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Tomorrow is my birthday!

Not to start with a sob fest or anything but the last couple of years have been disappointing. I was in my wilderness season and didn’t really have friends to celebrate with, and even if I did I didn’t have the heart to. I really felt depressed.

So honestly I didn’t get any gifts except maybe from my mom. So if you want to give a birthday gift the links are below. I also didn’t get Christmas presents for a few years.

It won’t be like this forever, the dry and weary seasons of your life, the seasons you feel alone and are struggling.

I know it’s ending for me. For one, I actually have a friend this year that I got to celebrate with. It’s already better. I got a gift this year.

I have people that love me.

I lost many friends in the season God launched me into ministry. There were many misunderstandings and many probably divinely assisted friend breakups. It had to happen for me to move on. But it still hurt.

I spent my last birthday in Australia, celebrating with a small group of Christians that I just met. It felt foreign but my heart was happy to be with people.

One birthday a few years ago, I was healing from a relationship breakup and I was tired of seeing relatives for my birthday (who would probably criticize me instead of celebrate me, or perhaps gossip about me) so I went to Catalina Island and then God had me bump into Kris Holden Reid, an actor.

He was my favorite actor at that point but I forgot who he was…I thought I had met him at church or something.

This year my friend and I went to an after Oscar party, which turned out to be a bit boring but we met someone who met for Jimmy Kimmel and a few 19 year old actors who were full of life and quite handsome.

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I REALLY HATE THAT I DON’T HAVE NEW SHOES. Look at these summer wedges, they don’t match but I AM MAKING THEM WORK.

I NEED NEW SHOES ASAP but finding comfortable cute shoes is like finding your husband, it’s like WHEN LORD!~

Also please be in prayer for me…

This morning I woke up to Target saying someone tried to charge my credit card…praise God it didn’t go through but I’ll have to change all my passwords.

A few months ago my phone was stolen. I mean the enemy is trying hard ….but I DECREE THIS-

²“Enlarge the place of your tent,
    stretch your tent curtains wide,
    do not hold back;
lengthen your cords,
    strengthen your stakes.
³For you will spread out to the right and to the left;
    your descendants will dispossess nations
    and settle in their desolate cities.

⁴“Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame.
    Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.
You will forget the shame of your youth
    and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood.
⁵For your Maker is your husband—
    the Lord Almighty is his name—
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
    he is called the God of all the earth.

Joel 2:25-32

²⁵“So I will restore to you the years that the swarming ^[a]locust has eaten,
The crawling locust,
The consuming locust,
And the chewing locust,
My great army which I sent among you.
²⁶You shall eat in plenty and be satisfied,
And praise the name of the Lord your God,
Who has dealt wondrously with you;
And My people shall never be put to shame.
²⁷Then you shall know that I am in the midst of Israel:
I am the Lord your God
And there is no other.
My people shall never be put to shame.