No one told me 30s is actually the beginning of the best time of your life

In my twenties I was still caught up with trying to please others. I didn’t know it, but I wanted my mom’s approval. I wanted her to be proud of me. I wanted her to be able to boast about me.

But 9 months into my full time job at the age of 23 I knew my life wouldn’t be like any other.

I guess age doesn’t really matter.

It’s more about knowing who you are in Christ Jesus. I’m glad I started to learn this early in life.

I feel more content, more happy than I’ve ever felt in my life. Sure, the devil still comes to discourage me and tell me “look at you, you’re struggling to pay for a hostel and your friends are married and have a house”.

I actually battled these thoughts last week.

As a shepherd to the lost sheep, a prophet being sent by God, I don’t always have much materially. In those times I start envying those that are at home. I imagine them sitting in front of their tv, munching on snacks.

But I know it’s the devil trying to get me to stop reaching souls.

Then there are times like this, sitting on a bus I booked this morning (a donation just came in) and I didn’t know where I was going until I asked a girl where she was going and she replied picton.

“That’s where you need to go”.

Yesterday without knowing where I was going to stay at night the Lord told me to go into the city.

I knocked on someone’s window and asked for a ride. I prayed for him.

Later, I’m standing on the street and I see Wendy’s. I decide to go in and I start to talk to a young man from Minnesota. I prayed for him and told him testimonies after testimonies.

It turned out he grew up Lutheran but never thought of God in a personal way.

He told me he had stayed at yha hostel and I felt I was supposed to go there. There, I met a writer. I got to pray for her. She told me she left the church 3 years ago. I said, someone hurt you didn’t they?

She said she lost two babies in a miscarriage and then her husband left her. She was writing a book on intercultural relationships and another on happiness.

She encouraged me to write my book.

I told her how I had a dream that I had a pencil in my stomach and someone pulled it out. Maybe it was her who was supposed to pull it out.

On March 9 I had a dream I was pregnant with two babies and the babies were due October 11. I felt this was significant for me but maybe many others out there.

Don’t be afraid to step out and do what God has put in your heart to do.

It’s time to birth what God has given you to birth.

The difference between me in my twenties and thirties is that I’m not afraid of what people think about me anymore.

I don’t need to prove myself.

Sure there are times I get insecure or I have fears but I rebuke them. They’re lies from the devil – they’re not part of me.

I am righteous in Christ Jesus. I am enough in Him. I am not lacking.

I endured living with my mother for two years while she accused me about not having a stable job. At that time the Lord told me not to work and to rest. He was training me and preparing me for this work that I now do. It was not easy and I often felt bad about myself but God would say “you are enough, you are not lacking”.

He was preparing me for the numerous accusations that the enemy would try to bring against me on the road- some from himself, some from non Christians, some from religious spirited Christians, you name it.

I needed to hear God clearly and obey His path no matter what others said.

I’m walking true North, with Jesus. His path is true north. No matter what others say, listen to Him. He will never leave nor forsake you.

When you know who you are in Christ Jesus you won’t be moved by what you think you need to be more, you are enough.

You won’t be moved when someone says “why aren’t you married yet, you’re too picky”.

You won’t be moved when others say “you should or shouldn’t do this”.

You won’t be moved when you see others living their true north.

You’ll be stable, only listening to the One who created you, knowing you are a child of God!


With love, Rebekka

Writing on the bus in New Zealand


The Season of Intimacy

This is a prophetic word.

I woke up from a dream where I was telling someone that my mom gives to my brother whatever he wants but nothing for me. I come home and throw all the piano books to the ground. My mom says what is wrong? I tell her and say “I’m starving!”

I run out and find the guy I liked (this is in the same neighborhood and the same guy from my dream yesterday) and tell him what happened.

Later I’m at a table and my mom shows me a picture of her with a guy. I can tell she has compromised herself, she has lowered her standards to be with him.

In the dream I start crying because I feel for her but for every woman who has given up who she is to be with someone.

