From Samoa
You are enough
God told me to call my mom and dad so i did. As you know I didn’t grow up with my dad and I tried many times to build a relationship with him.
I called. He didn’t answer. God said call again. Then he said call again.
No answer. I felt rejected. I felt unwanted growing up.
I just hear God say to someone-
“You’ve tried hard enough and it’s not your fault”.
Someone out there reading is thinking that how your parents treated you, or how your husband or wife or ex treated you was your fault but I want to let you know this –
“It’s not your fault”
And you don’t have to punish yourself for other peoples’ inability to love.
I want you to move on and find people who can love the way you love, wholeheartedly.
I was praying and ministering to a girl that seemed like she had gone through a lot and a part of me felt like I had to stay.
I felt that because she was suffering I had to sit there and suffer with her.
Then I realized it was guilt.
Guilty feeling came….that I didn’t seem to be suffering as much as she was.
I know it sounds weird. Why would you feel guilty for being whole and happy?
Well many people feel this way. They feel like they must suffer for other peoples’ sufferings. They must suffer with them.
I am worthy of happiness.
I am worthy of love.
I am enough.
I have to remind myself that I deserve to be happy and I don’t need to feel bad for enjoying myself just because someone out there is feeling abandoned by me.
You’ve tried hard enough. It’s time to let go. It’s not your fault. You deserve your own happiness. You don’t have to feel guilty for wanting to be happy.
You’re not the reason for other peoples’ misery. Forgive yourself.
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Rebekka Lien 