Rebekka Lien

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Prophetic Word- True Rest

On January 10, 2020 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, forgiveness, healing, Hollywood, law of attraction, love, travel, writerLeave a comment

“A lot of people are not resting in me. They are striving and running around like chicken with their heads cut off, they are trying to get more, do more, be more, they are trying to iron the fat off their bodies, they are punishing themselves and eating less, eating foods that are not yummy, they are punishing themselves for having fat, blemishes on their faces, they are altering their faces with surgery, they are buying more trying to look cooler…

so many of my sons and daughters are not resting in me.

I wish they would see that if they’ll accept they are enough in me, that my Son Jesus has already taken on every blemish, fat, excess, not enough on the cross, sins, insecurities, mistakes, that they’d see I am so enough and they have been made perfect in my eyes.

I wish they would just surrender their getting, doing and just be.

Oh to flow and rest in my grace, in my spirit, there is water there, so much refreshment and life.

Oh to flow in my Spirit means everything is provided for, there is no fighting or striving, only rest. That rest doesn’t mean not doing anything, but flowing in ease, flowing in love, not fear.

I keep wanting peoples’ hearts but they keep trying to perform for me, showing me, going ‘look daddy, look what I did!’ but they are running on a hamster wheel, exasperated.

I’m telling you ‘come sit and enjoy a meal with me’ and the table is layed out and there is much provision for those that will flow with me. You are saving for tomorrow, but you are living today in fear. So many of you are not trusting me for provision. You are saving for a rainy day not knowing that I am the provider.

I am grieved because the table is so abundant with fullness but you are afraid of not having enough, because you are not sitting at my table, you are running to everything else but me.

Come feast with me, the life with me is full of fun and enjoyment. It is not filled with fear. It is bold and filled with laughter. It is filled with authenticity and raw love.

Come feast with me. Anything is possible. Come feast on the possibilities. We will have adventures no one will suspect, it will be our secret, some public, some a secret. We will hold hands and climb mountains, meet people, set people free, but it is all enjoyable, nothing a chore.

I never called you to carry backpacks of false responsibility. If it’s not yours, don’t carry it. Move on, lay it down. Trust me to take care of them, whoever they are.

I am so good, and it’s so fun to walk with me!”

Partner with me today. Thank you!

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Will You Support This Ministry?

On January 3, 2020January 3, 2020 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, faith, forgiveness, God, Hollywood, jesus, love, money, self-help, social media, spirituality, travel, Uncategorized, writerLeave a comment

Okay, here’s the honest truth. A big part of me really hates asking for help. I like being self-sufficient, I like appearing like I have no problems (I grew up making my own money since I was 8) but I had a dream…here’s the dream. My friend Joy came to my house and I asked if she wanted a drink. I looked through my mom’s fridge and noticed all these energy drinks, pepsi, boba, aloe vera. I was wondering WHY there was so much stuff in the fridge. Then she went into the bathroom and I was trying to clean the hallways, and it was just a mess. I wanted it to be clean but it wasn’t.

Then she said “you need to update me on what’s going on, are you able to do your own makeup or you want a makeup artist?” I said, isn’t there makeup artist? Then I wanted to ask her for $300 then I was afraid to.

Last month, fundraising was a bit slow, to be honest, I kind of give up. There is a $300 deficit from last year (month) that I need to pay off. Well, technically I started my ministry maxing out a $5000 credit card.

As you know I went to 14 countries to minister. I didn’t have the courage in the beginning to ask for help. But God eventually put that courage in me. I wouldn’t have been able to do it without peoples’ help.

My blog has more than 700 followers, and I have over 2000 ish facebook friends, but a part of me still wants to hide. I’ll message people individually and after like 10 I’m like that’s a lot already. Some people ignore my message, some people give it a thumbs up, but I’m like, “what’s the answer?”

Meaning, I don’t send my testimony to all 2000 friends because a part of me is afraid of judgement or rejection. And I feel like I can’t really deal with it, I mean seriously my mother’s rejection and yelling is already hard enough.

Then the people who have judgement about fundraising.

But I know, that I am more than a conqueror and my job is to set people from the fear of lack, fear of rejection and judgement and so in that way, I can’t be afraid of it either. So I have to continue facing it.

So while I’m asking God, what do you want me to do this year?

