We are all a little fucked up.
We have issues.
Even the most put together people have issues, they just don’t parade them around Instagram.
Recently I received this revelation that I was basically believing that I didn’t deserve happiness because of my past, because of bad decisions in the past, in my relationship.
So no I don’t believe in karma, I believe in forgiveness. If I believed in karma, then I really don’t deserve happiness and actually all of us are doomed. I believe in grace and forgiveness.
But see I didn’t dig that deep before, it was too painful.
I realized that my unforgiveness of self had caused me to close myself up to all potential suitors. It’s not because there aren’t suitable mates (and obviously there are plenty of unsuitable ones online), it’s because I didn’t think I deserved to be happy.
Do you need to forgive yourself for somethings in your life?
Sometimes we do things out of our brokenness but we don’t realize we are basing our truth on a lie.
“Why won’t this part of my life WORK ALREADY!” you try to work everything out externally but it just won’t give….maybe it’s finance, maybe it’s your relationship with your parents, maybe it’s your relationship, maybe it’s your health, maybe it’s your career, you’ve exhausted all your options, you’ve tried everything….
I dare you to look within.
Look back to your earliest or most recent memory of when you heard a lie, even if it was self-made “I’m not enough, I’m not good enough, I don’t deserve this”…..
Did someone tell you you’re not enough by disappearing, by neglecting you?
The answer isn’t outside of you, it’s inside.
It’s within your soul.
You deserve happiness.
PS- we make decisions based on the condition of our hearts so often our decisions are fear driven because we are looking for stability. That is why it is so important to forgive ourselves and love ourselves because our actions are simply a reflection of the condition of our hearts at that moment.