I could feel resentment and rage in my heart. I woke up in the middle of the night and my heart was nothing but tense. I walked outside and felt the breeze.
Some nights I walk around not knowing how I feel, but tonight I’m trying to tap into my emotions.
I felt hatred for my dad. I’ve been trying to contact him for months and no reply. What’s the point of trying?
I should just give up.
I walked back in the house and my mom asked why I went out. I told her some of my frustrations, mainly things that I felt lost about. Then I told her how I feel frustrated that some people disappeared out of my life and I can’t seem to reach them.
Mostly I brought up my dad.
To be honest, I wish he died so I didn’t have to care that he was not contacting me. I know it sounds weird but imagine someone who is supposed to care about you who never reaches out.
I prayed to God “please take away this anger”. I reached out to people on Facebook and asked for prayer, I told people how I felt….
Then I felt the tears come.
The tears felt like a release of all my resentment and anger.
Slowly they rolled down my cheeks.
Thank you God that you opened my heart. Each day I have to choose to open my heart, I can’t hold onto resentment. Each day I talk to people, I try to tell people how I feel. Why? Because I don’t want my heart hard.
Do you have someone you need to forgive? Do you have someone who you hate?
I Didn’t See My Dad For 10 Years & Battled Depression and Anxiety
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