He’s like “keep facing the fears and keep expanding your reach”. I’m not going to stop sending my testimony to people.

I already know my message and I already know the gospel of grace. I’ve already mastered fighting demons and casting out demons, but of course the fear still tries to stop me. The judgements don’t seem to stop either. People want me to write a certain way, people want to control me, it’s all people really.

But yet, I keep listening to Jesus despite the noise.

Fear is our biggest enemy.

Today, I need your help. Are you able to sow $300, or any amount to help cover expenses from last year? And to give an overflow for this year’s work. I am not a big ministry like T.D. Jakes….yet. I’m a one person self-starter supported by pioneers, people who get what I’m trying to say.

I’m not going to give up.

And I don’t believe you will either. Partner with me today. Consider sowing $50, $100, $200, $500 or more today, thank you!

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Love Letter From God- You Are A Child

On January 2, 2020January 2, 2020 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dance, dating, entrepreneur, faith, Fashion, food, forgiveness, God, healing, Hollywood, love, prophetic word, psychology, Relationships, spirituality, therapy, travel, writerLeave a comment

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Dear Child,

You know how kids run around? They throw tantrums, they draw on the wall, they fall and run, they spill juice? I want you to be like that. I want you to freely talk to strangers and not be afraid of judgement or rejection. You are free. You are wild. Be that. Now I am setting you free from many fears that you’ve accrued in your life.

You got rejected by a class mate, you tried to be friendly to someone on the street, they yelled at you. You became afraid, you tried to hide.

You were betrayed by friends, you failed math or chemistry, you started to feel like a failure. You could never meet your parents’ expectations, life wore you down and you kind of just gave up.

Well, I want you to know that you are perfect in my eyes, run around again- Like that free kid.

And maybe you never got that kind of childhood, but I’m teaching you now. Hey you have freedom to be a child. I will never yell at you. I will never criticize you. I will only pick you up when you fall. I will give you a hug and say “I love you, I’m so proud of you for trying, I love those drawings on the wall.

I’m not concerned about the dirt on your pants or the dirt in your hair, keep climbing trees freely. I’m not concerned about the couch, it’s just a couch. Jump freely on it.

I know they told you you had to sit still in church, but you can dance if you want.

I know there are times for discipline as a good father disciplines his children, but not in the way of judgement or condemnation, I will love you to me.

You are not all knowing, and that’s okay. You didn’t know that you would get hurt or that you would get into an accident, that’s okay. Keep living in freedom, don’t be afraid to try again. Your parents said “you should’ve known” but you didn’t. You were just living in freedom.

My children know their identity and they are free. Maybe you don’t feel like a child sometimes, maybe you are afraid to fail, maybe you are afraid of rejection, but do you know that I love you so much?

It doesn’t matter that they reject you, you are so loved by me. I have so much love for you.

Come to me and come walk with me. I’m always by your side, I have never left you. Why do you think that I left you when all this time I was by your side? I am not people that I should leave you. There are times and seasons and not everyone is supposed to be there at all times, life is complex and there are seasons people need to move on and you need to move on from them too.

And that’s okay, because you will make new friends.

Children do whatever they feel like, they don’t sit there waiting for their dads to tell them what to do, they live in freedom.

Of course I will guide you through your desire, I will give you directions to lead you to great things because I can see things ahead of you. But these are not instructions to limit you but to surprise you, to bless you.

These are instructions to guide you so we keep walking with each other as you learn to trust me continually, you learn my character, you learn that I am reliable, that I am trustworthy.

I will never force you to do something you don’t want to. But as you trust and walk with me, you’ll see my heart of love for you.

You are walking in your true identity as a child of God. You need nothing else. It’s so much fun, let’s also have fun together. Let’s break barriers and let’s go on adventures.

You are enough, you’ve done enough, you are perfect in my eyes because of Jesus sacrifice. You don’t have to do things you don’t like anymore.

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To partner and give- thank you for your love and support. I could not have done it without your support this year. Thank you to the friends that I call family now. I love you all, Rebekka.

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Love Letter From God

On January 1, 2020January 1, 2020 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dream, faith, forgiveness, healing, Hollywood, jesus, love, prophetic word, Relationships, spirituality, travel, writerLeave a comment

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Here’s a letter from God….to me, but It’s also a LETTER TO YOU.

