fuels us, it’s definitely not looking at a celebrity (Renee Zellweger) who had plastic surgery. We are so concerned about what the celebrities are doing, we don’t look deeper. Isn’t it time that we question why depression and a sense of depravity has clouded our communities? Instead of judging people for changing their outer appearance, isn’t it time we have compassion on them or perhaps ask ourselves the same questions?

Why is it that people are killing themselves due to depression and why is it that people feel like they have to change themselves to please the judgements of our communities? 

And hasn’t it worsened, because they tried to change their faces, they have been judged even MORE.

I have one word for our society, fucked up. And I beckon that we look within ourselves to see what’s growing there.

Please, look at our own hearts, our own words, the condition of our own soul.

So on a more prose note, OMG, I thought that Reneee had died by the facebook feeds. Seriously, turns out she just had plastic surgery. It was grotesque to read what people were writing about her while I’m here in Czech.

Letting go is not easy, but letting go, can be fun, can be freeing.

Living Your Personal Legend


As I sat outside in the patio taking in the night, I came across Oprah and Paulo Coelho’s interview. I watched it, and was intrigued. I had always heard about The Alchemist, but had never read it. A few days later, I found myself glancing at Oprah’s face in the news stands. You see, I have about 10 magazine subscriptions and always get them for free with my mileage points, so it made no sense to buy one magazine full price. But I remembered a story from my client about how she was totally broke and something in her told her to buy a magazine, in it was a job that got her into the industry she was supposed to be in. You see, she used what little she had and paid in faith. She was rewarded well for her faith. I always remember that story.

Anyways, I bought that Oprah magazine and went to eat lunch. At lunch I noticed yet again Oprah and Paulo Coelho’s interview. I read it. A few days later, I found myself wanting to go to Vroman’s and I bought that 25th anniversary edition. You see, in 1988 Paulo published The Alchemist, this was the year I was born. You might think it is all a coincidence, but I think not. You see when I read about the omens in the book, about how God sends us messages through people and omens, I knew that my life has always been that way. Everything in my life was orchestrated for me to live my Personal Legend, as The Alchemist describes.


You see, if life was simply about attaining wealth, learning to love and be loved by people, attaining things…it would be, well, so practical. Our lives are spiritual journeys into greater destinies and I see our lives as legends. You see, the reason movies are so captivating is because people in movies actually GO AFTER WHAT THEY WANT. You see a man who loves a woman, he chases after her despite continued rejection or obstacles. You see woman living their dreams, dancing on stages around the world. The heroes overcome the obstacles which prevent them from living their highest callings.

In real life, well, we often settle. How many of us are actually living our Personal Legends? 

We overdose on alcohol, drugs, sedatives, food, media, useless articles and videos only to confuse our hearts. We refuse to face our hearts because we have disappointed ourselves for far too long. Perhaps you have decided to ignore the little voice within that tells you to make a move, to make a change…because change, can be uncomfortable.

Paulo experienced “one of the definining moments of his life: he walked the five hundred- plus mile Road of Santiago de Compostela in northwestern Spain. On this ancient highway, used for centuries by pilgrims from France to get to the cathedral said to house the remains of St. James, he achieved a self-awareness and a spiritual awakening that he later described in The Pilgrimage

I believe that when we leave everything we know or are comfortable behind, something miraculous happens; actually in that personal spiritual awakening of love do we truly walk into the authentic destiny we were meant to walk.

You see I believe that whoever I have connected with, even by reading their book, I have now agreed to carry their torch. It’s been 25 years since this book has been written. Many spiritual and political leaders are aging and tiring out. It’s time for my generation of people (20’s and 30’s) to wake up. A few days ago, I had an Art Show and Party. I gave a very relaxed presentation reading of my ebook and 2 secrets of how to live your personal destiny. Someone mentioned that it should be called Ted Talk in the Living Room. I realized that I could deliver my message in any format I wanted to, in jeans, in shorts, in a t-shirt. I realized that I didn’t have to wear uptight dresses or have my makeup be perfect. Maybe my audience are actually people who want to be authentic in every way, completely themselves, no pretentiousness.

I look forward to writing books that are epic, that 25 years from now, I’ll look back and see that I wrote this blog post. If you haven’t purchased your own ebook on How To Make Money Doing What You Love:::::: ————-> CLICK HERE! 


Strength Is Letting Go


Strength is letting go,

surrendering to the promises which holds you in air, in gravity, floating throughout space

Your letting go is a gift to the universe, you allow everything to conspire FOR you.

It’s already done, it’s a done deal.

Let you body surrender, let the striving cease, let your mind feel ease, let you heart subside in complete love.

Though you don’t feel that you deserve it, but your faith is delving deeper into your soul and you know somehow, somehow, and no earthly persons knows, how it’s going to happen, but you sink deeper.

You hold on when the thread, the rope untangles, faster than you can hold onto, suddenly the rope is completely gone and you fall back, slowly, at first, faster and faster, into the abyss of self-consciousness, of perhaps Wholiness. 

You feel your heart explode and light escaping everything that is you, and suddenly the light within you is the very thing that lifts you higher. The light is like a gravity lifter, it defies gravity and somehow 

and finally flying, but it’s not you flying, it’s the light within and all you’re doing is really just floating, expanding, going where you need to but completely engulfed in love. 


I’m not here to teach you how to succeed.

I’m here to teach you about forgiving those who have hurt you, letting go of the past, accepting what is so that you can move forward, without hindrances, so that yes…you can succeed and be happy in life. However, without confronting the shit in your heart, and being real with your ego, you’ll never be happy because an ego self is selfish, not filled with love. 

