In 11 days I’ll be landing in Los Angeles after 3.75 months. I’ve been broken and grown in ways I couldn’t imagine, I feel like I’m a new person. I went through boot camp! It was intense man. But somehow I feel renewed and energized, I’m willing to live out what’s next and let my heart be set on fire, sensitive to God’s voice, and learning to love and be loved.
As posted on facebook.
My soul has been softened to hear God better. That took lots of turmoil and challenges.
Again I can’t better express but through a poem-
Demons and devils, they hunt me down at night
I see their shades of black roaming about the room
I pray for protection, softly falling into my dreams
The 4 months in Asia, hell and fire broke lose.
My own inhibitions, like fire setting the forest dried and forlorn
The lamps shake in fear, I traveled up to a bus, off a bus, off a mountain, onto a bike
hostels, roads, backpack in hand, luggage in the other
People with advice came and gone
I alone sat in my room, I alone I alone
I cried and laughed, when alone I longed to be with a friend
When too much people surrounded me, I wanted to be alone
It’s a conflicting lifestyle
never ending it seemed, blankets and carpets, laundry unwashed
The tired sojourner got massages, nails done, primp and hair salon
what i thought would relaxe me gave me a headache when curls pulled too tight
strangers gave me the wrong direction, and I alone I alone, lost again
There’s much to do when alone, yet no one to share with
the spirit beckons and holds, His hand always holding me, no one could understand
only He can when my socks lost and shoes hurt my toes.
Just a little while, He said. I am preparing you for great things, things to change you and the world.
A life worth living.
4 years ago, I would’ve cared less, for your death or if you were under a truck, dead
This year, I stare into your life
nothing, empty and wasted
who will love you? you have failed, you have failed everyone around you
who will love you? 4 years ago I would’ve cared less
I know God would, God is your father and you are his son
and I, well your daughter, but also God’s daughter.
But who raised me? God did.
who will love you earthly father? God will.
As for me, I will too. 4 years ago I would’ve shot you down
father father, I suppose I’ve never really meant it when i called you that
maybe you should call out to both of our Father. the real Father.
who will love you? He will.
Taiwan will always be my home, one of my home. I love the food, I love the people, I love the place. This is where I had 4 years of my childhood, my blood is here. Shuangxi is one of my homes too, it’s a little village up in the mountains. There are greens and lakes, fishes and nature to fulfill you. Taiwan holds a special place in my heart because like Los angeles, it’s near a beach, surrounded by waters. I love water and I love the beach.
I HEART TAIWAN. The end. 🙂 I’m leaving you in 11 days and I can’t bear to say goodbye, especially to my friends here. I will miss you all, you have made my life more special, more full, more happy because of you alls.
We have shared tears, laughter, fun together. Thank you for sharing your life with me. I don’t know when I will see you all again, but I know we are fated to be friends. Those moments we traveled our lives together, that was God-given, a gift from heaven. Though we now part, I pray the best for your life, I pray for true joy and peace and hope.
Just wanted to say all that before life takes us full speed and we forget each other once more.