Dear Rebekka, or (Dear YOU),

You are so strong. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for trusting me. And even when you didn’t, thank you for being my daughter.

Thank you for your honesty, thank you for sharing your heart with me.

You are the best gift anyone can offer me. I own the world, but I covet peoples’ hearts. I covet your whole heart. That’s all I want. Your heart. Thank you for entrusting your heart to me.

Thank you for persevering even when the fire got hot, even when the battle seemed like it would never stop. Thank you for clinging onto me, and trusting me. You know the battle never lasts right? You have come out golden.

I’m removing the dust, and the scars, pretty soon you will be brand new. You’ll hope again, dream again, don’t give up. You’re my biggest joy, when I see you smile, I smile too. You are the love of my life, you know?

I just want to bless you continuously. That’s my heart for you. I’ll never take from you, even if I take from you, I’m meaning to bless you more, in multitudes.

You know I will NEVER judge you right? Because Jesus was already judged and punished for your sins. I will never get mad at you, yell at you or condemn you.

I don’t see fault or sin in you.

My dreams are to flourish and prosper you. It’s already there, you are already enough. You are golden my dear, you are so precious to me. You are everything that I hoped you would be. I am so proud of you.

You know you are the whole package right? Right now, you lack nothing, you are shiny, golden, enough, whole, pure, bright, radiant, beautiful. You never lacked anything or anyone. You became whole when you said yes to me, so that I only see Jesus in you, you are the perfect image of God.

You know I would never criticize you or yell at you?

I would only encourage you. Because you are perfect in my eyes.

And I may say a few things to wake you up, because I know you’re hurting yourself. A father would never allow their kids to get hurt. I give you freedom to run and be free. You are allowed to do what you want and desire. Follow your heart.

Be free, fall, fail (though there is no such thing as failure because you are still perfect and righteous in my eyes), and get up with me. Hold my hand so you don’t get lost. Never stop holding my hand.

I love you so dearly. You are the apple of my eyes. I have many more love letters for you and I hope you read them one by one, I hope you listen.

Humans may never give you the love you need or want, but my love will overwhelm you for good. But never stop listening, never close your heart. Your heart is a muscle that needs practice. Love is not always easy, but you can always fall back into my arms. It’s easy to rest in me. It’s easy to rely on me.

All you have to do is let go of control, let go of self- condemnation.

You’ve done enough, you’ve loved enough, you’ve been battered but you’re enough.

You don’t have to try so hard. Let me love you.

You’re enough.

There is no where to go but here, there is nothing to do but be. You are enough.

I long for your intimacy, an open heart. Tell me the desires of your heart, tell me how your heart aches and tell me if you’re mad at me. Tell me everything because I can take it. That’s how I long to know you. I want to walk with you.

I’m so excited to show you the beautiful things I’m going to reveal to you. I’m going to surprise you when you least expect it. Keep your eyes on me. Your dreams are not dead, they are alive and well.

My timing is perfect, you are not late, you haven’t missed it! I am just on time!

You don’t have to do a thing to make me love you, I loved you since and before you were born. You are enough as my child. No need to perform or to achieve for me, no need to try or do more. I want you to rest knowing I’ve got your back, no need to look for success. You are a success.

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I am so proud of you dear,

God

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Growing up, I did not feel safe with my mother as she was constantly reprimanding or yelling at me. There were few words of encouragement and I’ve had to confront her about it to get her to be more encouraging. Even saying “I love you” was difficult when I got older.

Then going to church, I was constantly told that I needed to do more, serve more or be more loving. No one actually told me that I was whole in Christ Jesus. No one told me that Jesus’ work was actually complete, it was a complete payment for my iniquities and shortcomings.

When I left that church God started to teach me what grace actually was.

He taught me that I was a child of God and that I only needed to rest to learn what it meant to receive from God. I was constantly working for God but never received from God because I was working for what I had versus freely receiving.

When I learned to rest in His finished work, I started to learn what it meant to be a child. However, it came with a level of persecution that I did not expect from people.

You are God’s child, not an orphan, not a slave, not an employee.

To partner and give- thank you for your love and support. I could not have done it without your support this year. Thank you to the friends that I call family now. I love you all, Rebekka.