I suddenly don’t feel mad at her.

When I woke up I heard God say “most people are not living at the level of intimacy that I desire for them”.

There is a level of intimacy God longs for us and He is currently doing a deep healing and work in our hearts. He said that most people do not say what’s really are their minds and they hold back because of fear.

Yesterday there was noise next door and I told the receptionist. When I came back my roommates said “that’s what you were doing? Why didn’t you just tell them directly?” I said because I’ve been through this enough to know most people get really mad and offended and I don’t need to deal with it, which is true in this case.

She said “well I can deal with any noise”. Well I can’t. And I have to confront these issues head on. I have to speak up for my sake, and I shouldn’t be made to feel guilty for it.

How many times do we drown out how we really feel by ignoring it? We don’t tell others how we really feel because we fear rejection or we fear drama?

We silence ourselves or isolate ourselves instead of facing the rejection that we may face for being authentic.

In that moment of standing up for what I wanted, I realized I was different from the girls. And that when we live our truths we need to face being outcasted by others.

What is something you’ve been wanting to say to someone but have been fearing their reactions? God wants us to live in truth and by being vulnerable we will grow in our relationships.

What is something you’ve been holding back from God?

Anger? Bitterness? God can take it all. He will listen. He’s not just there when you’re happy but when you’re at your worse. We often present the best version of ourselves to others but true intimacy is about showing the most vulnerable part of yourself at all times.

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world.

Let’s Talk Romance

Remember when you used to write love stories?

Yes. And you drew comic books?


It’s been awhile.

I had a dream about a guy I used to like. I thought this guy liked me too but one day he told me he started dating a girl and I was heart broken. I thought I didn’t understand betrayal but I totally forgot about this long forgotten memory.

How many of you have become a very logical being because Lord forbid if you felt anything you might be heart broken?

How many of you have shut down your heart to protect it?

But then you actually blocked out everything good as well?

Let’s talk romance.

I think we all want a wildly romantic life. Not just with a partner but one of wild adventures, surprises and miracles. Most of us actually love good surprises but we’ve become control freaks because life didn’t always bring us good surprises…In fact a lot of negative surprises came our way.

That’s why I often found myself wildly surprised on this trip- sometimes in ways I felt really out of control. I tried to do anything to stay control.

Take right now as an example. I know where God wants me to go next, so I tried to raise the funds to buy the plane ticket but it didn’t come together.

So I’m like okay God I think you want me to slow down and just trust you.

Take today as an example. I really want to see sheep but went the wrong direction on a bus. I ended up in a residential area and had to knock at a corporate door for directions.

It reminded me of 3 years ago when I went to Bali and wanted to scooter my way around like Eat, Pray, Love but ended up getting into an accident and had to lie in bed for 2 weeks.

My friend told me “you we’re just living in freedom. God is now ordering your steps”.

It’s okay to try to get ahead, but God will order your steps. Since you might be as hard headed as I am, you May encounter a closed door…

God is asking me to slow down. He is wanting us to spend time with Him and rebuild our hearts and strength for what is to come.

Greater strength, greater anointing, greater harvest.

God wants to surprise us. Even when we think we’ve got God figured out. Even as a prophet, we are to be like little children.

He doesn’t want us to know everything. He wants us to trust Him completely.

That’s a romantic life.

Imagine going on a date and constantly asking your date- what’s next? What’s next time? When?

That would be an awful date. He wants us to be enraptured by His love and to be fully indulged in His adventure. He wants us to enjoy His company.

So what about taking His hand? And letting go of control?

I’m listening to Korean love music as I write this. I love romance. I love been enraptured in the moment.

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world.

A Matter Of Trust



Before I went overseas I had many dreams about wearing a wedding dress getting ready on an airplane.

The wedding dress was symbolic of trust, marrying Jesus, trusting Him, giving my whole life to Him.

