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Testimony of God’s divine appointment.
God told me to go to Pasadena, then to take the bus home, this man stepped out at the same stop as me, he told me he just buried his mom last week. He was the man I was supposed to meet taking that bus.
Of course I didn’t want to wait at night in the cold for a bus, of course I was impatient with God and complaining to God. But the Lord showed me that love conquers the inconveniences. I had been deeply discouraged by the lack of funds lately, a cold came on, I mean I almost wanted to stop caring about people or to reach out to folks. I was mad at God for putting me through so much. I thought that I should stop ministering to people…but now I realize it was the devil trying to discourage me all along.
This man said that I was an angel and thanked me for deeply caring for him.
The Lord is showing me the importance of forgiving and releasing bitterness because life is so short.
Before that, God had told me to go to the mall and He very specifically told me to eat at a restaurant. Someone had just sown $40 in the morning so I can actually eat out.
I sat down to eat and this manager said “why are you eating alone?”
I felt offended. Later I confronted him and he said he was sorry, his grandpa just died and he just flew back from Korea. I said that whenever I eat alone, people make strange comments and I feel less than because of it. I’ve had waiters move me when groups of 2 or more arrive. I felt disrespected as a party of 1, like I was less than at some restaurants. He said that that was definitely wrong and he was only joking, as he often ate alone too.
Strangely, I had just watched a Korean reality show about a grandpa and his granddaughter (Na Rae Park on I Live Alone, she recently won the Grand Award in Korea). I told him he should be an actor and that he had nice skin. He gave me free plum juice.
Then I met another waitress who told me her twin sister was Christian but she wasn’t. We had fun watching my reality show appearance on Married by Mom and Dad.
When I went home, I noticed a man at the bus.
I told him he was a pastor and he was going to travel around preaching. He was surprised to hear that. I asked where he was from and he said Mexico.
I said “are you from Guadalajara?”
He was stunned.
“How did you know?”
“It literally just came to me, God told me. God can speak to you too”.
He couldn’t get past it, nor could I. This kind of accuracy, well, I don’t expect it all the time. God has upgraded my prophetic gifts a few times.
I used to just pray for people, then God gave me visions, then He gave me words of knowledge. When I got visions for people, it was so accurate I was stunned.
I was in Bali, I met two Indians and I saw one climbing mountains- he was shocked “I live in a city full of mountains” and the other one I saw him dancing to music and he said he was a musician.
That was the first time I got accurate visions for people.
Since then, my gifts have increased….but not with severe obedience.
What I mean by severe obedience is that I PERSEVERE despite the trials- I have gotten sick 3 times in one season already. I had severe diarrhea the other night. I encounter spiritual warfare and feelings of discouragement. I get attacked by the spirit of lack and there has been times of severe lack of money to continue ministry (recently too).
I mean, I’ve been through it all.
Yet, when I met this man, I felt that it was all worth it. My lost sheep. These are people who maybe no one else would reach out to. They wouldn’t go to a church to say they’re sad. They wouldn’t reach out to a clique at church, no, they are often alone.
And these are the people I reach, for better or worse. They are worth it to God. The 1 out of the 100, the lost sheep who have been wounded and outcasted.
Writing this is making me cry.
You’re not alone. Whoever you are.
You may feel alone but you’re not.
I understand your pain.
I love you deeply and sincerely.
There have been so many times I just complain to God. I ask Him why it’s so hard, why I keep following Him when people are persecuting me?
Sometimes I tell Him I hate him, why did He put me through all this?
But then I meet a hurting man/woman and suddenly God breaks all my walls.
Love conquers all.
It’s really hard work….I wasn’t called by a church, I was called by God and I listen to voice everyday. I don’t have an agenda to control anyone, to tell anyone how to be, I just listen to His voice. I answer to Him alone.
So the religious spirited people may question me, they may accuse me, beat me up….
But there is something more powerful – Love. I’m not patient all the time, God really tries me. I mean I don’t know how I persevere, but it’s His grace.
It will all makes sense, it is all worth it, don’t give up.
I love you very much.
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I’m stepping out and letting my heart be exposed. I’m letting go of control. Your heart is safe for me.
I’m learning emotional vulnerability with God. I’ve had a relationship with God since I was very young. I didn’t grow up with my dad, and my mom was rather emotionally unavailable. I often played under the table in my room. I had a really wild upbringing, mostly being home alone at a young age. I was free in a way, but always looking for protection, always defending and protecting my heart. I read an article I wrote about my life in a newspaper to my mom once and she got really mad, told me not to write about it because it seems like she was really irresponsible and neglected me.
But I realize that when I’m vulnerable with the world, perhaps I can reach one person who feels alone, someone in pain, someone who isn’t brave enough to ask others for help.
I’m afraid to write honestly because of how mean the world has been to me. Because of the response I’ve gotten to my writing, because of the judgement I’ve heard from strangers. Here’s vulnerability.
I’ve been afraid to be myself because how the world has treated me, or perhaps how I’ve treated myself.
For awhile my heart was numb because of all the pain I went through in my life. I felt pain because of I felt like I couldn’t breathe again after a broken relationship, I felt pain because I lost friends that were dear to me, I got mad at God, I closed my heart off. Instead of going to God for comfort, I pretended everything was okay.
Joseph had a dream, a big dream and his brothers laughed at him, he was tricked and sent to prison for years. That was his desert. I’m just walking out of the prison. The prison was people who were close to me laughing at my dreams. The prison was my shutting my heart off. The prison was pretending to forgive and forget, but feeling the pain still. The prison was my unwillingness to believe that God was safe.
And slowly I poured my heart out, it is a physical tension I still feel. I’ll feel a literal ache in my heart, my neck starts to hurt and in the pressure of all the stress, my hand has felt numb as if an after effect of my heart tension.
So in it all, I let go of controlling the pain or the fears. Because I know you are safe God.
Rebekka Lien 