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Prophetic Word- Get Back Your Vision in 2020

On December 29, 2019December 29, 2019 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, dating, faith, forgiveness, healing, law of attraction, love, Relationships, self-help, spirituality, travel, writerLeave a comment

The Lord is asking me to ask for donations today. I believe He will bless you with a triple return, so if you want a return on investment, give in faith!

Many times we are looking at what we have instead of trusting God as our Jehovah Jireh, we are relying on our jobs more than God, on our savings more than God, on our car or house more than God. God is breaking off this spirit of “prostitution” (trading your time and skills for money) and God is adopting children who will trust the Shepherd for what we have.

The enemy wants to pimp you out. He wants you to spend the rest of your life more concerned about being secure (about the material things) than following Jesus.

Because if He calls you to quit your job, and you’re scared of lack and you’re scared that God won’t provide, you’ll never start that ministry which will set thousands free from that spirit of lack.

Because if you stay with your abusive husband, you’ll never feel worthy to be alone with God or know that God is enough and you’ll never step into your calling and purpose.

Because if you work to pay off debt for the rest of your life, you’ll never walk into what God is calling you to. You’ll always think that you are not enough and never have enough, you’ll not understand you are a child of God and God made a complete payment to ALL YOUR BANK ACCOUNTS AND BILLS, even if you don’t see it NOW. HE WILL DO IT BECAUSE HIS BLOOD SPOKE.

IF THE ENEMY CAN KEEP YOU IN THE BONDAGE OF “LACK MENTALITY” you’ll NEVER step out in faith and be the warrior GOD HAS CALLED YOU TO BE.

HE IS SAYING YOU ARE A SON AND DAUGHTER OF GOD, NOT AN ORPHAN. STOP BEING SELF- sufficient and relinquish CONTROL TO ME. There are too many safe Christians who will not jump into God’s net. They need to be set free because their hearts will die in “worldly safety”.

There is REST for those who are willing to TRUST God, but the world lives like they are slaves. Will you trust God?

Give – “Not that I desire your gifts; what I desire is that more be credited to your account” Philippians 4:17

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No Condemnation in Christ Jesus

On December 27, 2019 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, jesus, love, prophetic word, relationship, self- reflection, spirituality, therapy, travel, writerLeave a comment

Prophetic Word- IT’s NOT YOUR FAULT, TAKE ON THE BLOOD OF JESUS AND KNOW God DOES NOT SEE SIN IN YOU ANYMORE. THE ENEMY HAS BEEN TRYING HARD TO DISQUALIFY YOU THROUGH YOUR WORKS, but Jesus does not see any sin in you anymore.

WHY? NOW, the ENEMY IS WORKING OVER TIME TO PUSH YOU BACK INTO EGYPT SO YOU WOULD FEEL CONDEMNED AND ASHAMED AND NOT ENOUGH TO GO INTO THE PROMISED LAND.

Would you consider giving $20 or more to my ministry? Somehow God has been telling me to ask for my daily provisions so that I can go where I am led. Its been day by day.

Im going forward into my promised land (my dreams and ministry in hollywood). It is already mine but there was a lot of pushback. Someone hit my mom’s car while i was parked, someone stole my phone a week ago.

These events tried to put guilt and blame in my heart so that id stop going out and live in fear. My mother started guilt tripping me and telling me she couldnt sleep or was worried about me. What if, shed say.

Yesterday i felt the Lord tell me to go out late night but i felt the struggle of guilt and false responsibility for my mom. I didn’t end up going.

I asked God to rid my heart if false guilt. This morning I spoke honestly and asked her to not speak death over my dreams.

I layed down my dreams to pastor lost sheep and God is giving it back to me but it has come with a lot of resistance as i grow the ministry and take more spiritual territory, in reaching lost sheep in hollywood.

Yesterday i met a young chinese woman in the sauna. I asked if she was chinese or korean. She told me everyone she meets is christian for some reason.

She said a lot of the rules in church stop her from wanting to believe in jesus and i explained grace to her.

I said your shoulder hurts? Cuz mine started hurting…..and i just heard the lord say “its not your fault” and i could feel my heart pang.

I said when you believe jesus you believe he took every fault on the cross so you no longer have to bear it. Then i told her how someone stole my phone and i blamed myself while my mother also blamed me.

