How about ‘Open Your Heart- Come Out of Hiding’ as a 2020 resolution
Tell someone how you actually feel
Tell them they hurt you
Tell them you love or like them (even if they don’t reciprocate or don’t feel the same way)
Tell them what your heart was too scared to tell them
God will bring people to trigger you. You may want to be in the comfort of a womb, to be in control, protected…but often times we are protecting our hearts from love because we have been wounded.
It may feel annoying, you may not feel like talking to anyone, you may be wondering why a stranger is talking to you, you may start to feel anxious because you are holding the anger in, you may want to stay asleep and someone wakes you up with noise, you may wonder why someone is attacking you verbally, you may want to crawl in a hole….
But this is all good for you…
I don’t want you to be alone,
I wan’t you to be loved.
Leave me alone you may say,
But I will never leave you alone.
I feel utterly out of control but learning to let go of control and let love in. To respond authentically, not how I should, but how I really feel.
Love is scary.
You may tell someone how you feel and they may reject or judge you, they may lash out because they’re hurt.
In the last few months I have been telling people how I feel. Sometimes people yell, sometimes they’re hurt, sometimes they respond well.
I never know what to expect. I’ve been severely hurt and wounded. But I’m learning to speak my truth.
I’ve told people that I loved them, that I liked them, and it was not reciprocated.
People have told me they want to have a relationship with me, and I’ve told them I don’t see a future.
I told my mother that it hurt that she told me to stop crying instead of comforting me when I broke up with my boyfriend at the age of 15.
I thought it was wrong to be sad. But I’ve learned sadness is part of life, we need to embrace each emotion, not skip it or say next.
Love is not love if you are only accepted at your best emotion, Love is love when you’re allowed to be yourself at each moment- emotional, sad, angry, bitter.
God accepts us whatever state we are in.
Even then we are enough.
You are whole. You are not lacking. There is no condemnation for those in Christ Jesus. You are righteous. Even if you are heart broken, you are not lacking, you didn’t lose a piece of your heart to someone, you are intact.
Remember that vision church teachers gave you? When you’re in love a part of you sticks onto that person, well the truth is grace means you are whole however broken your heart feels. You didn’t lose yourself, though it may feel like it.
You are still whole,
you are still enough
because of Jesus’ sacrifice on the cross.
You didn’t waste time, you didn’t lose yourself, you are still whole. You didn’t do anything wrong. You are on the right path, don’t live in regret, forgive yourself.
Here’s a fun shirt I saw at the mall, it made me laugh.
I love you all.
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