And yet I still have trouble trusting Him at times. Like times when He tells me where to go next to minister to the people He needs me to reach. I don’t see the finances for the plane ticket; it slowly comes together but very slowly. Like I have two days left to pull the finances together. If He even wants me there then.

I woke up thinking “I give up. It’s like pulling a dead cow. I tried my best. I give up and surrender. Not by my flesh or effort but by your spirit”.

It was much easier to work for money but now that I trust God for it to do the work He has called me to, sometimes and most of the time it’s a matter of letting go.

I let go.

You won’t abandon me. Why me though? Why of all people did you call me?

Because you choose to trust me even when it’s scary. You choose to face the fears and go through the pain even when you don’t see a way.

That is why you are a pioneer because no one else will do it.

Why won’t anyone else do it?

They don’t trust me.

They don’t believe that I am good.

That is why many have yet to step into what I have called them to. They will rather cling unto a job or a man, something they can see.

You can’t always see me, yet you can hear me.

I can hear you but my heart still battles to trust you.

And that is okay. I know you are fragile, human, imperfect but I only see Jesus in you. Perfect; unblemished; not lacking; abundant. That is all I see.

He paid the price.

I am asking you to see Jesus in you. That is the only truth.

This journey is about intimacy. Not everyone wears a wedding ring with my name on it. Some are unwilling to trust me, I’m waiting patiently and will continue waiting for them.

Woman of God will you trust me? Will you trust me when you don’t see it yet? Will you listen to my still voice? Will you put a ring with my name on it?

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world.

Sow to Reap!


Hi friends! I am currently fundraising for my stay at Christchurch. You all have seen the work is being done and your contribution impacts people for eternity. Your giving will also be returned 100 fold in Jesus name! Any amount helps- $20, 50, 100, 500, 1000.
May you give as the spirit leads! Thank you in advance. Thousands of lives are being touched for eternity!

here are links to contribute.

I just arrived in Christchurch and a God sent angel gave me a ride to a hostel he found online and I felt peace about it! I got to pray over them!



God I need you more than ever. I’ve seen you work before yet every time I go to a new place I ask you “will you lead the way? Will I have a place to sleep?” I’m looking for your lost sheep, I’m looking for your sheep. I’m relying solely on you, for your provision. I’ve seen miracles. At a moments notice, you sent me to peoples’ homes and yet again I leave and I feel like I have to start over and yet again I have to be brave and courageous and have the question mark of “when, how?”

How will you provide this time? 

How will you lead me this time? 

I often arrive late at night in a new city not knowing where you are leading me, but I follow. 

I follow with my carry on and a duffel bag, a stranger in a foreign city. Everything feels foreign, I don’t feel excited, I feel apprehensive. 

I feel scared at times. Will you take care of me again? Will you do it again? 

Then divine encounters after divine encounters, I see healings and miracles, both physical, emotional and spiritual.

I am the messenger and carrier of your miracle. How could it be? 

I see people cry and laugh with wonder, faces transformed, body healed, heart open. 

How it could be? 

I asked how will you provide, how could it be? 

You’ve done it again and again, country to country, you never fail me. 

I’m your chosen prophet; a pastor to lost sheep, I hold and embrace the lost sheep and welcome them back. I tell them “you’re not under condemnation, you are perfect in God’s eyes”.

I pray with the lost and they hear Jesus’ voice. You long for your children and all to come to you. Your ways are gentle, never forceful. 

You chose me but sometimes the calling and purpose seems too big for me. I am just human but with you in me. 

The resurrected Christ in me. You speak through me, healing the broken hearted and mending old wounds. 

You correct peoples’ views of you through me. You say “I am a loving father, not a mean one”. 

God you will not leave me stranded, the servant and messenger. Through me the world have already seen- you are too real, only by God’s grace you’ve carried me this far. 

I tell tales too miraculous to believe. They listen in awe, but they don’t know the sacrifices too big to explain. This is the longest I’ve been away from my mom. Midway a family member got sick. I keep going, praying for them. 