She said she also broke her laptop a month ago and blamed herself. I said God will replace it..and not to put responsibility on her shoulder but to cast it on God.

She felt that if she knew clearly whose fault it is in different situations in life she wouldnt have to bear the burden and responsibility as she was literally and physically suffering for it.

I told her how when you believe in jesus you know He took on everyone’s fault and deficiency on the cross so you don’t have to bear it or punish yourself for it.

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A Real Conversation with God About Pain

On December 26, 2019December 26, 2019 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, health, jesus, lifehack, love, spirituality, therapy, travel, writerLeave a comment

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I hear you talk, and I know your voice but I don’t seem to know what I feel or what I’m thinking.

This needs to be fixed. I felt like a mute kid, that kid playing under the table. I stopped speaking because I lost my heart to betrayals and heartbreaks.

What’s the point of speaking if I’ll be dismissed.

I saw this in my relationship with my dad, I spoke my mind but he disappeared, for a few days without telling me.

He disappeared for 10 years, then every time I visited another 3 went back.

I saw this pattern in my life, people disappearing.

But you never did, did you God?

God – no. I never will.

Me- But why does it feel like you are silent when I need you to speak, and why do you speak when I want you to be silent?

God- Because I can’t be controlled and I don’t need to give you directions all the time, you can trust your heart.

Me- I’m not sure if I trust my heart because it obviously gets trampled when I throw my pearls to people. I try to guard my heart the best I can, but I still get ravaged.

God- Your heart is in the palm of my hands and I love you to the earth and back. You are my beloved and I will never let you go, I will never neglect you.

Me- But why does it feel like you are neglecting me right now. Why is everything so hard? Like pins and needles in my heart?

God- Come to me and I will give you rest. You don’t have to be afraid of me.

Me- It’s easier to fix the external things then to just submit myself to the process. The pain is too much to bear. Yesterday I felt like a wrecking ball. Like the song.

God- This pain isn’t forever, this pain is a passing thing. It doesn’t belong to you. Let it out and cry if you have to, cry and let the pain through. Don’t stop the pain. Let it pass through you.

Me- I want to be in control, to make things happen, but I know that’s not what I need. I need to just let the pain through but pain is uncontrollable, it comes out when you least expect it. Like when I was eating at a restaurant with hundreds of people around me, I can feel their eyes staring. I am embarrassed and horrified. So I let a few trickles out. My mother is accusing me of being useless, she makes me feel like I am a burden.

God- you are a gift from heaven to earth. You are a gift my dear, not a burden. You are my precious queen.

Me- The words sting so much I can’t seem to hear anything else.

God- Then saturate your soul with my words. Any words that align with my heart, listen to that, hear that, speak that.

Me- Why do I have to keep doing damage control? Why can’t I just leave? Move out already? Why don’t you make a way?

God- Because I am doing something new, I need to solidify identity in your soul and spirit. So the battle seems hotter, heated, tougher, but you will get out of it golden. Don’t run from the battle, run straight into my arms. You are safe here, the words are just flies. The words are lies, it hurts but they are lies. They aren’t true.

I will never leave nor forsake you. Lift up your head, your not what those words are dear. I will never drop you, I’m not a deadbeat dad.

Me- Am I really safe with you?

God- yes. Beyond safe. Let the pain through, don’t stop or clog it. Don’t distract yourself with doing. Don’t try to fix the external, don’t try to run away, don’t try to figure out your life.

Sit with me in the fire. Sit and let me extinguish the fire, let the water of the Spirit wash you. Because my love is enough, don’t be afraid. My love is enough for you. Don’t go looking for it anywhere else, my love is enough.

Come to me all who are weary. I know nothing LOOKS right, nothing feels right, but I am here with you in the fire. Look into my eyes, don’t look away. Look into my gaze, because this love is enough.

Love, Rebekka

Fundraising has been super slow this season, so if YOU’D BE ABLE TO GIVE THIS SEASON, know that God will multiply your seed. Anything helps! I can use all the help I can get. Thank you!