Change Your Mind, Change Your Life-

Grieving The Death of Robin Williams

I am personally grieved to hear about the news of Robin Williams’ death. When I first came to America, I remember the first movie I watched was the one where he acted as a doctor (Patch Adams). It really cheered me up and I realized that laughter can heal people…I also know that whether it is true or not, if he did kill himself, that it is easy for people to overlook depression. I know that it is easy to grow up with a smile on your face and have a leaking heart. Remember to be vulnerable, to share, to laugh and to cry when you have to. Remember that it is okay to have a frown on your face, but to be okay sharing that side of who you are. You don’t have to be perfect.


Quotes from Robin, I want to cry….so sad. 

No matter what people you, words and ideas can change the world:

I left school and couldn’t find acting work, so I started going to clubs where you could do stand-up. I’ve always improvised, and stand-up was this great release. All of a sudden, it was just me and the audience.

When you look at Prince Charles, don’t you think that someone in the Royal family knew someone in the Royal family?

You’re only given a little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it.

Seize the DAY- whatever day God has given you, seize it with greatness, live it to the fullest!

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Wealth Comes From The Heart

Wealth comes from the heart. 

Somehow I have been given this unique gift of sensing the heart…I have found that wealth comes from the heart.

Counterfeit wealth is veiled with splendor, bling, things that look wealthy, but comes from the spirit of poverty.

In the eyes of a young woman, sitting and eating my tacos, I saw a homeless person with his bike, in his own world. Half crazy, yet half happy, content in his reality. Then I saw families, buying tacos, happy and content. I went to a beautiful house and saw that wealth hardens people, and that there was poverty in both poor and wealthy. Even though everything was shiny on the outside, new, replicas of ancient furnitures, I could sense a spirit of poverty. This ever seeking of “not enough”, I am not so sure of. My deeper philosophical mind wants to ponder this disparity, yet I could only start to count my blessings.

I could only start to appreciate the way I grew up, I could only start to appreciate all the hardships I have gone through, working full time while going to school to pay off tuition, selling makeup under school desks, jewelry in trunks, I could only start to appreciate the little things. I could only start to appreciate the beautiful nights dancing away my simple life, the days backpacking and snorkeling in exotic parts of the world, adding up the bills I had to pay and wondering where the money would come from, not knowing how I would survive, but still having that faith that could throw a mountain into an ocean…I could only appreciate my simple creativity and zest for life. I could only appreciate having the wisdom to understand any persons, from 0 to 100, being able to relate on any level, listening and appreciating the human story of pain and joy.

Sometimes I feel cursed that I can read someone so well, with just one conversation.  I can feel their misery, their secret story of “not enough”, their constant strivings, their secret joys, their dreams…maybe someday they think…I hear these stories softly being spoken with nonverbal glances. Seek and you will find, I say. True treasures lie in your heart. 

And I continue, writing my heart out, so I can share the wealth that is within me.



I had a dream the other day about going to someone’s house. I interpreted I was not letting my true self out, that I was suffocating. It’s okay to come out and let the world know who you really are. Where is your house? Where is your heart?

13 Day of Meditation- Day 9- Spirit of Abundance Versus Spirit of Poverty

I finally got my couch! I waited one month for them to create another Spring Serenity Couch. It is deliciously comfortable. I love the natural light coming in to my living room, no electricity needed!

I recorded today’s blog post while driving yesterday- the great thing about bluetooth and technology.


Do you ever wonder why you feel like you are not good enough? However much you achieve in life, you don’t feel satisfied….in fact, you want more and you put all your identity in your achievements. It is time to realize that we are not orphans, but rightly knighted queens and kings with birth rights to happiness. Listen to this audio to learn more about how you can carry and own the spirit of abundance. Having the spirit of abundance is everything TO creating the life you want.

If you don’t feel like you deserve love, you will not find someone to love you because you will self-sabotage and believe in lies about who you are.

If you don’t feel like you deserve success, you will not succeed.

If you don’t feel like you deserve wealth, you will not become wealthy…..and so on.

Please comment below, I would love to hear your thoughts on how this audio benefited you! 🙂

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Live Like All Your Problems Are Already Solved


I had ANOTHER grand epiphany last night.

What if we lived as though we knew that all our problems will be solved? Our student loans paid off, debt paid off, relationships reconciled, worries of the future, that someday we will definitely marry the right person, not die of cancer, etc and all the doubts and worries that hold no truth.

What if we know that everything will turn out okay?

And isn’t it true that it does usually turn out okay?

Didn’t you finish college, or even if you didn’t, end up pursuing your dreams or a great career?

Didn’t you end up with the person you wanted to be? And if you didn’t, aren’t you alive anyways?

What is the worse that can happen?

I think the worse things that can happen is our inability to be present and to accept the present, letting go of our control. 

I am like that, I am sure plenty of people are like that as well.

I started practicing yoga and praying while doing yoga. It is a required prayer time for me, which allows me to not only calm down, but be in my body versus my head.


What if we can envision the future and think, live in a way that already KNOWS we will get there? I envision that someday I will be flying in different countries with 45 successful businesses, perhaps speaking 5 languages (I speak 2 fluently- Mandarin and English, I hope to perfect my French and Japanese, then German/Spanish), live without financial worries and have millions in disposable income, and have helped many survivors of human trafficking, built many orphanages, schools and businesses to provide jobs for the needy.

One day, I will invite my supporters to my private island and we will enjoy a weekend of yoga, prayer, being, and manifesting joy, peace and love in our lives. One day, I will look back on the days of recycling bottles and building furniture out of pieces found on the street and smile. It was all worth it.