I could feel resentment and rage in my heart. I woke up in the middle of the night and my heart was nothing but tense. I walked outside and felt the breeze.
Some nights I walk around not knowing how I feel, but tonight I’m trying to tap into my emotions.
I felt hatred for my dad. I’ve been trying to contact him for months and no reply. What’s the point of trying?
I should just give up.
I walked back in the house and my mom asked why I went out. I told her some of my frustrations, mainly things that I felt lost about. Then I told her how I feel frustrated that some people disappeared out of my life and I can’t seem to reach them.
Mostly I brought up my dad.
To be honest, I wish he died so I didn’t have to care that he was not contacting me. I know it sounds weird but imagine someone who is supposed to care about you who never reaches out.
I prayed to God “please take away this anger”. I reached out to people on Facebook and asked for prayer, I told people how I felt….
Then I felt the tears come.
The tears felt like a release of all my resentment and anger.
Slowly they rolled down my cheeks.
Thank you God that you opened my heart. Each day I have to choose to open my heart, I can’t hold onto resentment. Each day I talk to people, I try to tell people how I feel. Why? Because I don’t want my heart hard.
Do you have someone you need to forgive? Do you have someone who you hate?
I Didn’t See My Dad For 10 Years & Battled Depression and Anxiety
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You don’t seem as heartbroken as you once we’re we have a lot in common but I know I’d be wasting my time I live in Nashville TN am a musician a Christian and really like your beliefs on sex but hey life goes on you’ll probably never read this but yes you’re worth it the truth will get you everywhere glad you found that someone I didn’t realize you were so big you couldn’t say hi I’m a studio musician but I’m humble anyway just wanted say hi
Nice to meet you. Thank you for writing me. God bless you! Yes, I read all my comments.