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My Testimony

On December 23, 2019December 26, 2019 By Rebekka LienIn christianity, coach, dream, entrepreneur, faith, forgiveness, God, healing, Hollywood, jesus, law of attraction, love, prophetic word, Relationships, self-help, spirituality, therapy, travel, writer16 Comments

Dearest Friend,

Here’s my year end support letter and testimony. I have come a long ways, the Lord sent me out July 2018 and I have gained many brothers and sisters in Christ. I thank you for those that have continued to pray and support me when you can.

Let’s just say it has been an uphill battle. The battles were the religious spirit, tradition, persecution, warfare, yet at the end of all this I can say Jesus has comforted me and shown Himself faithful.

I have become much bolder than before. There was so much shame attached to asking for financial support in my ministry, because in Asian culture it’s not seen as “upright” and since I had to start my own ministry, the uphill road was windier and harder….to believe what God says about me is true was even harder because there was very little encouragement from other people. I had to go off of what He said and simply obey.

I can honestly say I cried everyday for 2 years. If I didn’t cry that day I was probably having to pray in tongues because the warfare was so intense.

Thank you for those that have prayed for and invested into the kingdom through me this year. I have seen many set free from condemnation and brought into God’s kingdom. Still, there is more work to be done, not from a place of strife or lack, but a place of abundance and rest. God is situating me in Hollywood to set people from from being orphans, into sonship. I am going back into Hollywood and God has given me a continual heart for the LGBT community and creatives.

Would you consider giving a year-end gift? My goal is to raise $2020 to bring in the new year.

Thank you for your generosity and love.

Everyone that is connected to me is my family, and I pray for each one of you. Become a financial partner today-

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May God multiply every seed you sow. God has told me that there is a great harvest on my life and everyone who sows into me will reap greatly.

Rebekka’s Story

I heard the Lord say “Tell your Story”. I had a dream I was crossing over but didn’t know if I should go over land or air and I was wondering if I should tell the girl I was with my story.

So here goes:

I was born in Hamburg, Germany. My parents divorced when I was 8. I moved to Taiwan when I was 5 and then to LA when I was 8. Growing up I just remember feeling really alone and isolated. I spent a lot of time journaling and playing under the table. We had a lot of financial struggles growing up because my mother was a single mom. Early on, I felt depressed and felt like I was always lacking, that I was never enough because I didn’t have an ideal family background. I couldn’t feel God’s love all the time because my dad’s love was not present. I did not see my dad or talk to him for 10 years, then every 3 years I’d see him if I’d visit Taiwan.

At the age of 12, I received Jesus into my heart. I felt God’s tangible love and fell to my knees, weeping. After that I started to hear God’s voice. People at my church thought I was crazy and tried to refute me with the Bible. I kept looking for approval and validation from people because I wanted to be loved for who I was, but it was never enough.

In 2011, I quit my full time job and pursued what the Lord had put on my heart. I started teaching piano, cello, sewing, selling jewelry, clothes, real estate, and acting etc. I’d put down something if it didn’t bring my joy or allow the Holy Spirit speak to me about what to pursue, but eventually in 2015 after sitting in a hostel room in Spain, the Lord told me to quit my career in real estate. I felt so much joy with just a bag, I didn’t have much but I felt free. I returned to LA and the Lord told me to sell everything and follow Him. It was difficult and every week I surrendered something, whether it was an ex boyfriend, a friend, or my possessions.

At one point I had $200 and was late on rent and the Lord told me to give it. He said “whose house are you building, yours or mine?” So I proceeded to be late on rent for 2 months after I surrendered what I had. My friend said I was overcoming the fear of men (people, authority) and the fear of death (deadlines). It’s called dead for a reason.

At this point everyone thought I was crazy except a few close friends. I had to block a few relative members from coming into my life because I was being persecuted by them.

The Lord led me to move back home. It was a studio and I had to sleep on a couch pull out and sleep in the same room as my mother.

I didn’t understand it but God told me to stop working for 2 years. I had been working since I was 8 years old. How could I stop? Yet, in resting I started to understand what it really means to be a child of God.

It means that you receive from God what you did not work for. It means you have been adopted by God, and you no longer strive in your flesh, but learn to walk in the Spirit. You trust God as your provider, not what you see or have in the moment. His voice becomes everything.

My mother would still accuse me of not working or being useless, but every time I’d say out loud “I am the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus, there is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus”.

