Inner Healing? What?

In a world of quick fixes, computers, iphones, money, media, music, quick  bandages…what the heck is inner healing? Unfortunately, I must say that our society has  become FAKE. Everything is fake, from smiles to greetings, to plastic surgery to makeup,  to  cars and blings, to bags to words. Words?

For example: Person walks by, “heyyy how are you doing?” with wide smile. “ummm, well  not that well”. Person has already walked by, not caring what his reply is.

Get the point? No one seems to really care or listen anymore. Is it any wonder that all of  us carry heavy emotional baggages? From guilt, shame, unforgiveness, bitterness, hatred,  low self- esteem, depression, to anything you can imagine. It is eating us alive like worms just creating a sick cave of rotting apples and eggs, it is smelling like dead fish from ancient days.

Now, I really have no reason for posting this Afro ken picture. But I almost like to think a dog is so much more healthy. But then of course, a dog is not a human being. Side note…haha.

My favorite bible verse talks about this: “The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisoners…” Isaiah 61:1

Now I think many of you imagined “Captives” as literally captives in prisons or whatever. But this is what I imagine now…captives that are captive to sin, guilt, shame, whatever I listed above. The first time I experienced healing in years was when a respected mentor prayed healing over me. Mainly, “for forgiveness”. For some odd reason, I felt this well of emotion like flooding, like a taifung, like tsunami breaking out of my eyes, nose, and everything that can give off snot and yucky residues. I didn’t realize I had so much pain from the hurts that I had gently covered with blankets of achievements, self- pride, and yes, did I mention achievements already? Sigh, I am so much more Asian than I thought.

For some reason, if anything, I can handle fake brands, because out of all things, it is not faking a person or personality. Okay, maybe it does. Whatever, I don’t buy fake brands.

Enough said- I’m excited for what God’s going to do. Peace friends.

“hindrances to receiving healing: fear of the past, unwillingness or inability to face the truth, and denial”. Charles H. Kraft

Every time I talk to my friends about the injustices of this world, I am self- convicted. Yes, this injustice. But what are we doing about it. I am praying, giving, fasting, doing. I want to do more, I want to pour myself out for the people of this world. I don’t want to sit behind a desk and just write this. I want to be out there holding hands, hugging people that needs to be loved.

Human beings are not for sale or sell. Things are for sale, not people. What has greed led us to? How can I too write this when I spend 8 dollars for a meal? When others are starving, when others are held captive in sexual slavery. I know many of America don’t want to face this harsh reality because once we know, we will be convicted to do. The fact of the matter is that most of us don’t want to do because that means- change, insecurity, change of mindset, way of living, change of lifestyle- a lifestyle that centers not on self, but on others.

I have a deep sense of calling. My heart is so panged, my heart is angered more and more as I research and delve into this issue of modern day slavery. Why I? Why was I privileged enough to be born able? Able to learn, to grow, to play, to work? Why I? So that I can indulge in my own desires and materialistic wealth? So I can live in comfort while miles away, kids and women are being abducted?  So I can live in ignorance, avoiding the suffering of this world, hoping that I can live in Neverland forever…then die and be in Heaven?

Or was I privileged enough, despite my defected past, that I might be freed to deliver captives, bind wounds, heal hearts? I won’t stand for injustice. I won’t stand for relativity. I won’t stand for complacency. I won’t stand for evil or wickedness. I won’t stand for false gods that claim to deliver but give imitation hope, imitation love, imitation life.

“Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things- and the things that are not- to nullify the things that are, so that no one may boast before him. It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God- that is, our righteousness, holiness, and redemption. Therefore, it is written, “Let those who boast boast in the Lord“. 1 Corinthians 1:26-31

If you can look at human trafficking and laugh it away…I can only mourn for you. For truth is not relative, truth declares, stands, shouts for freedom.