I keep going because there are souls and lives at stake. Most people live comfortable lives seeking their own lives but I’ve been carrying my cross and following Him. I’m working for a kingdom most can’t see. 

They’ll say “sure I’ll follow Jesus but only as much as this” and they’ll point to the end of their couch or the end of their house or the end and premise of their city. 

I’m a layed down lover. I do it because His love broke through the deepest part of my heart and I’ve allowed Him to break my own strength. 

I can do nothing in my own strength. I boast in Christ alone. If He doesn’t move, I am literally in trouble. I’d been stuck in a country or sleeping on the streets or homeless with no food to eat. 

Yet, he has provided all that I need according to his riches in glory. Sometimes my needs are met by the people I am ministering to. 

But He is a good father and he will never leave nor forsake you. 

I am almost 8 months overseas and I’ve never missed one meal or had to sleep on the street once even if I had to sleep late looking for a place as the Lord directed.

I’ve seen the Lord speak to Muslims, the Lord speak in Vietnamese, the Lord heal wounded backs, I’ve seen people open their eyes to God through prophetic words, I’ve had hundreds and even thousands of divine encounters. 

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. I am currently fundraising for what is ahead. Going to Christchurch, New Zealand today. Thank you in advance for obeying God – May the Lord bless you abundantly!

please pray for:

1. Safety, protection by angels

2. Provision, finances

3. God to prepare the hearts of those I minister to

4. The city of christchurch


Prophesy for Souls


When we hear from God we prophesy and open up peoples’ hearts to who God is.

Yesterday I was walking behind a guy I saw at the hostel and I said- aren’t you from the hostel? He said yes. I said what’s your tattoo?

I said “can I pray for you?”

he said “yes but I’m not religious so you can pray for me but I’m not praying with you”.

“Okay no worries I’m praying for you and you are not praying with me”.

”right now??” He looked like he wanted to walk away. We were in the middle of the street. I touched his arms and closed my eyes.

“I see you djing. Do you DJ?”

He said “I used to as a little kid. How did you know that?” He looked a bit surprised. He started to talk about his love for music. He was from England.

When you are always talking to God and hearing from God, you prophesy to open peoples’ hearts to who God is.

Yesterday I felt led to go to the kitchen. There was a girl who was very against the institution of church having grown up in catholic school.

I said “I don’t like institution too. In fact I’m not religious either. Jesus came to destroy rules not to bind us. He came to set us free”.

I said “come. I will pray for you”.

I held her hand and said “I see people all around you criticizing you” she was shocked, she told me she was so criticized over a situation in her life that she came to New Zealand to escape. I won’t go into detail with what was happening but then I also saw an image of someone pulling her hair and God cuts her hair.

she said “I’ve been wanting to cut my hair! But I’m scared I won’t like it”.

I said “just do it. Life is about trying and living in freedom. God wants us to try without fear. He is cutting away criticism from your life”.

I could tell her whole face lit up. She didn’t seem skeptical anymore. I told her testimonies about God working in my 8 month journey. She said “for some reason I believe you!”

Because I spoke into her situation, I knew what was in her heart. We talked for A few hours, she no longer had her guard up. God loves her.

God knows what is in your heart. He is not concerned about you knowing things, He is longing for a heart connection.

A french man listened into my conversation with the woman. He tried to ask me theological questions but I said “I’m not here to debate about theology, I’m here to show you God’s heart”.

I asked to pray for him. I saw his heart being opened and light coming out of his heart. I said- God is opening your heart because you tend to analyze things with your mind, it’s your way of self protection.

Okay well, he tried to analyze the truth I spoke about his heart.

My job is to do heart surgery. Jesus always speaks into peoples’ hearts. He is a master of heart language. He is not a theologian, He is a heart master.

Give- Consider sowing into the kingdom and into the hearts of people around the world. I am currently fundraising for what is ahead. In one more night I’ll be going to Christchurch, New Zealand. Thank you in advance for obeying God – May the Lord bless you abundantly!