Before I’d try to tell her that I was working for God, but then I realize that was also trying to prove my worth through works. I had tried to prove how worthy I was through my accomplishments all my life, through grades, through my career, through my looks, through what I possessed. But now God had stripped me of everything so that I can “boast in GRACE alone”.

In 2018, God told me to go to Taiwan. I had $20 at that point. I cried in my mother’s car thinking “how am I going to survive”. Rewind back to 2015, the Lord told me “you’re a pastor to lost sheep”, I asked God “how will I survive?”, He said “I will provide”.

I went to Taiwan thinking I was going to live with my dad for a year and then God told me to go to Korea after a month of being in Taiwan.

My ministry started in a hostel (a dorm room of 10 beds), praying and prophesying for young people who had no knowledge of Jesus. I prayed for a Muslim girl’s stomach to heal at a barbecue restaurant, we walked around as I started to tell her my testimony. Since then I’ve ministered to thousands of people and God led me to Korea, Japan, South Africa, China, Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, Australia, Samoa, Australia, Fiji, New Zealand, India….

I went into New Zealand with a one way ticket. Actually I went into most countries with a one way ticket because God hadn’t provided for the next place yet. I went into South Africa with $20 and a credit card. I didn’t know where I was going but God would tell me (or give me a sense) of where I should go. In South Africa the Lord told me to start a fundraiser. I was petrified because I knew I’d be exposing myself to judgement. To my surprise, people I met long time ago gave to my ministry. I wasn’t sent out by a church nor had any supporters, I was simply listening to God’s voice.

My purpose was to go –

Gather the lost sheep, wherever they were. On a bus, train, airplane, hostel, restaurant, bar, club. They were specific individuals on God’s heart. They were either not Christian or people who had walked away from God and believed that they were no longer under grace as God should punish them for not going to church. A lot of them were disenchanted and hurt by the church. I would pray no condemnation over them and explain what grace really meant. God also healed my heart while I ministered to people.

One time I was at a restaurant and the Lord told me to pray for a lady. She started crying and said she just found out her sister and friend had cancer.

In another instance, the bus broke down in Fiji and we had to wait by the side of the road for nearly 2 hours. One lady told me her daughter died in child birth.

Another time the Lord led me to pray for a man at the airport and I ended up staying with his family when we arrived. Many times God told me not to book anything and I had to just trust that I wouldn’t be homeless, but that He was leading me to the lost sheep.

One time I was eating at a restaurant and the Lord gave me knowledge that this young man was having problems with his dad. When I told him he was shocked and said that his dad was actually in prison and he was deeply ashamed. The Lord’s love showered this young man to lift off the shame he felt.

Rewind back to 18, I had left a Baptist church I attended for 10 years. It was very legalistic and works- driven. I believed that the more I did for God, the better I was in God’s eyes.

God had to set me free from the religious spirit and religious mindset by telling me to rest on Sundays. This meant I did not go to church but learn to find my identity in Christ alone.

The anointing and power God has given me did not come from strife, but from learning that I am a child of God and that He finished the work on the cross.

What have been the challenges in starting or maintaining a ministry:

Many times I felt attacked by the spirit of lack. I felt that I was not worthy of the calling or struggled with finances and fundraising. God would tell me to ask people for donations and sometimes I was persecuted for it. Some people said that I should not ask for donations, some people said that I should find a real job and shame tried to attack me and make me feel less than. I wanted to give up a lot. But God kept me going.

The religious spirit in people persecuted me. Some Christians questioned me because I was not sent out by a church nor an organization and believed that I had no authority or right. They tried to tell me how to minister or what to do.

They judged the form but not the fruit. They could not see the thousands of people that were being changed by the gospel of grace.

The rewards of ministry:

I have seen depressed people come alive after I tell them the truth of being set free from Jesus
Taught people how to hear God
Led people to Christ in hostels and on the streets, even recently at a gym
Discipled people to live in freedom and the truth of righteousness by grace, not by works

If I’m really honest, I’m healing from a lot of the spiritual warfare and attacks from people. Recently my phone got stolen and it was a brand new phone I got as a gift. I was heart broken. On the road, I didn’t have an operating phone for 5 months. Yet, the power of the Holy Spirit was alive in me.

You have the opportunity to invest in the kingdom and partner with me today- Would you consider being a partner? I believe God will multiply every seed you sow because of the harvest on my life.

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