Today the Lord led me to a ramen place and immediately my heart felt led to sit next to this lady. She said she got married recently. She told me she knew her husband for 7 years but they didn’t see themselves in a relationship. They had different life circumstances.
Then she said “oh I know a girl name Rebecca too that just got married!” She told me it was her coworker.
Yesterday I had a dream I was eating with someone like my aunt and I think this was the lady I was supposed to meet.
I’ve been learning a lot about relationships. Sometimes I’ll have issues with someone I am seeing and I’ll start googling-
“What do you do when a man lashes out?”
“What do you do when man shut down?”
I didn’t realize how clueless I was to men’s behavior. Obviously not every guy is the same.
I never really felt that close to anyone and God brought someone that I felt closer to than anyone I’ve met.
I had to google-
“Extroverts and introverts” because I started noticing really vast differences that was making us fight. The thing is I did not want to commit to anyone right now because I don’t know if that person really wants marriage so I’ve opted to “seeing” people.
I realize my fear of intimacy stopped me from overcoming the fear when it came down to it…the fear of getting attached or abandoned was huge.
There were times I felt completely abandoned and that the guy had no desire to try.
Things I’ve learned from dating and interacting with men-
- Be honest, don’t hide your truth even if it hurts them.
- Learn to ask for what you want
- Say what’s on your heart
When you allow yourself to be truthful and authentic you’ll get what you want!
Thank you for partnering with me to reach people for Christ!