So yesterday I had a dream where people started writing about me and texting me. I was becoming famous but I was in deep water and asking someone if it was okay that I was wearing leather boots, will they be comfortable or ruined in water?
Then another dream was that there were 3 animals but this guy said “it’s mine and it’s my grandma’s and I have to keep it in my garage”- referring to the past.
SO then I was telling my friend this dream and she said “just remember to relax in your own skin”.
Then I fell asleep again and then all of a sudden I had this HUGE realization.
Yesterday I met a Muslim girl from Indonesia in the bathroom. I told her how it was REALLY IMPORTANT THAT she WRITE what she FELT, not just WHAT PEOPLE WANT TO HEAR because HER STORY MATTERS AND HER VOICE MATTERS.
SHE CAN CHANGE HER NATION WITH HER WORDS.
She told me how in her country you can get imprisoned for simply joking about “having a bomb on an airplane” but I was talking about how in America you can say you want to chop off the President’s head and it’s okay because “yes it’s really that free” I told her.
She told me how when she is with relatives she is even shy about showing her neck area since she wears a head covering.
In the bathroom, she said “it’s okay, you can see me” and she took off her head covering.
Her hair was beautiful, she had dyed it partially blonde and for some reason, I felt a sigh a relief.
Is this how it feels to show your skin? To finally allow others to see the real you?
To not hide anymore, who you are, what you look like, what you think. To not be afraid of judgement, rejection, imprisonment even.
The truth is I’ve been battling insecurities at times too. For example, feeling like I have a double chin, this is my insecurity at times. And I have to come back to God and hear Him say “you are enough, you are beautiful just the way you are”.
We live in a world that tells us WHO to be, What to think, and even WHAT to say to be accepted. We get hunted down when we don’t say something that is either politically correct or that “offends” someone.
You will offend someone no matter what you say and who you are. Someone will find you offensive. People find me offensive in various parts of Asia because I am blunt.
But as a prophet, I have to brave and bold and say what’s on my mind because God’s light and truth must be spoken to pierce the darkness and lies that people believe in.
Show yourself, show who you really are.
That night I got really frustrated.
I said “God I am so ready to just speak in front of thousands of people and be a voice for the voiceless and to FREE people from oppression, I am SO TIRED of seeing people living under oppression and this FEAR of rejection and judgement. NO MORE SHAME LORD!”
Ever since I was young I saw myself speaking in front of thousands and millions of people, I saw myself writing books and shedding light into the darkest hearts. Now I am doing it but on smaller scale and a part of me feels impatient but I know God’s timing is perfect.
I pray what I write and speak will bring freedom to people.
You are not a slave to society and what society thinks of you, you are free. In Christ Jesus.
To Sow A Seed to This Ministry and What I am doing around the world, bringing Jesus’ love to people