I’m Closer To Finding My Soulmate

Today the Lord led me to a ramen place and immediately my heart felt led to sit next to this lady. She said she got married recently. She told me she knew her husband for 7 years but they didn’t see themselves in a relationship. They had different life circumstances.

Then she said “oh I know a girl name Rebecca too that just got married!” She told me it was her coworker.

Yesterday I had a dream I was eating with someone like my aunt and I think this was the lady I was supposed to meet.

I’ve been learning a lot about relationships. Sometimes I’ll have issues with someone I am seeing and I’ll start googling-

“What do you do when a man lashes out?”

“What do you do when man shut down?”

I didn’t realize how clueless I was to men’s behavior. Obviously not every guy is the same.

I never really felt that close to anyone and God brought someone that I felt closer to than anyone I’ve met.

I had to google-

“Extroverts and introverts” because I started noticing really vast differences that was making us fight. The thing is I did not want to commit to anyone right now because I don’t know if that person really wants marriage so I’ve opted to “seeing” people.

I realize my fear of intimacy stopped me from overcoming the fear when it came down to it…the fear of getting attached or abandoned was huge.

There were times I felt completely abandoned and that the guy had no desire to try.

Things I’ve learned from dating and interacting with men-